@Galich

Heh, lack of doubt is a sign of a fool I guess.

Indeed it is, or at least lack of curiosity which is a real shame.

True that. Well, people that are not wise but intelligent should know that curiosity and knowledge are positive qualities; it's those whose mental capibilities are not up the pair that don't see as such.

Then again, it's the knowledge itself that makes us feel even more and more dumber.. "I know that I know nothing" indeed.

I don't know about the price in Mexico, but I know that my pay is so pathetic I can barely effort anything D:

Well,about double as expensive as in Germany :P , I'm a freelancer so my pay is, well, it can be very good or small, but at least I do what pleases me! that's pretty priceless

Sounds pretty neat. In here, prices of things are much less smaller than the German ones; it is often that people go from Germany to cross the border for cheapter groceries.

But of course, cheap products result in less money for the people, and less being donated to the state..

I know how this feels, sort of. My father works as a freelancer translator; he keeps saying that he both has a terrible and an awesome boss. One thing is for sure, once you work at home, you never really leave your work.

And what do you work as?

Lucky you I'd say. It's kind of like being a masochist I guess; brings you both great joy and pain, most often than not both at the same time.

Hehehe,well.. it may be cos I'm older but I much prefer to have mostly joy as opposed to pain, emotional pain anyway, but humans are tricky creatures and we kinda enjoy to suffer sometimes like that.

Well, the negative pain is.. negative. But always found it fascinating how some are prone to suffer. It really is fascinating and makes me question which part of the evolution has made us enjoy being tied up and at other's mercy.

We are on the same page on that then Miss!

Then that's settled then ;P

As expected, plus it's goth metal, I highly doubt it's your cup of tea...

Well, feel free to put up the name, I know quite a lot of people that enjoy such music.

I used to like edgy music, but with time I've switched to New Wave.

This city's pretty nice imho. Kind of like pauperised Prague, but I still love it to death. It's probably the only thing keeping me in this country.

And the cheap vodka right?

That too. And it comes with many fruit flavours; I remember sending one crate of booze to my friend for Finalnd (spent roughtly 50 euros on it), only to find out that the Polish Post has manged to break the packaging.. I still cry over how much of a waste that was.

lol but you could pick an apple from a tree... assuming there's trees on this orchard...

It's also much harder to dodge if one is about to hit you right in the face ^ ^

With such trade I'd need not to worry about losing fat so much!!!

Well, being taller means bigger steps, so you burn less energy when walking..

Well... I don't feel comfortable sneaking around on delicate things, for this cases, as I kinda understand from experience I only accept info that comes from the person themselves, if they do get to the point of being comfy telling me, specifically, about those issues. On other matters I do sneak around,but not on this.

I see. It's not that I feel uncomfortable speaking about that, it's just that I don't feel like talking about it right now. Posted the reason for my depression here a few times in the thread, so it really is not a mistery.

Tried to also be quite outspoken about depression, just so some guy/gal will read and try to take care of it. Wishful thinking I guess.

Oh I did want a twin sister growing up, I don't remember why, but then I actually value the fact I'm an only child, I don't think I would had got along well with other person here... I like to have MY own space,MY time..so yeah works out well.

Yup. Imho the main difference is that with age you grow to less and less appreicate that you're on your own in this world, while having siblings; you first hate them, but learn to get along with age.

Then again, I hate most of my family, so maybe it's for the better that I have to know less people that are blood related.

Anxiety is a real betch, I am sure it's because of that , that my former crush stopped talking to me, cos I went all insecure and anxious and weird about things.. can't blame her, but that's something that I'm improving every day and now all things are good and well. We must stay strong ^^

Ouch, sucks to hear that, especially since I lost my previous crush due to the same reason. Anxiety and depression, but it really wasn't her fault to be honest. Managed to become somewhat functional now, but I'm pretty sure that any of my chances for me ending with my crush are dead due to my mental instability ^_^

But yea, we really do have to stay strong ^^

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@Galich
Lol, hey most people wouldn't even know enough to doubt whether they were right or not so, that's good in my book.

Heh, lack of doubt is a sign of a fool I guess.

It does look like a win-win, they should sell books cheaper.. but then again, aren't they cheaper over there? I bought all Game of Thrones books in Germany for half the price I would of had paid in Mexico O_o

I don't know about the price in Mexico, but I know that my pay is so pathetic I can barely effort anything D:

Me? Never!

