I thought the exact same thing.
"No I don't want help." And she lets Feng Yu help her.
"No I don't want to drink." And she drinks Feng Yu's milk.
"No I don't want to eat." And she eats Feng Yu's congee.
And she keeps telling Feng Yu to go home cuz she's okay, I lost count of how many times, when it's infuriatingly obvious she's not okay at all!
There's tsundere, and then there's this sort of childishness. I can't believe a grown-up would behave like that, like a little kid who when offered a bonbon yells "I don't wanna!" and at the same time grabs the bonbon and wolfes it down.
But I guess it's a little cute. ♡
That's actually a sign of past trauma, most commonly of being neglected by primary caretakers. A common result is a dissociation of words and actions, since the former are controlled by the prefrontal cortex, which attempts to maintain an image of strength and self-sufficiency, while the latter are controlled by the deeper limbic brain, which earns to be cared for. As a result, the experiential and the verbal parts of the brain run on two different tracks, one screaming for help and the other rejecting it, without the person consciously noticing the dissociation. Because the limbic brain is ultimately the main driving force, the conscious one usually either refuses to process its actions ("No, I did not drink that milk, what are you talking about?") or retroactively justifies them ("Yeah, I drank it, because you left me no choice."). All-in-all, "Teacher He" is consistently written as a deeply traumatized individual.
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