Don't quite understand why abandoning her thesis, which she was apparently almost finished with, was somehow a hindrance to walking side-by-side with Reiko.
I think she wanted to move onto something that she could accomplish on her own. She says it herself at the end that she didn’t want to depend on anyone for her efforts anymore. She felt like she was playing the whole thesis thing unfairly because she was not really working on it herself (she was having a sexual affair with Reiko, who was helping her out with her thesis as she worked, and this might have felt like nepotism).
In other words, she changed her dream to actually being Reiko’s lover and following her own career path this time instead of trying to use people to get into the fancy “marunuchi ‘ol” profession that she tried to force herself into. The last page says that the thesis paper was written for the top notch company she was originally planning on, so it was something specific to that field. But since she is no longer pursuing that field, she discarded it.
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