read this earlier and it's been bouncing around in my head the last several hours. it honestly hit like a truck. there's nothing light or casual about it, and that's made very very clear in that last conversation with her best friend. she talks before that as if it was a whim or just general "i was tired", but yamagishi mentions all the things in her past that were suffocating her. as someone with bad depression, i can't count how many times i just said "tired" instead of explaining why i felt like shit. it is what it is, right? no point in opening old wounds for stuff that won't change. and that's how her situation read to me, very clearly. just an overwhelming sense of powerlessness.
what actually breaks my heart though is her talking about all the plans they made and things she promised to do with her. that hit waaaaay too close to home, even thinking about it makes me tear up. god
