I think this manga actually helped me understand my brother a little better. He, too, started falling apart after graduating and searched for friendship in his workmates.

Depression is hard for some people to understand, like the MC's parents, they see "nothing obvious is wrong", and can't help but ask "why aren't you okay, maybe you are and just need to try harder to realize it?" It hard to cope with not just having depression but being close to someone with it as you can't seem to make them better no matter how hard you try as it's a chemical imbalance, but it tends to be perceived as a situational condition.

Personally, I can relate to this so much. I actually was sweating ping-pong balls when I saw the part of the attachment to your mother. I never knew I had something like that nor could it happen to other children like that. I feel like I'm starting to develop the same eating habits like the protagonist in this story. I relating too well with the whole story now... creepy.

Let's start a club! How's that sound? Then we're not alone anymore ^^b

Club “broken beyond repair”

It already exists, it's just called "Dynasty Reader Forums". >__>

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@ Koveras

It already exists, it's just called "Dynasty Reader Forums". >__>

I wouldn't go so far as to call everyone on the forums broken... ^^
But if we start a club for broken people, maybe we can find a way to put ourselves back together... ;)
"Dynasty Self-Help Group" (^_-)v

I wouldn't go so far as to call everyone on the forums broken... ^^

It's just an impression I got from reading through the comments in this thread. I only recall a single person here claiming they don't have any broken parts in their head. :D

Well... I think a lot of people have all kinds of problems. But not just here, that goes for random people on the streets as well. It's just that... you usually don't talk about such things on a daily basis. And that's the mistake, maybe. Because if everyone would talk about stuff like that casually it wouldn't be so hard for some anymore to admit that they have problems with a seemingly „normal“ life as well. Sometimes people just need to hear that it's okay to be broken, it's okay to feel lost, there's nothing wrong with being gay or being „different“, no matter where you're from.
Being open about such issues would make things a lot easier but people just have the tendencies to make things even more difficult than they already are... ^^

Maybe I should get a T-Shirt saying "I'm broken but that's okay!"... ;)
To raise awareness, you know ^^

I read the manga and i admit this is serious thing that if she kept doing this, she will...lead herself into actual suicide. And i bet you are having similar experiences with her dont want to lead yourself into that kind of dangerous things.

I admit, there are some part i relate to her and there are some part i dont. That's why, if you want to read this, i will be grateful.

The first thing i read about her opinion about "real job" and her family's opinion about job too, i can think only about "being grateful." i just hope that her family is feeling grateful to her, that at least she has job, no matter how society look down the part-time job. It's not like she is doing criminal that will led her into jail. It's better that she can grow with her pace, rather than limiting her growth with "society opinion."

And i think both her and her parents are very demanding. Her parents demanding her to do as "proper" daugher, and she demanding herself to do as "proper" person. Without seeing their good value of themselves, without seeing their sprouth of growth, but they only see their weakness as problem, i think they will suffering for the long time, until they realized themselves.

"if her daughter have real job, will they happy, or thinking she should gain promotion? If her daughter finally get promotion, will they happy, or thinking she should gain upper position? Or married with boss? Or having genius grandchildren? Etc and so forth?"

"when they finally happy?"

No matter how i look their perspective, i feel like sad. It's like society of japan limiting their younger generation's freedom to grow their talent and creativity with their "shame" as moral. When the parents are no longer in the world, how can children live on this harsh world? I thought japan is the manufacture country with creative mind. My country is even poor with people hardly get part time job. Even they are happy if they get part time job, just like she did. At least they can feed their wife and children.

And about the sexual based on "hug", i know that japan allowed porn long time ago, but i really think sexual pleasure is always short term pleasure and long term suffering. Sexual is no different than drugs that will give you short term pleasure but long term pain, but at least sexual will not make you dead, unlike drugs. No matter how you tried to correct them, in the end, you will end up suffering, it is fortunate that you still didnt commit some criminal. But sexual based romance, it is the most pleasurable thing than mere sexual and you still be happy together even without needing sex.

I only suggest to go some religion you can trust. I thought zen is the original religion in japan. I am reading buddha's teaching and their content is good too, so i suggest you to research about them.

I will not suggest you to attend religious group to make you a foolish blind-faith that turning into terrorists as you can see in news. But at least, you will form some social and will make you serve good action and moral to society, because it will help you to relieve your mentality from the problems of society.

Or just come to indonesia, the country with 6 religion available with strict moral value.

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Even you live in mud-stain world, even if you live stained in mud already, because you still live now, you have a chance to do some good deeds. Even a little things is okay. Because you will get something more than awards, more than title, more than wealthy, more than anything.

It's kind of cool. Her lesbian experience was for real, not a teaser to sell the book. The manga style relaxes the seriousness of the situation by not using "creepy grim-dark" art to tell the story and gives it almost a sit-com feel that allows me to understand. Many people experience serious issues, but her story telling abilities work on this. That's why this is flying off the shelves. and is #7 on Amazon.jp's non fiction list.

I can relate so much to this it's kinda weird, don't know if I will read it all

Same here and went through it with a grain of salt perspective.
You're Dead right 'past me'. My motto not just another useless new year's resolution but a permanent one.

