xxcindybeexx posted:
BugDevil posted:
I won't downplay your personal experience, I never denied it is possible. It should be mentioned though that you don't need to have someone from your strike zone among your peers to feel attraction. Just watching media with beautiful women in them can have just the same effect. I mean, someone posted an example of someone figuring it out from comics after all.
Porn is not really necessary to reach that conclusion, but I think it's a weird stereotype that girls these days don't watch porn. You know that porn is also a taboo among boys? Adults always try to keep it from all younger people. It doesn't work for either sex. Not with the internet so readily available to most countries these days. And seeing other naked women is actually not very uncommon in Asian countries, so even if porn is highly regulated, there are still lots of opportunities.
I guess what I am getting at is that my original statement still stands: It's unlikely to never experience an episode of attraction until the 20s. Not impossible, not even super rare, but unlikely. At least in this day and age.
edit: And that doesn't mean one figures out what that attraction means or that you are a lesbian.
j/w but how old are you? i mean, maybe for kids just figuring things out TODAY it's just as you say, but--and not to sound old or anything--when i was still in middle school/highschool things definitely weren't this way. back then yes porn was tabboo. and when i was in middle school if you wanted to see anything pornographic on the computer you'd have to wait an hr just for one picture to show up lol. after waiting an hr just to connect online. hell even in HS scanlations were still becoming something new. i had been used to translations that were getting posted online, like reading play scripts, and was absolutely blown away when i first discovered that you could SEE A WHOLE MANGA ONLINE. and saying asians seeing other naked women isn't uncommon is making YOUR own stereotype. not ALL of them visit bath houses. which is i assume largely where they would see other non family member naked women. and it's becoming even less common as time goes on.
and saying you could figure out you're gay just from watching tv is silly. the way you react to something on tv and someone right there is completely different. WAY too easy to pass someone you've only seen on the telly as a simple admiration. it's like...liking a dog cause it's cute, but you don't want to fuck it. hell if it was that easy i woulda figured it out when i was like 6, cause i was WAY more into xena than i knew lol. all i knew was i really really liked the show and liked her, i didn't know WHY.
all in all, we don't really know the time frame the author wants this manga to be, or even if they put much effort other than "modern." because all that old timey sounding situations i grew up in? really wasn't that long ago, i'm only 33. we don't know what her family life was like growing up, what kind of schools she went to, to have missed the signs as she grew up. so saying it's not realistic for her not to know already is being ignorant. i mean i doubt the author even thought beyond that they just wanted their character to have not known yet. i just think saying she should have is silly. maybe she is pansexual. maybe she has a low libido so never reacted strongly enough to someone to recognize it.
@xxcindybeexx: Thanks for sharing your experience. It made me happy and also made me laugh. I think my experience was similar (though it sounds like I discovered the manga a bit earlier, heh).
I was a child in the 90s, one of my peers was verbally harassed and the source of many rumors after announcing her crush on our 6th grade teacher, and I crushed on a number of smart, lanky boys as late as my 20th year.
In fact, the strong crush I experienced on a guy happened when I was 20, but then I was hit by the train that was my first noted female attraction (and crushed on a guy again).
If I hadn't gone to college, I don't know when I would've realized.
Sure, in the years after recognizing I was attracted to women, I could see some of my interest in (older) females earlier in life as crushes, but I didn't view them that way at all at the time. I respected and admired, but that was it. And I was close to people I knew were gay or queer in middle school and high school.
(My fanfiction reading history before and after "the realization" is night and day - romance - all hetero then all wlw.)
Your ability to frame your emotions and interactions is vital; so it is not at all unlikely for someone to reach early or even late adulthood depending on their environment and exposure.
Calling it weird or "out of the ordinary" can feel dismissive an hurt (however unintentional).
I get frustrated sometimes when I read comment with people lamenting how they read more stories treating homosexuality as "normal" or how they're tired of "coming out" stories. They forget (or don't seem to care) that homosexuality being unacceptable or really rare is still the reality for a lot of people. I can understand why people make such comments, but I really like those types of stories (when they're well done) and personally am happy to see any new content for wlw -- especially high visibility and high quality content. (I'm trying to distract myself from the whole month's worth of days between now and Portrait of a Lady On Fire's general release. 。゜(`Д´)゜。)
Many people still don't have regular , high-bandwidth internet access. (Mind-blowing, right?)
Anyway, all I wanted to say was thank you, @xxcindybeexx, for sharing your experience, and I'm still really curious as to how this story will unfold. (It feels honest, raw and ...painful. I'm here for it. ..for now ^^ ;)
P.S. I'm not a porn fan, but how that is treated with respect to girls watching it versus boy is just one of the many still strong sex/gender-based double-standards. Progress feels as slow as ever some days. :D
P.P.S. I didn't have celebrity crushes until after "the realization". And it was a phase that came and went quickly, it seems. (Why hang up on someone so far removed from my life.) I think that just a part of accepting those "I went to see the movie because I'm attracted to them" moments/biases.
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