Oh Hotaru does hate herself, she doesn't think she deserves to be with Yuma, and has pretty much been sabotaging herself since the beginning.
Her being all sweet and flirty these past days (?) with Yuma, and then commenting on how temporary it is and then casually brushing off that comment, hints that Hotaru is enjoying herself, but doesn't believe it will last, or perhaps shouldn't last, because Yuma should find someone better than her. It's like a very short dream, and Hotaru accepts that it won't last, and is just making the best out of it for now, making happy memories with Yuma, whispering sweet nothings, but ultimately believing them to be empty promises, regardless of what she really wants. It's pretty clear what Hotaru wants, but she's done nothing to really reach for it.
Meanwhile Yuma is really starting to consider her future with Hotaru. They probs both have a vague ish idea of how the other feels (though Yuma is still really oblivious and has been doubting her suspicions the whole time, and Hotaru's sharp and probs knows about her feelings, but sike cus self loathing and all), no one has really taken a concrete step. They've gotten more intimate lately, blatantly and romantically flirting with each other, but they're still just playing games with each other because no one is out loud questioning or admitting to the ambiguously romantic nature of their relationship.
Perhaps the concern for pregnancy (which i don't think will be confirmed to be true tbh, its too much trouble, just the scare Is enough as a plot device =A=), will push Yuma to do something more legit/direct, since, altho Hotaru is pretty aggressive, her biggest obstacle is ultimately herself and with the way she is now, she's not gonna do anything to change how things are.
From my understanding;
Yuma: self doubt, obliviousness, uncertainty, awareness of social stigma, buuut now that she has a sorta better idea of what she wants, will awkwardly and hesitantly go for it, ish
Hotaru: manipulative, perceptive, but self destructive, self loathing. [Passive] aggressive, aware of her own feelings, but has a whole sorta defeatist attitude going on
Fujiwara's also totally throwing a wrench in their shit lol, mainly at Yuma. He makes harsh comments and is judging them real hard, it's quite obvious that it makes Yuma feel really uncomfortable and hesitant to have his contempt for her all up in her face, though it does make her realise stuff she's been too blind to see, from having it all so up close and personal.
In fact, @awareness, we've been seeing interact with her other classmates a lot too. She ends up thinking about Hotaru like all the time lol. I feel like it'll blow up in her face (socially) and they'll be outted or something really dramatic and unpleasant, perhaps forcing the two to actually talk about it/confront the reality of wtf is going on between them.
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