I read this thrice since I wanted to know why syfalkda see it that way. I'm quite intrigued. :)
It maybe the way it is as she explained but the word, "patient", kept me off-track......a "mental" patient or just a person in a normal daily life, struggling to control the extreme "indecisiveness".
There are three explanations for me:
- A roommate's nightmare within the MC's dream;
- MC's imagination witnessing the nightmare (similar to Ushio's comment)
- all a metaphor
Observations:
the ring on the roommate's finger from both pictures, i.e., if the cover is really them. (can't read Japanese..)
the MC looking at the roommate who is walking stoically forward and the other picture, the MC is holding the arm of the roommate who does not touch her.
So, my interpretation is all a metaphor:
The roommate told her of the nightmare but not the details of it since the MC is part of it. The MC witnessed the moaning every "nightmare". The "nigtmare" is the two "choices" that she faces in everyday life: the hetero marriage "relationship"(generally accepted) and the homo love(not accepted in Japan) she had for the MC who is a bosom friend as well. The splitting is the "logical self" from the "emotional self". The " logical self" eats the "emotional self" rationalizing that the hetero marriage "relationship" is the right thing to do than to give in to her "conflicted feeling" for the MC.
The nightmare stops until such time that the roommate wavers again in her resolution. Since they are close and maybe the "growing love" (conflicted feeling) of the roommate for the MC.
"It seems to happen only on nights when she has the nightmares." This means that the splitting occurs when she keeps on denying/rationalizing her "conflicted feeling" for the MC.
"She hasn't realized it herself". This means the roommate hasn't realized that she was already romantically in love with the MC.
"When this happens, I always feel lonely". This means she already knew of her roommate's "feelings" and she felt the same way too. But the "splitting" saddens her because the roommate is fighting the "feeling".
"Just once.... nibble...." This means she tried to convey her feelings. The nibbling of the nose means she tried to gently, bit by bit, to arouse the
feelings/love which means to let the roommate recognize/accept the romantic love.
"However, I'm not good enough" This means the MC can't win over the "logical self" of the roommate. She was still struggling but no moaning, no splitting, no eating.
Note: There was a discontinuation of the events. I take note of the clothes. The author choose a provocative clothing in the "just once" event to signify that the MC flirted with the roommate.
"That's why, what I could do to that filled belly" This is where the "emotional self" who has a "conflicted feelings" for the MC.
"was caress it". This means she will not nibble anymore but gently touch(to love) the "emotional self". In the process, the MC will continue to nourish/nurture that "conflicted feeling".
....Until such time, the MC can kiss the filled belly and the " emotional self" will follow the kiss as shown on the arching body...
Notes:
belly button kiss is a type of a kiss that you should expect a lot more though it will start from an innocent/sweet way. Since you can only do this in private.
the last panel to me is suggestive that the "emotional self" will come out from the belly. An instinctual coming out with no rationalization.
edit: syfalida to syfalkda
edit1: change terms due to Altair's comment
last edited at Dec 31, 2017 9:59AM