The depression is so familiar. The despondency (lack of self-care and lack of interest in everything), the snippiness with people trying to help (partially as a defense mechanism to filter out whether or not people really give a shit about you), and yet Sena goes out ultimately anyway. She could have stayed home but she didn't. That part is familiar too: the almost contradictory desire to get better and stop feeling this way.
It's also scary when it is this bad and very hard to get out of it. The person's resolve to self-harm is often tested at this point. Hard to tell from limited information, but I think Sena's resolve lies somewhere in the middle. Her situation is still dangerous because she got the worst possible news (sister getting married). She seems at the point where she could end up in a situation similar to a suicide attempt purely out of self-neglect.
Kiku's intervention is practically a godsend for Sena as she is now; it is exactly what she needs in order to avoid that kind of collapse. You can see Sena chafing at Kiki's attempts to help in a self-destructive way, like when she tells Kiku that she should leave because she (Kiku) has to get back to work. Sena is forcing Kiku to choose between her and work (and knowing that Kiku cannot stay).
You may think this is a shitty way to behave (seeking and continuously testing people to get external validation), especially for an adult, but that is usually lost on a person looking for a reason to exist.
It's kind of amazing that the author has captured this much detail about the situation and about Sena's emotional state. If the author doesn't have at least some personal experience with this level of depression, I'd be even more surprised.
I have a lot of experience with this (on both sides of the fence actually), and I like reading stories about majorly depressed characters (well, at least the ones with happy endings). I feel like they give me more perspectives for my own life.
Nice art. Story... meh. MC is obviously fragile and depressed. The “antagonist” is MC’s sister ex and asks said sister permission to « get » MC? Breaks MC boundaries all the time? Is interested in MC because MC resemble her older sister? Disgusting (older sister too).
If MC isn’t given any agency, even if the art is good, this is only a psy-rape story. Disgusting.
I see how this is breaking boundaries, and Kiku is ridiculously pushy. But Sena's emotional state is fragile to the point where this is what Kiku needs to do.
It's really hard to guess at Kiku's motivations here. Based on the title, it's safe to guess that they end up in a relationship soon. Romantic/sexual relationships formed when somebody is this depressed rarely work out. There's a lot of reasons for it, but most of it boils down to the fact that in most relationships the "give and take" needs to be equal or close to equal.
If you help a depressed person and they become completely dependent on you, then the next step is to make them not dependent on you, which is almost impossible to do while staying in the bounds of a relationship. You're also liable to be 'trapped' when attempting to end their dependency by threats of self-harm.
These are generalizations of course and not everyone is remotely the same, but... these are generalizations from my own experiences at least for once.
There’s nothing much important in this chapter it’s like been cut or some pages weren’t included with the important ones but to tagged it Incest doesn’t fit at all, this more of siscon or unrequited love
incest crush would be the most accurate tag possible, if it existed. I agree that incest doesn't fit here at all (at least for now), since the sister is getting married and may not even be present in the story.
Personally, I don't have a problem with incest stories as long as the circumstances as ok (nobody is being pressured into anything and nobody's having any biological children), but this isn't even an incest story (unless we learn more about how the sister feels). It's a "I can't get over my crush" story.
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