No problem, I'm sorry again for assuming the worst.
I'm sorry about that, people are incredibly cruel towards trans women, so it's inevitable you'll lose some people in your life when they find out you're trans. It's not easy, it can be dangerous, and you might not be in a safe spot in your life to currently to even transition, and people do heavily discriminate transfem people in lots of contexts, but you being yourself is more important than anything, and for as long as you live, you can transition even if you need to work towards it first. It'll never be too late to be yourself.
There are people who will love you for who you are, who will respect the fact that you are a woman, who will love you as a woman loving another woman, who won't be afraid to call you their girlfriend, their sister... anything you prefer, so never settle for people who won't respect that and try to make you live as someone you are not because they put themselves above you. Not talking only about romantic partners, but friendship too.
Take all the time you need to figure things out, and if it turns out you're a girl, then go for it! Your happiness matters the most, you don't need to let pain decide things for you.
(E se você for brasileira, pode valer a pena procurar um ambulatório trans na tua cidade ou guias de terapia hormonal em PTBR, muita boneca aqui usa PERLUTAN inclusive. Infelizmente muito médico não sabe medicar dosagens boas, então é bom falar com outras mulheres trans para evitar problema)
We've strayed from the image in question, but I do hope that one day you can too find joy in those little things, because it can feel pretty nice to see others like you even when it's not something explicitly stated, or something you decided to headcanon yourself.