I don't know if it's because of the somewhat sporadic releases or the fact that I haven't reread this one at all, but lately I have a hard time following the events in the story. Why were they fighting? Were they even? What's going on with Mu Xiaoen? I have no idea. It feels like the author is really trying to say something here and I have no idea what the hell is happening.

I'd reread the last few chapters. All those questions are answered in them. When the younger sibling comes we start this "arc," and everything is related from that. I am anticipating our catching up to the current chapters though. Would love to discuss them.

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She really has been pushing herself too much. In a lot of ways...

Awwwww it's really difficult now to say you're still okay when somebody embraced you with their heart.Damnnnn she is sooooo good for her.!

And then they f*cked in the shower.

I don't think this and the earlier extra are connected at all. The new chapter definitely isn't portrayed as sexy or anything close to a good time to fuck, as it's more of an emotional outlet for painful and difficult feelings.

Yeah, i read this chapter again today and it seemed in a different context.

also can we get a kiss already? like damn ts killing me /j

You might wanna reread, we've gotten several kisses and also sex scenes lol

Mu Xiaoen puts the whole town on her back to avoid thinking about her own situation with her family, she really did force herself to grow up. But it's important to also have people who you can let your walls down and be "childish" around

I don't know if it's because of the somewhat sporadic releases or the fact that I haven't reread this one at all, but lately I have a hard time following the events in the story. Why were they fighting? Were they even? What's going on with Mu Xiaoen? I have no idea. It feels like the author is really trying to say something here and I have no idea what the hell is happening.

Xiaoen's biological mother gave her up so they could have another child under Chinese law, because they wanted a son. That son, Xiaoyang, turned out to be a trans girl, which is something her family won't recognize because they want to have a son and China isn't great with trans issues. Xiaoyang looks up to and relates to Xiaoen because she's honestly kind of amazing and because Xiaoyang relates to her being cast aside for gender related reasons.

Biomom, therefore, is just kinda awful, but she also is still Xiaoen's mom. She has cancer. Xiaoen hates her, but is sad that she's dying.

Xiaoen's adopted mom, who raised her, is also currently going through testing because it seems like her cancer might be back. She's trying to downplay it but it's weighing on her.

She resents her little sister because she was literally cast aside so they could exist, and she views their trans identity as them casting aside the thing that would have allowed Xiaoen to be a cherished member of her biological family. Meanwhile, she's mad because her girlfriend, Xingyuan, is bonding with and sticking up for the little sister, because Xiaoyang's actually pretty cool and nice and they're close together in age and have good friend-chemistry, and because as somebody whose dad is not okay with her queerness, Xingyuan identifies with and sympathizes with Xiaoyang.

Xiaoen hates her sister, but knows it's unfair and that she shouldn't. She hates her mother, but is sad that she's dying. She's stressed out because her mom is sick. She's frustrated that her girlfriend isn't on her side, but also is aware that the things she loves about her are exactly why she's not. She's pouring all her energy into trying to rebuild this town that was practically dead because it's the only home she ever had that treats her like actual family, and it's just a whole, whole lot and she's been bottling it all up to keep moving forward.

Edit: Whoop, I was misremembering, it's the adopted mom who's sick, which is way worse for Xiaoen.

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^ I see, thanks a lot for the recap Heavensrun. I did remember about the family situation Xiaoyang, I just couldn't see how that was related to the tension between the other two. It makes sense that Xiaoen wouldn't like Xingyuan taking Xiaoyang's "side", I guess. I also didn't know remember about the mother being sick, at all. Perhaps SrNevik is right and I should reread a bit lol

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I knew (most) of that and it was still nice to have it all stated plainly in one place. Thanks, Heavensrun!