"I want to die as my own gender" really hit me god damn
and to wade into the waters on this discussion, I am a trans woman and I very much do not fit into what people would consider femme. I never was a person who played with dolls or wanted to wear make up or anything like that. Some of my trans friends are like that, not really feeling beholden to the stereotypes of their gender or not. Some of them fit it to a T. I think both contain elements of self fulfilling doubt, especially with traditional gender roles present in a lot of the world. Growing up I often thought I couldn't be a woman because I didn't want to do anything traditionally feminine. My friends who fit into that role would just wonder if they were just fulfilling a bad stereotype, or falling into ideas of what someone of a gender can do.
Reading this I see someone who from an early age realized who he is and was constantly reminded that he is not seen as the person he is. This is displayed in how the internet sees him, how his dad and mother viewed him and even in how his own body betrays him with having his first period. The sexism and expectation put onto him for sure make his existence harder and his want to break out of himself more but he is a person who looked at a trans person and saw himself and I don't think that's something I can just ascribe to someone wanting to escape sexism. Also the fact that he hid the fact for years and still started going through for only his personal fully expecting his dad to not see him as a man shows how serious it is to him.
