so i only machine TL the last several pages cuz i got no interest in kyo possibly trying to awkwardly tell eri that he cheated on her even though he forced himself upon her previously so this guy had just gone up the douchebag scale.

but this is definitely gonna be a bit incoherent. at least the beginning cuz idk wtf it's supposed to say

starts out from the page with eri is reading her script:

""If you watch it, you'll understand, we're childhood friends, actually, I heard it from my parents, you see, this is a pretty rural area, I've always liked you more, but much, much longer than that person...

Hey. Do you remember the promise we made back then? If you remembered, would you have chosen me? You asked me to marry you.

...I actually know, your wishes won't come true just because you think they will, but I knew... This love has to end... I'm giving up.

I don't want to see you again, but... I hope you'll be happy"

then shifts to the crew members praising eri and how realistic her acting was (no tnx to kyo literally making her cry the night before

and then they accidentally spill that fuyuki actually wrote that whole segment:

"But somehow... the lines are good too. (amazing)

"Fuyuki thought up these lines"

"But you know, Kosaka (i think it meant Kisaki) told me not to tell anyone else"

"Ah! That's right!!! Sorry, sorry! Don't tell anyone about this!"

so yeah. idk where this will lead. maybe kyo goes on another rampage cuz of jealousy that hs started since literally their childhood? or just acceptance at this stage. i hope kyo sticks to that irrelevant girl and either talk to fuyuki about this and try to confirm it, be the typical bridge between her ex and his friend, or just stay out of the way.

also, that bit where fuyuki's part of the script mentions "your wishes won't come true just because you think they will, but I knew... This love has to end... I'm giving up" seems like an actual foreshadowing (and slight title mention!!!) where fuyuki will literally try to distance herself from eri and kyo? it feels like Fuyuki deliberately rejecting the part of Main Heroine is on purpose so that either kyo or eri realizes that this scene is actually about them and her confessing what she plans to do. it seems "too on the face" to just think none of them would notice but eri is a bit more dense so

anyway, i need the other readers's thoughts on chapter 15

Waiting for a quick summary. This first half of chapter 15 lacks both Fuyuki and senpai lol.

kinda did a little bit of it. i dont got the energy to understand the first half precisely cuz we saw no fuyuki.

"But you know, Kosaka (i think it meant Kisaki) told me not to tell anyone else"

Kousaka is Fuyuki's surname. If you didn't know all of their name: Shirai Eri; Natsume Kyo; Kurokawa Kisaki

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kinda did a little bit of it. i dont got the energy to understand the first half precisely cuz we saw no fuyuki.

Thank you. And if that part about her distancing herself was true, then I think it's very much needed to sort out their feelings. Not a fan of Eri still in denial last chapter.

And well, did it ever mention their surname? Thanks for that too.

And well, did it ever mention their surname? Thanks for that too.

If I'm not mistaken, only Eri and Senpai's surname that ever mentioned in the story (Maybe kyo too? dunno). The others are mentioned in the introduction on the site that upload the raw manga

Murasakino's art is gorgeous but I'm really not a fan of the drama.
Also unrelated but TikTok is really the last place I expected to read scans lol (referring to https://www.tiktok.com/@moosan92)

has someone got the patience to translate the first half of 15.2? i was more interested in what Eri was thinking so i immediately spent time on that first. this is what she said (and some might be incoherent)

starting from when Eri starts her monologue:
This place was important to me. She was always kind to me and I never wanted to lose her, so I treasured her more than anything. I thought I had done everything I could to make that happen.

But... I didn't know that Fuyuki liked girls, I didn't know that I couldn't be her number one without [being her girlfriend].

"If you like Fuyuki that much, then just go out with her..." (i think Kyou said this to her at some point idk)

What Kyo said is true. Even now, I'm sad that the place next to Fuyuki is no longer mine, more than I am sad about Kyo. What should I have done? (the last part was in form of a question when translated but it wasn't from the original text so I'm confused)

then after eri cries for some time, fuyuki says it's time to go and asks if Eri wants her to stay behind with her on the bus but Eri declines and she'll be fine (while using fuyuki's handkerchief?)

and then we're back to Eri's monologue which was the best part i think
If it was going to be like this, I wanted to be Fuyuki's girlfriend. Then, yesterday and from now on, this place would have been mine alone.
i assume that the "place" that Eri's been mentioning was actually Fuyuki's side which took me some time to realize she wasn't talking about the beach lol

so are we entering Eri pining over Fuyuki while fuyuki tries to move on? that script felt like she was writing down her inner thoughts. meanwhile kyou can keep that random girl. idk what he'll do. Eri or Kyou might try to work their relationship out but Kyou have probably pieced together that Fuyuki has been in love with Eri this whole time. will he be the wingman or just be angry and keep Eri to himself anyways?

