YES THEY'RE BACK FROM THE DEAD WE'RE PISSPILLED AND VOMITMAXXING

Reading this again, I’ve just realized the BE could have been prevented if Airi’s parents were more active with Airi’s mental state, instead of just letting Hina dealing with Airi 100%. They could have sit down, had a talk with her, convinced her to have dinner with them. They could have assured her that’s everything is fine and they’re always on her side, that Airi doesn’t need to go to school in this town or sth like that. Letting a depressed kid alone in her room and not taking any action towards her is one of the worst way to treat a depressed kid, I think. I know they trust Hina but they could have done sth, even if it’s small.

Reading this again, I’ve just realized the BE could have been prevented if Airi’s parents were more active with Airi’s mental state, instead of just letting Hina dealing with Airi 100%. They could have sit down, had a talk with her, convinced her to have dinner with them. They could have assured her that’s everything is fine and they’re always on her side, that Airi doesn’t need to go to school in this town or sth like that. Letting a depressed kid alone in her room and not taking any action towards her is one of the worst way to treat a depressed kid, I think. I know they trust Hina but they could have done sth, even if it’s small.

It's best to treat the parents like they don't exist, because they didn't do anything at all. Not when Airi left school, not when she was beating Hinako up, and not when she was screaming.

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It's best to treat the parents like they don't exist, because they didn't do anything at all. Not when Airi left school, not when she was beating Hinako up, and not when she was screaming.

Then her life has been set up to end as a disaster from the beginning tbh. At least Hina’s parents still showed that they cared for her.

last edited at Jun 5, 2024 11:04AM

I wasn't expecting to see this series back, here's hoping it gets an anime adaptation one day

Sigh...
In certain Eastern Asia contries (Notably CJK, not necesary in that order though lol) overbearing parents is a problem by itself. Childrens are treated as parents' belongings, instead of human beings with their own thoughts and ideas. Rather than "This BE could be avoided if parents step up", it's probably more like "Airi's twisted personality may have been a result from her parents' treatment", at least in my opinion.
There's even a Internet meme (circulating on Chinese-language SNS) that roughtly says "Asking parents for help during mental crisis is like sit down and lit a cigarette so you can calm down when you have a natural gas leak". Tragic, but that's basically what we have here.

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Pretty interesting to have a pre-breakdown scene where Hina is the dominant one, with piss play no less. Very nice.

Fugg, I totally forgot what the ending was for this manga, and so it caught me AGAIN in the extras.

I started reading this not expecting to like it at all, but it was horrifyingly captivating the whole way through. This quickly became one of my favorite pieces of art ever, and I'm so happy I gave it a chance. I feel like it's permanently changed something about me. 10/10 would cry to the point of feeling physically ill again; yuri so toxic it made me sick.

I loved it. It’s brutal, miserable, and (at least for me) unsexy, but it’s compelling, goes somewhere clear with the plot, and looks close at extreme anxiety and codependency. Airi was very relatable in her emotions if not her actions… abandonment and inability to feel loved.

On the whole, I think it was slightly less toxic than my relationship with my ex.

YES THEY'RE BACK FROM THE DEAD WE'RE PISSPILLED AND VOMITMAXXING

Im sorry im not seeing it, where's the 2024 update?

Just finished reading all this. I misread it at first and here's how I thought the final chapter went.... Hina panics from the emotional torment and gives up moments before Airi dies, so Airi is actually still alive but passed out from lack of oxygen. Hina decides to save them and go back home, or even just run away and get help. (Chilling that Hina got Airi dressed at this point). She carries them away but trips and falls, and in both of their exhaustion, neither can get up, and freeze to death. I saw them covered in snow and "fin" and was sooo shocked....
I reread the final chapter and actually felt sick to my stomach, reminded of all their puking and grotesque love and how sad I was for them. It pained me so much, I felt sick and cried. I wanted so badly for them to just go home, or ask their parents to attend a different school, but I know it couldn't have ended that way. As someone who was suicida1 in my teen years, it feels like the author reached into my past to pull ideas from a depressed anxious kid's mind. Hina's desperation to do anything for love, even harm someone. Airi's desire to feel eternal, like death is the only answer since nothing could trump their current situation/ship. Wow. Even the side character, Ichika -- so many of us are just desperate to feel something and do crazy things to justify it. At one point I felt sympathy for glasses-bltch because I, too, staked a childhood friendship on whether or not they noticed my private suffering. I was 7 and ended a friendship over essentially nothing. My point is, this series really made me feel things.

THEN after I finished the finale, I immediately read the extras of the other girls' perspective and that's when I accepted they died like WHAAAAT THE F ouch. As others have noted, more chapters on the others in town reacting to the news would be nice but it's best to just imagine. They weren't the focus anyway. This story was hot and fast, like their lives. Crazy twist and turn with part 1 of Airi abuser, part 2 of shitshow ostracized girls, part 3 of Hina abuser, then their one and only plan failing quickly. Teenagers. Ugh. Depressing. They were too young and anxious to solve their problems.
Then I read the beach scene and cried again. Realizing why they tried to die at the beach, and why Hina dreamed of them at the beach in the delusion. It's so bitter. Every turn if this story had me questioning why I was reading, but was continuously drawn in with honest and brutal storytelling. No page unturned.

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