Everyone's focusing on the cuteness with Aya, but those last couple of panels are oof. We know she was already struggling with academics; now we see she was working on songs in her math not book and the way she looked away as she closed it and said she was going to bed ... If I'm not reading too much into it, she's using songwriting and music to procrastinate on studying and thinking about her actual future, while also refusing to actually think about a future as an artist, and she knows it's going to come back to bite her.
I can relate to being in that kind-of self destructive rut. It's not good and I hope she can pull herself out of it before she finds herself in a place without good options.
On an unrelated note, is it possible to actually make out what she wrote for a title?
Koveras posted:
"It's easy to be creative for some reason," she says. Well, no shit, Sherlock, it's not like you have your greatest fan on speed dial who worships everything you write.
Eh. Having someone who's super supportive on speed dial can be helpful, but it can also be intimidating, because what if you don't live up to their expectations? I think the real reason she's finding it easy to write music is because "there's no goal to [it]." It's a purely self-indulgent exercise that she doesn't expect to share with anyone, and doesn't actually expect to be good, so she doesn't feel any pressure when doing it.
We've seen that Koga has a somewhat avoidant personality when it comes to doing things that she considers important or potentially difficult, in that she'll shy away from even thinking about them or catastrophize about them, and that to get past that she often has to wait until she hits a crisis point and then throw herself into some big, spectacular, effort. (Just look at her performance, at the school festival, for Aya.) Again, this is very familiar behavior and I'm starting to wonder if she might have ADHD, though that might just be me projecting myself onto the character.
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