Much of this story is exactly how I feel when I go through a nice dream with an ex...and then I wake up.

That realization of what you had, what you could've had, what you wished to be, just ceased. But your mind keeps playing it, like a constant curse. Like you're a ghost, bound to a paradise that you could never live in, only watch as it's destroyed. Again and again.

ugh.

fortunately those have been rare.

but yeah that would be a good reason to write/read a story like this.

Now this is how you handle tragedy/drama. It hurts like hell but it's just so darn good. Love it.

Ugh, I was not in the right headspace for a depressing as fuck / tragedy story. Gonna throw off the rest of my day.

Read it again, still one of my favs and always hit me right in the feels

Forgot about this manga and now it's hitting me again.

I kinda hope someone has the raw for the Avalon Happy Anthology instead of the bitter one lol

One of my favorite one shots getting a feature, it hurts so good <3

fucked me up. loved it.

Why does this work do not have the tag of "Depressing as fuck" and maybe "aaangst" and perhaps a new one "Removing the will to live after reading" ??

Why does this work do not have the tag of "Depressing as fuck" and maybe "aaangst" and perhaps a new one "Removing the will to live after reading" ??

As previous comments have discussed, spoilers issue. A reader coming in seeing a "Depressing as fuck" tag might deduce why the girl woke up in the bathtub in the beginning, removing the shock factor of the story. "aaangst" might work though. It's a Sudou Yumi story anyway, these surreal, angsty, tragedy elements are common.

Why does this work do not have the tag of "Depressing as fuck" and maybe "aaangst" and perhaps a new one "Removing the will to live after reading" ??

As previous comments have discussed, spoilers issue. A reader coming in seeing a "Depressing as fuck" tag might deduce why the girl woke up in the bathtub in the beginning, removing the shock factor of the story. "aaangst" might work though. It's a Sudou Yumi story anyway, these surreal, angsty, tragedy elements are common.

Ahhh, I understand now, I also didn't know more of the author until I went and read their stuff, I get it now. thank you

This one hurts a lot ;-;

Updating the tags so that it is searchable and can be found with the relevant tags for people looking for similar works. They will be spoilers, but most readers who will read this serendipitously already have

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back to this fav after 2 years. still hurts. still one of the best.

I didn't come back but it was part of my featured novels. I'm glad I clicked on this even with the new tags cause I think of this story A LOT. I normally don't click on angst, depressing, or tragedy tags but I wanted to see where this went. I knew this story the moment I saw the bathtub scene and decided to reread this. Reading this again after 5 years made me realize this story was even sadder than the first time I read it. I originally thought that the promise to meet at the beach was true only to realize it was part of her dream. Along with a few other things but I need to sort them out first along with my feelings because I can't put them into words.

Sudou Yumi knows how to make a tragedy, damn...

Can't believe it's already been 6 years

Hit me right in the feels every time I read this

Pretty sure she killed herself. I really dislike it when someone kill themselves over a break up. They don't think about their family or the friends they leave behind. News break? Dating is not the only thing you can do in this world, there are plenty of people out there who's waiting for the future you to be with them.

I know it's old but this is kind of a bad way of thinking cus you're dismissing someone's feelings, something that was enough for them to go off the deep end. If you use this argument on anything else: it's only a job, it's only friends, it's only family, it's only money... All of them are replaceable technically but they could mean so much to someone that the loss of them throws their life off kilter or it could have compounded on top of a lot of different things.

Have a little bit more empathy and compassion.