Nothing much happened in ch.15.1. Eri and Kyo kind of apologize to each other about the argument(?) and Kyo seems to want to tell her about the Ino girl but he got called by his senior to help out. Basically he and that Ino girl kissed the night before.

So the shooting is continue, this part is about the story of the film. How the mc is spends time with heroine and feels like back in the old days. But actually he come back to his hometown this time is bcs he made a kid with his long-time gf from collage. And he tell her that when she asked him if he still remember the promise they made long time ago to marry each other. And heroine (Eri) said she knew from her parents. (about him having gf and had a child with her.) And she continue with "If you remembered that promise, would you have chosen me?" " even though I'm the one who always likes you. Much, much longer than that person."

"even though I'm the one who always likes you. Much, much longer than that person."

So, Kyo is kind of impressed(?) about those lines. He said its great line and the vice president(?) tell him that those lines was made by Fuyuki, even though she ask to not tell anyone about it. (I'm pretty sure Kyo is already realize that those "confession" is Fuyuki's own word to certain someone (I mean Eri lol))

"If you like Fuyuki that much, then just go out with her..." (i think Kyou said this to her at some point idk)

Yes this happened when Kyo confront Eri after those "don't touch fuyuki!" thing with Senpai. Kyo said something like its weird how Eri acting all about Fuyuki when they're "just friend"

Spoilers for chapter 15.2:

Kisaki asks, "How does it feel to have your confession read aloud by the person you love?"

"It's not like that. It wasn't my confession. It's just the film heroine's lines."

Kisaki replies that it was quite a close call in many ways, continuing: "and in the initial plan, you were potentially set to play the main heroine, right?" stifling a laugh.

Fuyuki brushes this off. "This script is just a rough draft I thought of because I couldn't think of any good lines"

And the director and others approved of it as is lol.

Kisaki teases, "It was still closer to reality, right~? Probably"

Fuyuki looks over to the beach and stares at Eri. Earlier, Kisaki told her a bit about what happened when Fuyuki was drunk because she might've not remembered anything.

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At the beach, Eri is sitting with her thoughts, specifically about the implications of the label "childhood friend".

She thinks back on the words said to her by Kisaki. "A mere childhood friend like you has no right to be saying such things."

"Just a childhood friend.... how long are you gonna keep saying that." Eri thinks bitterly.

Fuyuki finds her on the beach and sits with her, drink in hand. She tells Eri she did a great job with the shoot. She also mentions that she heard from Kisaki what happened during the drunk incident. Kisaki told Fuyuki that Eri was worrying over her.

Upon seeing Eri's reaction, Fuyuki immediately asks if something happened between Eri and Kisaki. Eri denies it and goes quiet.

"Then, did you have a fight with Kyou?"

"...did Kyou tell you?"

"Nope, but I can tell. We're childhood friends, after all."

"That's right... we're... childhood friends..."

Eri starts to cry. She mentions how because of her over-reliance on that childhood friends label, she blew up on Kyou and Kurokawa-san.

Fuyuki comforts her, telling her it's fine and that she's on Eri's side. Fuyuki reassures her that with senpai, Eri doesn't need to worry. And with Kyou, if she thinks she said some harsh words, she can just ask for forgiveness.

"Up 'til now, we've always been together. I'm sure you guys will make up. I'll talk to him first for you, okay? So, don't cry."

Interspersed between Fuyuki's gentle comforting of Eri are the latter's turbulent feelings and thoughts that intersect into a conclusion.

It is here we see Eri realize some important things. Her entire inner monologue in the last part states:

"To be by her side meant I was showered with her perpetual kindness; I never wanted to lose her.

This is why I treasured her more than anything else.

This is why I did everything I possibly could.

And yet...

I didn't know Fuyuki liked girls.

I didn't know that not being her girlfriend meant not being her number one.

"If you love Fuyuki so much, then go date her!"

Kyou had a point.

Because even right now, rather than about Kyou, I'm more devastated by the fact that this place -- by Fuyuki's side -- isn't my sole possession anymore.

I wonder what else I could've done.

Because if it was just going to end up like this, then I... I would've wanted to be Fuyuki's girlfriend.

Because then, like yesterday and the days thereafter, this place would've surely been mine alone."

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Thoughts:

At this point, to say Eri loves Fuyuki is an understatement. It's apparent that she's devoted to her. But the glaring issue (for me) is we're still unsure of what type of love she holds for Fuyuki exactly, or if she even knows it herself.

The culmination of her anguished and messy thoughts are basically "It should've been me" but only because she's rationalized it in her brain that Fuyuki can only have 1 person as her "number one", and that the most important person to her is the one who's holding the role of "the girlfriend".

