So huuuuh... Why aren't they dating yet?
A touch of misunderstandings, dash of inadequacy and a heavy sprinkle of denial. Solving the denial part probably solves the first two, but the first two make the denial stronger, which is funny.
Yeah komaki is in sort of like a fallen hero place where she embraced the thought that she will never have wakaba and is pursuing that to the very end.
She was a sincere girl who, in that moment where the suffering people's jealousy put her through was too much, decided to become insincere and superior and look down on people (understandable, for a young kid with no emotional support) but it meant she never developed the ability to sincerely express her feelings and be vulnerable. So when she started falling in love with her only friend, and then wakaba turned to look elsewhere, she thought oh i can never have her but I can't live without her.
So instead of sincerely expressing the depth of her emotions, which she can't do because she can't be vulnerable, she's giving up completely on having wakaba for herself and instead is trying to cling to her, to carve some of herself into her, so that when wakaba leaves her they'll still be tangled up in each other. she loves her so much she can't let her go, but she can't be honest with her. I mean she literally gave up a better school to pursue this girl who she tanked her relationship with. Just to make her hate her more, to get her hands on her for longer, to dig her claws in deeper.
She's, like, following the dark side of toxic yuri, so i think she'll never be able to ask wakaba out.
And then wakaba also hates and mistrusts her for the fucked up thing she did to her, which was a profound and unexpected betrayal. She hates her because she loved her so much and got punished for it.
She wants to break through komaki's jadedness and give her what-for, and she still clearly has feelings. But she needs to grow to the point where she'd want to be together with her for real, and to understand her emotions, and to do what she does best: pierce komaki's shell. and then komaki needs to give up on being doomed and meet her halfway, so they can form something secure.
they both need to grow a lot, independently and together, before that could happen. so it's a pretty long road. And damn is it well set up.
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