"Even now, there are times I can't help but see as salvation the fact that all life eventually ends up as nothing but skin and bones."
I feel that, man.
I interpret this manga thusly: a neurodivergent, let's just say autistic, individual finds her special interest, and commits to it to the point of being willing to die. I view this as the literal reading. More esoterically, let's proceed from the fact that Itou wants to become part of Takahashi. She wants to be enveloped by Takahashi, she wants (her skin) to be full of Takahashi, and she wants Takahashi to eventually present as her. Take the special interest reading, and we can interpret this as Itou wanting to integrate her special interest into her identity. She wants to be enveloped by her special interest, she wants to be full of her special interest, and she wants her special interest to be what people see when they interact with her.
I'm not sure everyone can relate to this feeling of a not-completely-obsessive interest in a less-than-proper topic, but to me this really resonated.
Fantastic manga. Thank you for scanlating.
love this interpretation. i read it all in one go now that it's finished and, yeah, as an autistic person with my own extremely fixed obsessive (and isolating!) interests, it hit home. even the ending is like... it's years after. itou is no longer in the middle of it. but even with distance and time and growth, it's still who she is on a fundamental level. i have a Thing like that myself where i was so deep in it at one point in my life, it was self-destructive, but years after the fact i love it, and i will continue to love it and define myself by that love for the rest of my life.
if there's one thing that stuck out to me about the last chapter, it's when they talk about white lies. i guess it's connecting to the human vs monster thing previously, and therefore bringing itou closer to the "human" side where takahashi is. but... i guess it just feels weird to me. i'm not sure i agree with that being kindness, and not just cowardice? and if anything, rather than growth for itou, it feels like crushing her into this box and calling that growth. i know she spent the whole manga saying she wanted, desperately, to be normal. but i think there's a sweet spot somewhere, where you can keep your principles and be truly honest, while also showing consideration for other people. just because you read the room doesn't mean you need to agree with the room, you know? so i have mixed feelings, i guess.