Wanting to be special to everyone has condensed to be special to one person, but if that person does not feel that way, how is she going to cope?
Anyone who has ever been friends with a truly charismatic person has probably felt a little bit of this. A person like that can make you feel like you have all of their attention and that you’re in a special relationship with them, and then at some point you realize that they make everybody they know feel that way.
It’s a hard kind of emotion to own (as compared to, say, jealousy in a romantic relationship), because it’s so patently unreasonable.
Of course, I’m not saying that the introverted wallflower Kurokawa is being depicted as exceptionally charismatic, just that for Fujishiro the emotional dynamic is similar.