At this point, I am startig to wonder whether Toda has been taken advantage of because of her disability and sexually abused as a child. I am not sure how else an 18-year-old would be able to depict rape so vividly and life-like as to make a person puke.
i don't think that's the angle they're going for here, since it's a story about two people having sex for the first time. and consensually! but where the girl finds out that she may not have been as ready as the boy and that frightens her.
it's more about the complexity and pitfalls of relationships and developing sexual experience than it is about surviving rape
Rereading the chapter I also get a vibe more like this. Discovering your own lust and urges can be a very harsh experience for both oneself and their partner. My first gf and I had a very different time, I went from pissing myself from a kiss to being very, very horny and into it in a matter of hours. She said no when when things were starting to really heat up and that was it, but I think that was quite frightening for both of us. Though at the time I was more concerned about my balls hurting like hell from being hard all day than my sudden awakening to being incredibly horny.
Though Toda's work very clearly had some rape-y vibes during the act if it made tanaka react so strongly. I'm assuming it was consensual at the start but the girl got frightened at some point through but the boy didn't stop and that girls fear was depicted very strongly, enough to shake takana up.
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