Damn wish i girl n hearing... sigh i born wrong sex ugh im can't take my body body ugh
Hi, I wanted to say that you sound like you are depressed and have a lot to say about how you feel. A suggestion is talking to someone about this to relieve yourself, is there anyone you trust or are there any counsellors in your area you are able to contact? Or ask someone you trust enough to try and help you find one?
I also wanted to say I learnt the phrase "everyone is beautiful" isn't 'everyone is a supermodel' but instead means that even if one person hated themself and thought they were unattractive, at least one person in this world finds them beautiful and wants the best for them.
I feel we are all able to find someone and that you will be able to achieve happiness and live comfortably. If you feel you are in a situation at home where you feel on edge all the time and need to find somewhere to relax, a suggestion is to reach out to someone you trust can help you.
These negative feelings will pass as you grow more self aware too. I found 'living day to day until you can plan for the future' helped me. I hope you feel more improved later on >_<