We know this is untrue to a certain extent. While Kisaki isn't exactly Fuyuki's actual girlfriend, we know that Fuyuki doesn't slack on Eri. It's obvious that for Fuyuki, Eri is undoubtedly the most important person in her life. But to Eri, the things that Fuyuki's girlfriend can do are things that she cannot. Kissing, sex, taking care of are things that are beyond the scope of a "mere childhood friend". Or at the very least, something that a girlfriend has more right to do.

So she perhaps wants these. She wants Fuyuki entirely. Now, we can say that Eri isn't interested in having sex or kissing Fuyuki because in one of the previous chapters, she says that those things aren't important. But when she saw Fuyuki coming home in the morning after that NTR chapter, or when she found Kisaki kissing Fuyuki, these things fundamentally affected her to a degree that threw her importance in Fuyuki's life into doubt. Meaning these actions are something that she doesn't want someone else to do to Fuyuki.

Because the problem here is that Eri doesn't really want to be Fuyuki's number one. She wants to be Fuyuki's only one. And now she's come to the conclusion that if that's what she wanted all along, then she should've been the one in Kisaki's place right now.

Now whether she wanted to be Fuyuki's girlfriend because she realizes she's in love with her or because she just wants to monopolize Fuyuki is still the question. And right now, I'm leaning more towards the latter based on how Eri's thoughts in the current chapter.

Also just to add, throughout this manga, I've always been impressed by how Murasakino does these bits of visual storytelling and illustrating parallels and symbolism. For this chapter, not sure whether intentional, but the part where Eri is crying on Fuyuki's shoulder, and she thinks about how "I didn't know you liked girls" while she remembers Kisaki kissing Fuyuki, she wraps her arms around Fuyuki and pulls her in closer. It's very small but impactful. The sandcastles (?) at the end, erased by the waves, is also an excellent touch.

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And just to note, for high quality translations we should wait for the scanlators. This is just something I threw together with my so-so understanding so it's most likely not 100%.

And just to note, for high quality translations we should wait for the scanlators. This is just something I threw together with my so-so understanding so it's most likely not 100%.

i would but that'll take a year for chapter 7 to come out. i hate acting like a spoiled child and i usually try not to complain about this kind of thing, waiting for free content, but I'd rather read half-baked TLs than wait over 6 months for an "official" TL of one chapter.

but i wanna thank you for expanding on my even more muddled translation through google cuz it made things a bit more clear. i do wonder if the next chapters will be about eri trying to distinguish the difference between platonic and romantic love. we know that eri always had difficulty forming relationships except with fuyuki. but we still don't know why she thinks like this. would be nicer to get more background on eri, fuyuki, maybe even kisaki, that isnt told from kyou's perspective.

if kyou has reconciled with eri, then he might try to just win her even harder since he'll feel like competing against fuyuki. the ball is on eri's court to see what she does. if she till decides to stick with kyou, then this drama will be even longer and pointless imo

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i do wonder if the next chapters will be about eri trying to distinguish the difference between platonic and romantic love. we know that eri always had difficulty forming relationships except with fuyuki. but we still don't know why she thinks like this. would be nicer to get more background on eri, fuyuki, maybe even kisaki, that isnt told from kyou's perspective.

God I hope so. With this revelation, I wish Eri can take the time to reflect on what it means to want to be Fuyuki's girlfriend. I don't know if girly is suffering from comphet or good old fashioned 'tism but there really is something wonky with how she views relationships, specially romantic ones.

A Kisaki backstory is also something we still haven't gotten. Several chapters in and we still don't know for sure who her unrequited love is and how she really feels about Fuyuki. Because if this is going to be Fuyuki x Eri endgame, I hope Senpai isn't in love with Fuyuki or at the very least she gets a happy ending of her own because she's too kind to be dealt a bullshit hand

if she till decides to stick with kyou, then this drama will be even longer and pointless imo

I agree. It seems like the camping / filming arc has concluded so I wonder what's next.

Thanks for the translations in the comments! Honestly this has way too much drama for me to be interested in keeping up release by release, I think I'll just wait for it to be done

Your translation is perfectly done swossy! Are you perhaps Japanese speaker too? And your english is so good! Thank you for sharing your thoughts! Its always exciting reading other people opinion like this. I also agree with your opinion

Swossy, you legend you. Thanks to elkontop and chinocupp, too. Based on the timestamps, I think most people commenting here don't live in the US, so it's great to wake up and see someone else has translated lmao.

While I think this series is masterfully done, I am also getting to the point where I'm thinking maybe I should just wait for this thing to be finished lol. There are some MEGA satisfying moments, but I am hungry, and the crumbs are starting to not be enough for me.

Anyway, as far as the analysis...

