Read it again after a long time. Some great comments in here too btw, so I'll focus more on my thoughts of what struck me rather than an actual analysis.
I can definitely see why some people hate it, I found this quite exhausting overall, but there were so many nice moments of coziness that I really felt like reading the whole thing again.
1 - The themes are great and mesh well with one another : the cruel entertainment industry, finding yourself in the world as well as in relationship to other people, the exploration of sexuality, moving on from the past, dealing with how other people perceive you, the struggles with money, the way a job can enmesh with your personal life, how women and especially lesbians are perceived, and the general confusion of that age period.
Were the themes well executed though is an entirely different question, which constitute the other points.
2 - Mood : I find that the times where we just see Yukino casually being with Setsuko to be really good. The way they just talk about their daily lives just feels very genuine and sincere. Same for the scenes where we see them with Mari - there is this cozy vibe and it really feels like Yukino has found a home of sorts. On the other hand, when Yukino is just monologuing to herself, the mood is almost suffocating. Everything feels like a disaster, when she could, you know, communicate ? I know she's insecure and that's a big part of her character, but damn if that's not unbearable at times.
3 - Drama : I just dislike drama overall so I don't have anything nice to say about it. Not only do the main drama arcs not make much sense to me (Yukino cheating and being unsure about moving with Setsuko) but they are also interspersed with droplets of angst throughout, which just made me wish the two characters could just ... get along ? Interestingly, I wasn't THAT bothered by the cheating arc and what followed (I'm mostly just confused) because honestly Setsuko seemed to have recovered pretty quickly all things considered - like within the same chapter she can still talk to Yukino. On the other hand, the constant dripping of angst and drama throughout really weighs you down emotionally, especially because I expected it to end in the last volume but it didn't, though Yukino was better at handling it.
Otherwise, when the story isn't on drama mode, it has some pretty great dialogues, which flow well and feel very real. I feel like the author is more than capable of making an interesting story without resorting to so much drama, idk.
4 - Other characters : I'm surprised (in a good way) at how likeable Mika, considering that she's supposed to be this inacessible famous person, yet she helps Yukino throughout the series as a good friend. In general, there are many other likeable ones, such as Mari, Risa and Oozawo, so it kind of makes Yukino seem like a huge crybaby at times.
Obviously, some characters are pretty awful. Like I don't really get what Shiori's whole deal is ? She just enjoys hurting Yukino for her own amusement, but I feel like that that type of person would be more concerned with advancing their career rather than that type of petty games, idk ? Speaking of which :
5 - Narcissism : I like that we can see the several sides of narcissism (not just the self-absorded + grandiosity kind), since Yukino's self-deprecation and desperate attempts at getting others to like her are a form of narcissism. It's kind of weird though because we don't know much about her childhood pre-idol times, so I don't know if it's well written per se, but I liked how it was exposed. That being said, it was again quite unenjoyable to read through at times. Maybe Yukino is supposed to be unlikeable to some degree ? Not sure. She has experienced a LOT at a young age all things considered, so you also feel like rooting for her when you experience some of what she goes through (being lost after graduation, social isolation, etc.)
Overall though, I think it's one of the more important stories on this site for me, even though I don't like it for many reasons. I wouldn't call it a masterpiece, because honestly I feel like it stands out just because there isn't much like it to compare with. But it comes from a place of sincerity about life and its hardships that is really nice to read. So I'm glad I read it, I liked the ending too, but it was an exhausting read so I would definitely suggest to be wise about the time you read through this.
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