Fun chapter.
This manga is just a string of Neeko's humilations. And it looks like it's going to go on and on, until she somehow finds a job and joins the norm. Then it'll be over.
It's not fun at all.
Very little about this manga is genuinely funny, actually. Not for someone who suffers similarly, at least.
I hate that I relate so closely to her, it's painful.
Thanks for sharing SushiKnight. I'm similar and am 30. Only reason I'm not suicidal is because of a near-death experience book that I've read, and just like... people don't really know how to react to you wanting to die so... I dunno. I'm slowly going insane with loneliness. Not sure when enough will be enough.
So she got separated from her sister. No big deal. They were quickly reunited; nothing to worry over. And she was humiliated. In front of some random highschoolers and old friends from middle school that she almost never interacts with? Who cares? I'd argue that Neeko has four, maybe three, people that actually matter in her life: Her parents, Imoko, and maybe now Uri. And all of those people still love and support her, even knowing the things she was "humiliated" over in the first place.
I agree. It's natural to feel like shit when you mess up, the trick is to forgive yourself. "Yah I made a mistake. What, am I the devil just cause I sometimes fuck up? No big deal."
IMO part of the reason why this manga manages to be both painful and grueling is because that's basically what having depression is like. It's so repetitive, and it feels like shit all the time. Just constant self-hate.
IDK if this is helpful "advice", but I like to go outside every time my head is messy. I stare at the plants until I feel better. Really just take a fat moment to look at them. I've also heard of really paying attention to the smell, taste, feel, etc. of an orange. Same idea I guess. Instead of dreading the future or shitting yourself up over the past, just really pay attention to right now. I think it helps a little.