Stumbled across this now. Big fan of Miyahara's previous work, but as they seem to be in charge of only art, it stands to be seen where this goes. Not gonna lie, having been battling depression for a long time, some of the phrases and expressions in these two chapters were like a kick to the fucking skull for me, but at the same time, there's a bizarre sense of lightheartedness that in contrast to what the premise would suggest, implies a more lighthearted progression and conclusion. But again, we'll see.

I hope it ends up with the MC somehow persuading the female lead to not die

Don't we all? (niko)

We don't hope, we fully expect this to happen.

I'd say both hope and expert, but pretty much, yeah. I expect the road to have its fair share of bumps and hiccups, but, as mentioned above, that this would be more lighthearted than having two seemingly suicidal leads would suggest.

I don't get what's bad about having your farewell letter read at your funeral...

The way I'm understanding it, at the most basic level, let's say that someone commits suicide, and leaves a note to their family very clearly saying that it is their fault that this has happened. This would surely affect them significantly, no? Especially if some of them thought things were alright or that they were on good terms with the deceased. They'd have to live with that their entire lives afterward, which is why it's a pretty bad thing, and also why it's something that a vengeful person would want to do. Also fuck yeah that has raised some serious personal trauma to the surface and I'm having a blast.

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if this ends up being a tragedy i wont be able to take it

I see. Is a living wake a better idea ? Agreeing to discuss and argue for as long as the living ones want ? I've been wondering (for years, maybe a decade) how to leave in a way that it hurts as little as possible the ones that I love. Only solution I found so far was to stay alive. But it's not a solution.

I thought recording videos would be nice. But maybe it's cruel ?

Is it because people don't realize depression is a deadly disease that can't always be cured ? They believe we're not actually dying because they don't see it on our body ?

Sorry to start a painful debate. I think it's an important topic.

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I want to believe it will all end in a huge plot twist where the lady is actually planning a funeral of herself but for a movie scene or something and while at that give the mc a chance to gain recognition!!

I hope I’m right but if suicide ends up being the final route then I at least hope mc saves her from killing herself.

The series has ended with 8 chapters, compiled in a single volume. This is an adaptation of a stand-alone novel so it was always meant to be a short serialization.

(The original story was picked up for manga adaptation because it won the Yuri Hime Award at the 3rd Yuri Literary Contest.)

last edited at Jan 18, 2023 5:42PM

Oh jeez, this one... This one gonna hurt, isnt it?

Looking forward to this one. Can't wait to see how the manga ends compared to the novel. Thanks for the pickup!

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Thanks a ton for picking this up!

First indication of her actually wanting to die. If it really is just stress from work and her everyday life, maybe she can still be persuaded otherwise... We'll see, we still barely know enough about her to be sure either way.

I see. Is a living wake a better idea ? Agreeing to discuss and argue for as long as the living ones want ? I've been wondering (for years, maybe a decade) how to leave in a way that it hurts as little as possible the ones that I love. Only solution I found so far was to stay alive. But it's not a solution.

I thought recording videos would be nice. But maybe it's cruel ?

Is it because people don't realize depression is a deadly disease that can't always be cured ? They believe we're not actually dying because they don't see it on our body ?

Sorry to start a painful debate. I think it's an important topic.

It's hard to know how to answer this, and it may be too late. But, frankly, I don't think there's any way to commit suicide that makes it less painful for the people left behind. They're gonna be sad, and they're gonna wish it didn't happen, and they're going to feel guilty because even if you told them different and they in some ways know different, they're still going to feel like surely there was something they could have done but failed to do that would have made you want to stay.

That's how it is. And just as they may not, in fact, be able to affect your depression, you can't really affect that.

Three chapters in and they really haven't worked on the contents of the letter much, have they?

There'd be a lot more understanding of what the actual situation was if they'd already sat down and figured out what needs to be said... Nevermind not being finished, it's like the letter hasn't even been started?

I feel like it's gonna be a social suicide mixed with confession, like "oh no! This summer I've spent all my savings on this VA/streamer I fell in love with, we're gonna run away to a small town in the countryside together~•°

Aren't they both there standing up at the reading? Doesn't she look mighty embarrassed thinking about how it's such a silly, yet true, story?

If this doesn't have a good ending I'm gonna be devastated... Over here already imagining the letter ending with a wedding invitation or something on that level

Nice to see Ranka working on this, even if it was only a commission (once…).

Ranka says that this is a "little heavier" than "Even If It Was Only Once", but I dunno a lot of the themes (functioning in the adult world, poverty) are the same, and that one even had some homophobia and comp het laid over the top… I should look into SAD's commission rates. I'm unemployed but I'd like to see SAD keep going on this one…

I have no idea where this is going, but the trip seems to be shaping up to be quite enjoyable!

Those parents...

And can't have yuri without an aquarium, of course.

So she's shocked that someone cares enough to notice her struggle and her first thought is to lash out because she's being given a thoughtful gift? I get that she's traumatized but even this is a bit out there. I hope she can appreciate what she's found before it's too late

Aaauuuggh! I want to read the novel now!!!

and I can't find it translated anywhere online ;_;

So she's shocked that someone cares enough to notice her struggle and her first thought is to lash out because she's being given a thoughtful gift? I get that she's traumatized but even this is a bit out there.

IMO it is a believable reaction for someone who has spent too much time surviving on her own. When someone unexpectedly shows kindness to her, she feels a) fear because she is not used to people treating her like that and therefore expects duplicity from anyone who does and b) gratitude, because the gift is thoughtful and appropriate, but that emotion is unfamiliar to her, so rather than allow herself to feel it, she drowns it out by rash words and actions. This is a maladaptive defense mechanism -- she even recognizes as she does it that this is not what she wanted to say to Konno, but she cannot stop, since it's automatic. Good thing Konno seems to understand what is happening and doesn't take it personally.

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what's like going onnnn

About the credit page..
It says " her lover is dead and therefore she's wearing her deceased lover's clothes, she thought of killing herself because of that ?"
Is that true?
Is that what the novel says so?
Because then it would be really sad..

About the credit page..
It says " her lover is dead and therefore she's wearing her deceased lover's clothes, she thought of killing herself because of that ?"
Is that true?
Is that what the novel says so?
Because then it would be really sad..

that's just a prediction, i assume

funny how this is one of the few times the Spanish translation comes before the English one. 3 more chapters to go, folks. And without spoilers of HOW it will be, adel91 won't have THAT particular reason to be sad ;-)

last edited at Aug 28, 2024 2:04PM

If she's right about Konno's reasons for liking anything so far, the fireworks and their time together may indeed be bringing about a positive change in her. The sparklers falling at the same time are usually seen as a good omen as well.

I hadn't picked up reading this one before tonight. Now I need more chapters.
This is a good read, and the art's gorgeous to boot.
Also SAD translations yay.

is this tragedy........ it seems super lighthearted this chapter ....... can't trust anything haha

funny how this is one of the few times the Spanish translation comes before the English one. 3 more chapters to go, folks. And without spoilers of HOW it will be, adel91 won't have THAT particular reason to be sad ;-)

Oop I know Spanish. Can you tell me where that translation is? Glad to know there are only a few chapters left.