that really hit me in the feels wtf i havent had that kind of angst squeeze my heart so tightly in a long time

Twisted lol

This is the most satisfying ending I've ever read in my entire life. Thank you murasakino

Ok so why am I the only one happy here

This is all senpai's fault.

I often dislike stories with toxic characters, because usually it amounts to "bad people do bad things and get away with it lmao". But the execution on this story was exceptional, the ending felt very deserved and had a greater point besides "toxic people lol". And it's really nice how you can sympathize with both characters while at the same time despise them for how they are.

Still a little sad though, the first chapter left off on a note of realistic hope, that they could perhaps live better lives apart. And while the second chapter essentially says the same thing, it does so in a much sadder way. I was rooting for the blonde to live life well without senpai, but I suppose the damage had already been done. The only consolation is that at least the blonde is not at the butt end of the relationship anymore.

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I feel like normally I would be able to see this kind of ending coming, but somehow with the way the first half went I dunno, I guess I expected something different

this is so toxic wtf i love it gimme more

How ironic of her to ask why she's deceiving girls tbh. Chihiro is now the girl she crafted. The ending felt like the switched position... you know like Chihiro would be now the one deceiving her while the senpai waiting for a good relationship between them like Chihiro used to wished for in the past.

I am in my feelings now. Thanks

Wow, that was a really well done melancholic tragedy of sorts.
The really gut wrenching part is that senpai kind of seals her own fate the moment she pushes former kouhai away when the latter says she's happy. Basically solidifying to kouhai that the change in her behavior is what finally gets senpai to look at her in the way she wanted. Essentially remaining unobtainable despite being within reach.

And what's worse is that everyone kouhai flings around with is specifically similar to senpai whereas that wasn't the case when the roles were reversed.

I enjoyed part 2, but I think I would've preferred ending it off in part 1. I feel like there are rarely yuri stories that have the "Lose the one you loved, because you took them for granted" angle. At least compared to the "This is a toxic relationship, but we can never quit each other" type of story.

Senpai is setup as the type of character with enough confidence and awareness to understand Kouhai's feelings. However, Senpai also displays that she has no interest in taking their relationship as seriously as she does. Despite also seemingly liking Kouhai more than pretty much anyone. Having Kouhai straight BOUNCE was really interesting, because not only did it catch senpai off guard but it also managed to change her perspective of her lifestyle. Senpai figures out what she truly wants, but only after losing Kouhai completely.

I like the angle of making Kouhai into a monster, created by senpai. But, I think I would've preferred that in a different story. Maybe with less of a time skip, so we can see the descent and it doesn't hit us all at once. It's especially weird considering at this point in the story that senpai already learned her lesson and feels regret. So, why punish her further? Player Kouhai also feels a little forced to me. I think it's reasonable, but having her reunite with senpai and be like "DAMN! I wish I would've tapped dat!" feels a little overboard. Even after senpai changed lifestyles she still seemed to act like the same type of person.

Still overall a great (ANGSTY) story!

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I was flabbergasted but then i busted out laughing

Senpai's character development to Chihiro's character distortion lol

Anyway, Murasakino always has their way to squeeze our hearts out and I love the pain especially by them.

yay more angst imma kill myself

So at first I was happy because I thought the author chose the rare "bad ending" of not having the characters end up together. Then part 2 comes out and I realized that the actual bad ending was the characters getting together. While I am disappointed that they do end up dating, I did like the juxtaposition between them; especially in their designs, they were basically opposite colors.

Damn. Wow ok

Wow, she went in all teeth in that last panel kiss.

So at first I was happy because I thought the author chose the rare "bad ending" of not having the characters end up together. Then part 2 comes out and I realized that the actual bad ending was the characters getting together. While I am disappointed that they do end up dating, I did like the juxtaposition between them; especially in their designs, they were basically opposite colors.

Definitely a "sometimes the worst outcome is getting what you want" moment. For me, the longing and missed connection of the first chapter hurt in a good way. Like you, I also wasn't amazed by the ending of the second chapter, since there are a fair number of toxic relationship endings on here already, but the role reversal at the end was fun.

Good pussy makes a girl turn evil

Good pussy makes a girl turn evil

This is disappointing news.

This is the only angst that didn’t squeeze my heart

Looking forward to the second part.

