Cripes, I can't believe how long it took me to really get what was going on in "First Love Canon". Basically, after the music teacher she was in love with broke up with her under the guise of "graduating" from her, Hanada took this as the way it should be done. In order to accept what her own first love had done, she's been repeating the pattern over and over, accepting the confessions of girls and then letting them go when they graduate, as you can see by the line "I just grew up and got used to saying goodbye." Continuing with any of those girls would expose the lie that she had to break up with the music teacher in the first place.
So basically, she couldn't stand canons because they reminded her of what she was doing, and she couldn't face that. Only when she finally broke the cycle by accepting the graduating girl at the end (and thus finally admitting the original breakup was wrong and finally taking on a continuing relationship), could she listen to that music once more.
What really makes me wonder here is how many times, with how many girls, has Hanada gone through this cycle with, and how many broken hearts (hers included) have been left behind?
I'm not sure she really "started" something with those girls and in a way she didn't really accept them. I understood it in a way that she perhaps told them she'd go out with them, but didn't actually do anything with them. I also doubt that her teacher back then got actually physically involved with her or took her serious on an emotional level. You know, all that "it's just a phase" crap )not even necessarily aimed at the girl/girl aspect).
And so I think what she stopped was actually lying to those girls and starting "fake" relationships. I think in the final scene of that chapter, her response letter actually turns down the girl. She doesn't start a relationship there and thus she will also no longer pretend it's just natural to end it with graduation (saying "Thank you. I was flattered" is usually a let down). She accepts that her own teacher was simply not serious and not that her "relationship" came to a natural end back then.
Think about it: If she had actually had real relationships with countless students (as in with full emotional investment and with full physical aspects), she wouldn't act the way she acts towards Nanao & Matsumoto.
Wow, I read this in a completely different way than both of you. Here's what I'm pretty sure happened:
The Music Teacher is gay (well, duh.) She was in a relationship with her own music teacher (who, based on what happened in the story, was probably a sexual predator), but her teacher broke up with her abruptly when she graduated, telling her she needed to "graduate" from her. I think the key point here is that the teacher was telling her that both a teacher/student and a lesbian relationship wouldn't work.
Since music teacher's music teacher (what a moutful!) obviously held huge influence over her, she was seriously emotionally scarred and a). had no other relationships, and b). probably didn't believe it was possible for her to have relationships. Nanao's words made her realize she did love the teacher, by extension was gay, and also that there was nothing wrong with that and thus nothing to "graduate" from.
The story ends with the music teacher determined to find love and make it last. It seems totally obvious to me that she accepted the girl's letter. The story ends with these words...
That melody, those words... I'm sure I'll hear them next spring... with someone by my side.
Based on the fact it's overlayed over her hugging the girl who gave her the letter... well, to me at least, it seems clear she accepted and is determined to make it last. It honestly might be my favorite story in the collection. So moving.
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