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Lifeisfunguys
joined Jun 24, 2026

Thought they decided to quit drugs together only to find out that one of them accidentally killed the other...

Though I wonder, what does PSA mean?

public service announcement

Charon-sml
joined Feb 14, 2016

so. like. was that supposed to be MDMA?

Weiwei
joined Oct 9, 2017

Hey. This manga is about BPD, not drugs. Behaviour, mood swings, drug/alcohol use, SH cuts, anxiety, suicidality - even the title is a BPD reference. Took me 15 minutes to realize, because I nearly got a panic attack reading this, and dissociated for half of it. You could replace drugs by alcohol really. It’s not the drugs. MC1 is BPD, MC2 is driven mad trying to help her, overdoses (alcoohol could do the same) and kills her.
I did not find this the slightest bit funny.

JuniperPengold
Hotarusquibbly
joined Feb 12, 2025

If two lesbians had sex and drugs and one of them strangled the other one, wouldn't that be fucked up or what?

Pretty much the best summary lmao

Kuroko-railgun
joined Jul 21, 2024

don't do drugs kids m'kay?

Seriously don’t drugs. That ending was such a twist, but what can you expect when your mind is foggy and you’re under the influence?

joined Feb 25, 2025

Hey. This manga is about BPD, not drugs.

It’s about drugs, the anthology is about crimes

Lifeisfunguys
joined Jun 24, 2026

holly shit just found out its part of the crime yuris now it makes so much more fucking sense

Wtf%20dog
joined Sep 7, 2024

I get what the author is going for, the idea that these folks turned to shit to dull the pain, and it did not do that and they just kept getting worse. I get that.

I do think the way it was told was not great. Honestly, I think this story needed a higher page count or to be a few chapters instead. The way the storytelling goes, it just doesn't work. The drugs not even being specified makes it so silly.

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joined May 1, 2020

So this is what happens if Adachi never meets Shimamura…
Anyways, I liked reading this!

last edited at Jul 6, 2026 10:12PM

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joined Dec 7, 2019

Hey. This manga is about BPD, not drugs.

It’s about drugs, the anthology is about crimes

I think they had the right idea, also mc did murder someone and I think that was the bigger point than the drugs. Cuz the drugs weren't the only thing making her go crazy. Like OOP said the unchecked mental illness alongside the drugs was what did them in. GF definitely came across as someone who had some kind of severe BP or OCD (at least from my experience dealing with someone who was kinda like her and has OCD) and definitely a horrible tendency to fall back on bad habits. The cutting didn't help, the sex and relationship was barely holding her together, so she turned to drugs. I think that's the spiral that a lot of people are wanting. We're seeing the late and final stages of her spiral instead of a slow descent. I think Suzuki senpai really likes writing stories and characters in extremes and unfortunately this one was insanely uncomfortable to read. Genuinely dunno how to feel about it.

last edited at Jul 6, 2026 10:18PM

Lifeisfunguys
joined Jun 24, 2026

after resing it a second time my opinion is still un chamged
dont let emotions overpower saftey
dont do drugs

Charon-sml
joined Feb 14, 2016

Sylke posted:

Hey. This manga is about BPD, not drugs. Behaviour, mood swings, drug/alcohol use, SH cuts, anxiety, suicidality - even the title is a BPD reference. Took me 15 minutes to realize, because I nearly got a panic attack reading this, and dissociated for half of it. You could replace drugs by alcohol really. It’s not the drugs. MC1 is BPD, MC2 is driven mad trying to help her, overdoses (alcoohol could do the same) and kills her.
I did not find this the slightest bit funny.

I do think this is more-or-less accurate. The drugs aren't the real issue with the love interest, it's the codependent behavior. Outside of the legal risk, the effects of the drugs are pretty understated beyond maybe making the sex better and the weird overdose at the end. I don't think this will go down as Suzuki Senpai's best work but I think it's better than the consensus here might suggest..

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joined Aug 24, 2024

I agree about the BPD > drugs thing.

I liked the seediness and the ugliness of it and how even the “hot” sex feels off. It’s about Tsukushi chasing extremity while struggling with fears of abandonment and emptiness. I didn’t mind the portrayal of cutting per se.

I didn’t much like it overall though, as it takes something complicated and difficult and reduces it to stereotypes. KitaKawa explored many of the same themes (for Airi) but gives them time to breath. Octave and Still Sick explores the same emotional landscape, but with a more grown up mindsets and less diving into extrema and stereotypes. But comparing a one shot to celebrated serializations isn’t really too fair maybe.