But the glaring issue (for me) is we're still unsure of what type of love she holds for Fuyuki exactly, or if she even knows it herself.

I really wanted to disagree, but I couldn't lol. You articulated this thought so well. Eri thinks that to be Fuyuki's number one, she has to be her girlfriend. It's not necessarily that there are romantic feelings there--it's more like a practical take of "What can I do to be the most important to her? Be her girlfriend? Okay." Especially after her internal thoughts where she says she thought she did everything she could to stay Fuyuki's number one.

TLDR Eri needs to sort out what she's feeling yesterday. I think this is where the crumbs aren't enough for me, because it's hard for me to believe anyone could be so unaware of themselves. Comphet is always in the picture, but Fuyuki is (fake) dating a girl and hasn't burst into flame, so like, why not? I knew I liked girls when I was 14, and I surely didn't have as blatant an experience as a female best friend dating another girl. I also know my experience isn't everyone's experience, but I am ~simply exasperated~

if she till decides to stick with kyou, then this drama will be even longer and pointless imo

I would also hate for this to happen. This author hasn't done the cheap drama thing so far, and I don't think she'll start now. I think we're safe from that; Ino making a move on Kyou I think also makes it easier for Eri and Kyou to split.

It feels like this chapter should've been bigger in a way now that Eri is having her first potentially gay thought all on her own. The fact that it's only potentially gay kinda nerfs it.

Agreed with swossy. All I could see after all the spoilers is Eri wants to still be Fuyuki's number one, so she is thinking about being her gf as an option. Not much from the romantic side I could feel. She better sorts out her feelings soon, and even if it could be disappointed that it turned out she only wanted to monopolize Fuyuki, at least there wouldn't be any problem rooting for Fuyuki moving on and being with someone else. The chains should be broken at some point, I didn't endure all the drama just for some unsatisfying ending.

Now that I think about it, with all of Eri's thought process recently, the wedding at the start, if it's Eri's, has a good chance to be between her and a random guy. Like, I don't even remember wedding between girls happen much in yuri series unless it's a oneshot (I only remember Citrus). So, this series could be similar to many stories out there, where a gay girl falls for a straight one, just with extra steps. They may actually end up dating at some point, but it just didn't work out. Eri finally realized she still could be Fuyuki's number one "as friend", while Fuyuki already moved on and attended the wedding with her gf.

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Can I just fangirl over the fact that Eri wants to be Fuyuki's girlfriend?? Like this is awesome. Now for the people who say Eri doesn't seem to actually romantically love Fuyuki, that MAY be the case, but think about this: does it really matter? She loved Kyou for the moment he gave her utmost attention. Fuyuki WILL make Eri happy and Eri's existence was literally enough for Fuyuki to subsist off of. I think if they dated it would be incredibly wholesome and they'd both be very happy regardless of actual romantic interest.

Now, the only issue remaining is HOW will they even get together? Fuyuki declared that she'd given up on her love and the trip seemingly made her get very close with senpai. I'm not sure how Eri would manage to break Fuyuki and senpai up even. There is legitimately no reason for them to break up, and I think this is where we'll find out more about senpai.

I am so excited to see what this series has to offer I literally made an account just to talk on this forum. This is simply the best GL I've ever read. Thank you Shinoa you are my God.

I think it should also be noted that Senpai herself thought Eri to love Fuyuki and not realize it. She said it was very obvious to any outsider. There's an extremely good chance that Eri DOES love Fuyuki and she's just asexual and wants boyfriends just to have the typical girl experience. Fuyuki has always been there for her to shower with love and to receive love from.

Have y'all seen the volume 3 cover?? Personally, I am obsessed.
Here is volume 3 on amazon

Holy massive blocks of spoiler text, Batman!

First time checking the comments for this one and wow that is a ton of blacked out text in the comments.

Have y'all seen the volume 3 cover?? Personally, I am obsessed.
Here is volume 3 on amazon

I LOVE this. Put Kisaki-senpai~ front and center with that smug little smile, ugh. Even lil Kojiro on the back chasing butterflies. So cute.

bruh i was waiting for a new update today and when you mentioned the volume 3 cover and saw the chapter listing (it went up to 15), i still denied that we won't see a new chapter for a while and coped. well, comic walker just updated and it was just the vol 3 promo ahhhh

how long will we have to wait for chapter 16? a month or more? i really wish chapter 13 to 15 would get translated soon

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Btw, we're up to ch.12 scans on Dex. Wasn't sure if people here were aware.

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Btw, we're up to ch.12 scans on Dex. Wasn't sure if people here were aware.

Thanks! Will check out

aaagh
I discovered it's on mdex
Caught up there, to ch 13
and y'all are talking about 15 I guess

I don't even know what spoilers are safe to look at.

I'm wondering tho. Why there's no update here?