It's kind of cool. Her lesbian experience was for real, not a teaser to sell the book. The manga style relaxes the seriousness of the situation by not using "creepy grim-dark" art to tell the story and gives it almost a sit-com feel that allows me to understand. Many people experience serious issues, but her story telling abilities work on this. That's why this is flying off the shelves. and is #7 on Amazon.jp's non fiction list.

Nice..wish I had a hard copy to carry this around for a constant daily reminder.

I read the manga and i admit this is serious thing that if she kept doing this, she will...lead herself into actual suicide. And i bet you are having similar experiences with her dont want to lead yourself into that kind of dangerous things.

I admit, there are some part i relate to her and there are some part i dont. That's why, if you want to read this, i will be grateful.

The first thing i read about her opinion about "real job" and her family's opinion about job too, i can think only about "being grateful." i just hope that her family is feeling grateful to her, that at least she has job, no matter how society look down the part-time job. It's not like she is doing criminal that will led her into jail. It's better that she can grow with her pace, rather than limiting her growth with "society opinion."

And i think both her and her parents are very demanding. Her parents demanding her to do as "proper" daugher, and she demanding herself to do as "proper" person. Without seeing their good value of themselves, without seeing their sprouth of growth, but they only see their weakness as problem, i think they will suffering for the long time, until they realized themselves.

"if her daughter have real job, will they happy, or thinking she should gain promotion? If her daughter finally get promotion, will they happy, or thinking she should gain upper position? Or married with boss? Or having genius grandchildren? Etc and so forth?"

"when they finally happy?"

No matter how i look their perspective, i feel like sad. It's like society of japan limiting their younger generation's freedom to grow their talent and creativity with their "shame" as moral. When the parents are no longer in the world, how can children live on this harsh world? I thought japan is the manufacture country with creative mind. My country is even poor with people hardly get part time job. Even they are happy if they get part time job, just like she did. At least they can feed their wife and children.

And about the sexual based on "hug", i know that japan allowed porn long time ago, but i really think sexual pleasure is always short term pleasure and long term suffering. Sexual is no different than drugs that will give you short term pleasure but long term pain, but at least sexual will not make you dead, unlike drugs. No matter how you tried to correct them, in the end, you will end up suffering, it is fortunate that you still didnt commit some criminal. But sexual based romance, it is the most pleasurable thing than mere sexual and you still be happy together even without needing sex.

I only suggest to go some religion you can trust. I thought zen is the original religion in japan. I am reading buddha's teaching and their content is good too, so i suggest you to research about them.

I will not suggest you to attend religious group to make you a foolish blind-faith that turning into terrorists as you can see in news. But at least, you will form some social and will make you serve good action and moral to society, because it will help you to relieve your mentality from the problems of society.

Or just come to indonesia, the country with 6 religion available with strict moral value.

Very good points

Or just come to indonesia, the country with 6 religion available with strict moral value
Fire, Three Veils, I Can't Think Straight, World Unseen are just some of good examples.

I wouldn't go so far as to call everyone on the forums broken... ^^

It's just an impression I got from reading through the comments in this thread. I only recall a single person here claiming they don't have any broken parts in their head. :D

LOL...welp I'm Beautifully Broken I will admit that with an elastic heart!

I wouldn't go so far as to call everyone on the forums broken... ^^

It's just an impression I got from reading through the comments in this thread. I only recall a single person here claiming they don't have any broken parts in their head. :D

LOL...welp I'm Beautifully Broken I will admit that with an elastic heart!

Apart from mild anxiety (no panic attacks), and situational depression related to infertility, I'm mentally healthy, and I don't consider myself broken at all.

This is too relatable I feel both inspired and depressed at the same time. Though all the unrelatable parts, like some of the mother dynamic things are interesting too.

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Actually just bought the 1st volume of this today! (although I can't understand the more difficult part s are saying cries waiting for the scanlations by looking at pictures for now). But does anyone know if the second book will be out any time soon?

RenegadeTK posted:

Actually just bought the 1st volume of this today! (although I can't understand the more difficult part s are saying cries waiting for the scanlations by looking at pictures for now). But does anyone know if the second book will be out any time soon?

I'm not sure if she's planning on eventually compiling her pixiv diary into another book but as of right now, this book is stand-alone.

Chapter 3 has been translated... Oh boi here we go

Page 13 and forward resonates so hard with me, my barrier, the real me (I'm actually scared of the real me) and even the nightmares... And then she just fight for her right to do what she wants, like she is already a step ahead of me, previous chapters made me feel empathy but now I'm actually learning with admiration.

Maybe a prostitute is the short term answer after all.

I love this so much.

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God this manga and the comments are the ultimate way to get depressed.
Though I do really enjoy the manga :)

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Five days between baths? Dayum, girl!

Though I never went to such extremes, I do relate to the depression and not being able to find anyone. So... yeah, I do like this in that sense.

God this manga and the comments are the ultimate way to get depressed.
Though I do really enjoy the manga :)

Strange. I found each new chapter more and more cathartic than depressing. The first one was extremely dark, but I realize now that it was necessary to make the story of the author-protagonist regaining a measure of control over her own life as impactful as it could possibly get.

I really can't see someone actually going through this kind of issue . It seems so unreal and full of overly stimulated anxiety .

Five days between baths? Dayum, girl!

I've been through a bought of mild depression after getting laid off before...sometimes showering isn't really on your list of things to do.