Anyhow, godammit Tsukushi get your ass to DBT and learn some fucking crisis skills please.

joined Oct 21, 2013

It's porn. The drugs are there to satisfy the 'crime' theme, since it's a crime to even possess or consume any miniscule amount or narcotics in Japan.

joined Feb 25, 2025

I mean I get the nd reading, but I don’t it’s BPD or OCD, her personality had a major shift (acording to MC flashbacks) and self-harm can be done by depression, a lot of addicts has those fast emotional change.
I agree that the killing was the crime, but still I think is drugs+killing due to Japan also having strong views on drugs.

We're seeing the late and final stages of her spiral instead of a slow descent

Yes! I agree, my english is shit so I wrote a whole ass paragraph but you summarized my exact thoughts

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joined Apr 19, 2018

Lily is sure drugs will be very glad you all defended her good name when she reads these comments, instead of focusing on things like themes or the relationship between the leads~

This is my favourite comment here

Bambinessa
joined Aug 2, 2023

I agree with Lariria. This is just all to abrupt running at a mere 30 pages (in particular the ghost/hallucination(?) near the end. We went from setup through downfall to dramatic end in a jiffy, with valuable page space dedicated to sex scenes to acerbate the issue. On the topic of the sex: if breath play is the cause of death, show Sakura choking Tsukushi beforehand. "Forshadowing is a nrrative technique..." and so on.


Interesting observation: all those pro-drug comments are unprompted and at the very beginning of this thread, as if it's some "I do weed all day" internet though guy posturing that folds the moment somebody with enough neurons to form a synapse shows up. (But probably not more, given were still at discussing the initial primer.) Anyway, reasons drugs bad: risk to yourself, risk to others, risk to society, production & distribution is quite literally the pinnacle of evil, if the only way to have fun you know is drugs you frankly failed as a human being. There, case closed.

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joined Dec 21, 2016

It's porn. The drugs are there to satisfy the 'crime' theme, since it's a crime to even possess or consume any miniscule amount or narcotics in Japan.

i mean yeah drugs are very illegal in japan. but murder is illegal too and even very frown in Japan, considering it goes against the traditional concept of 生きる, which means "to live"

joined Apr 20, 2023

Tl;dr, relax. It's awkward because it really isn't present in their culture.

Mm. Like chattel slavery.
Which is totally why they turned it into a fetish right?

joined Apr 20, 2023

It's porn. The drugs are there to satisfy the 'crime' theme, since it's a crime to even possess or consume any miniscule amount or narcotics in Japan.

i mean yeah drugs are very illegal in japan. but murder is illegal too and even very frown in Japan, considering it goes against the traditional concept of 生きる, which means "to live"

lmaooooooo

luv ya

Img_0143
joined Aug 24, 2024

It's porn. The drugs are there to satisfy the 'crime' theme, since it's a crime to even possess or consume any miniscule amount or narcotics in Japan.

i mean yeah drugs are very illegal in japan. but murder is illegal too and even very frown in Japan, considering it goes against the traditional concept of 生きる, which means "to live"

Peak

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joined Dec 7, 2019

It's porn. The drugs are there to satisfy the 'crime' theme, since it's a crime to even possess or consume any miniscule amount or narcotics in Japan.

i mean yeah drugs are very illegal in japan. but murder is illegal too and even very frown in Japan, considering it goes against the traditional concept of 生きる, which means "to live"

best comment hands down

joined Jan 14, 2020

drugs are bad because they are produced in the south globe

Friendly reminder that some Mexican, Nicaraguan or Colombian family got chainsawed so those two girls could get their drugs.

This is only true of some illegal drugs. The US has plenty of weed farms and meth labs of its own, LSD can be wholly lab-synthesized (and has a bio source rooted in ergot fungus), shrooms can be grown at home, I think fentanyl is fully synthetic...

...and most of the social problems come from the drugs being illegal, an arbitrary decision by society. No one's getting chainsawed these days for alcohol or tobacco, even if those drugs ruin far more lives.

reasons drugs bad: risk to yourself, risk to others, risk to society, production & distribution is quite literally the pinacle of evil,

Many illegal drugs are safer and less addictive than legal drugs. "risk" and "pinnacle of evil" come, again, from the illegal status.

Many people use recreational drugs, illegal or legal, relatively safely and enjoyably. Some are using them to self-medicate for their mental problems, given lack of access to good mental health care (a problem in both the US and Japan, for different reasons.)

joined Jan 14, 2020

And of course properly speaking, "drugs" includes medicinal and psychiatric drugs, which many people need to function well. A friend needs Adderall specifically to focus on anything without close supervision, but whoops, it's super-duper-illegal in Japan.

Someone in Japan trying to get illegal Adderall might simply be a person with bad ADHD trying to be able to hold down a job or finish school. I'm sure that's not the majority usage, but still. Cf. "self-medication".

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joined Mar 18, 2018

Not what I needed to read today...

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