Y'know... Some of the mistakes, failings and wrongs I've done (both on this site and in real life) has caused my masochism to hit me much harder than usual (the hardest it has for the past year and a half). I have loss the very last shreds of my dignity. I well and truly am the worst, stupidest and laziest thing currently alive in this Universe. I'm irredeemable worthless garbage that deserves a far worse, far more sufferable, far more painful life than the one I have. Accordingly, I'm leaving Dynasty Reader (hopefully, for the good of y'all, forever), so I wouldn't bother y'all with my shit. Though, knowing how this masochism went all the previous times, I'm likely gonna come back in a week or two. Bummer. Well, my sincerest apologies to all of you (tho, as much as I regret doing and am sorry for doing all those mistakes, I'd rather not be forgiven). I must confess, because one of those wrongs that I did in real life earlier today, a tiny part of me is even suggesting me to jump off a bridge.
You have been waaaay toooo kind to points at himself this particular idiot.
Have all the luck and happiness there is, because (and I know this will be very hypocritical of me to say) I don't want you all to fall into that same hole as me.
I really needed to do a lot of mental self-beating to realize that everyone I have ever interacted with (in real life or online) are just victims I didn't even know I had. Once again, I'm full of regret, and I'm very sorry, but I very much DO NOT want to be forgiven.
Sorry for bothering you all this time, and sorry for bothering you with this post.
last edited at May 26, 2019 10:15AM