That’s my earlier opinion, now my opinion is: Meh.

It’s alright for these endings to happen… it’s just a let down to me.

Been in this kind of "relationship". Ended in tears. Should have used my brains because I saw it coming.

Does this count as a happy ending?

Okay, so mixed feelings. It feels like they kind of Villainized bisexual women. I don't know man like yeah some people from every sexuality (pan, bi, straight, lesbian, gay, and etc) can be players, but it seems like senpai was just living their life. She wasn't bothering anyone and even got shit for it (guy almost hitting her for saying not interested). I don't think Chihiro was really emotionally mature and was too fixated on senpai. This is on Chihiro more than senpai. Senpai was being herself. (Though and don't get me wrong I've been and experienced what it's like to be a Chihiro part 1 Chihiro only. I never went player for kicks.) Senpai was pretty open about how she viewed people and relationships as a pain. She didn't want to put in the effort. Or change if someone asked her to. She thought that was freedom.
Yeah, it was shitty of senpai to cancel their plans last minute, but so many people put their dates/bfs/gfs before their friends and even their families. So I mean I can and can't fault her for that. If it happens more than a few times though I would be pretty pissed and wouldn't make plans with them at all.
But Chihiro kept hoping she'd change. That was all on Chihiro. Senpai never said she'd stop, never said anything that would make them closer besides the casual "Wanna go to a hotel?", it was more like she wanted to see if Chihiro was like the others or a test to see how long it would take before she said,"Yes" and what it would look like. Senpai was even a little disappointed (in my opinion) she was like,"I knew it. You're always like that." As if Chihiro not changing and giving in to senpai was so predictable.

That's for part one.

Now part two:
I believe Senpai deserves better. I mean like I said before she isn't a villian, she's just human, and she liked sleeping around as is her right as an individual/person.
Chihiro went all bent out of shape and broke other girls hearts like senpai in a warped attempt to forget, and never forget senpai by acting like her.
This was neither a shock or a development for me. I was like yeah figures. Can't have someone be healthy, get heartbroken, and then continue to be healthy/themselves. No no gotta go for crazy bītćh or nothing.
Seriously, she was just breaking girls hearts that looked like senpai to get back at her?? Like gurl get some therapy. Or move?! Maybe move?

I thought she had gone overseas or something to have a change of scenery that would've been nice. Then have them "meet" at a company party where everyone even the board of trustees attends.
Or if they wanted a "bad end" they could've had Chihiro married to a Canadian or some shit. Like "You had your chance and now I'm taken" oops XD ya know?
Or the friend on the train talk about how awesome their boss is and that their wife is quite the looker. Or something ya know.

I definitely didn't think the end was anything great. Chihiro just couldn't handle rejection, or not getting her way cause really they were never in a relationship, relationship for her to feel like she was owned something out of her friendship with senpai.
That's really what the story's about: Chihiro's gay ass needs therapy. Lots of it!

Senpai was just living her life, her way and then she changed her mind. That's growth.

Chihiro was a literal pouty child all throughout and then decided fuck it I'll wreck people's hearts since they/senpai didn't want me as I was. I was ready to love them, and so fuck them it's too late.

Which is weird cause I think Chihiro still likes senpai and never really stopped, but she's too into her new persona to want to be a good GF to senpai. She like thought about it for two seconds and decided to ignore it... cause maybe being vulnerable again is too painful for her?
That's all I can think about.

Then she gets all macho and she's like oh interesting you like me the same way as I did back then? Okay, then time for your heart to be broken. Like what? Senpai never tried kissing Chihiro or being romantic with them (in part one), so this is just all kinds of fucked and she doesn't (Chihiro) understand that she wasn't owned anything back then and she thinks because she was "wronged" that she can act this way... that's just not sitting well with me.
Chihiro is worse than all the other people senpai used to sleep around with simply because of this victim mentality when she wasn't abused, just not "chosen". If senpai had used her to crash at her house, for sex, to hit her, or to buy her meals then maybe I could how that ending would make sense but in this context it's just waaaaaaay off. Not even good. Chihiro is fucked up, was fucked up, and she never changed her mentality or made peace with not being chosen by a pretty girl.
Senpai for the win guys. She is best girl in both chapters. Just trying to live her life, her way. She deserves better!