I'll give you the benefit of doubt.

Excellent, excellent.. xP

Of course, those things are useful at times. I am pretty stubborn myself. So is my crush. You can pretty much start seeing at why I've described our relationship as horribly unstable lol

Yeah well it sounds really,interesting though!! And kinda makes me feel relaxed about having no crush or anything at the moment >_<

Lucky you I'd say. It's kind of like being a masochist I guess; brings you both great joy and pain, most often than not both at the same time.

Hahahah like a moment ago, yeah I'm not good understanding body language hints but plain written ones, mostly I get'em unless it's something weird like what Americans say....

Well, at least you got it ;P Written words are more valuable to me than nonverbal communication.

Krakow!! It's where my favourite band plays! in Crazy castle? or some metal music festival!! fangirling a bit

I wouldn't know, I don't follow our national musical scene ;P

This city's pretty nice imho. Kind of like pauperised Prague, but I still love it to death. It's probably the only thing keeping me in this country.

Well, they say that the field is greener on the other side ;P

The thing here is we don't reach that greener grass T_T

Don't worry, being so tall I wouldn't be able to smell it ;P

My optimal height would be 150 - 160 cm. Short girls are just too nice >_>

Wanna trade my 153 then? :B

Trades without any thinking

Well, sadly, it's more like others preparing them, and I'm just fixing that they look like what the company wants them to look as.
Doesn't really matter that much, I wanna be back at uni ASAP. Wanted originally to become a professor, but there might be some.. factors that will lead to me being unable to become one.
Heh, I am the only child of my parents and instead of friends I had my parents' friends. Made me this much of a bore as I am currently.

Oh a professor..well I think maybe you should look into your.. factors.. I am guessing they gotta do with the fact that you visit your psychiatrist often? Not that you have to say, just wondering, been there done that.
Ahh a fellow only child :P well my friends were stuffed animals and books. So.. I imagine I can get what you are saying.

Well, not much I can do about that factor sadly. And yea, it is pretty much the factor connected to my depression and psychiatrist visits.

It's not a mistery, if you stick around here for sufficent amount of time, you'll get to hear it probably.

Glad to hear me not being the only one then >_> Well, I'm still trying to convince myself that having no siblings is nice. Then again, the attention I was always given from my parents was amazing!

hahahaah a payrise, yeah I'd pay more to someone if I suspected they may or may not turn on me! I wish you and ur crush happiness and less conflict, unless you both like that, cos some people do.. I don't get it, but I don't get most people's things..

Thanks! I don't like arguing myself, but.. okay, I sometimes do, but she doesn't, which is why I try to act a bit less anxious around her.

@Galich

We are? well but, this is somehow cool, it made me feel my IQ raised 20 pts.

Haha, the fact that I had to check it made me feel feel like like my IQ's dropped by 20 instead. Guess I am the overconfident one.

350 pages a day!! Look at that, a decent page count there, in my country people doesn't really read a lot, it irks me to no end...so I am very pleased to talk to other human beings that do enjoy the marvellous world of reading as much as I do.

So am I ^ ^ I am honestly broke due to books all the time. My oldest dilema was: books or cigs. Now I can diverge all of my resources into paying for psychatrist and books, so I guess that's a win-win.

lol but i'm not and I can already tell you aren't so my premise is true.

Me? Never!

It's most useful specially when arguing, not that we will but eh things happen...

Of course, those things are useful at times. I am pretty stubborn myself. So is my crush. You can pretty much start seeing at why I've described our relationship as horribly unstable lol

Well, Prague is a beautiful city. Everything else is kind of meh in my book. Vienna is also really nice.

tilts head I actually like Poland, my favourite band is from there, but the language is harrrrrrrd, I'd be unsure to go with my English and basic German..might be enough though..

Well, fro mwhat I've heard it's a really hard language. And I've heard plenty of it. Like a moment ago. You get the hint.

Well, English would be moer than enough in the bigger cities like Warsaw and Krakow. I live in the latter.

I don't understand tall girls wanting to be shorter, I'd love to be a wee bit taller girl myself, but I'm a magical cat elf of 153 so...

Well, they say that the field is greener on the other side ;P

My optimal height would be 150 - 160 cm. Short girls are just too nice >_>

Turning 20! Damn so much youth, I was based on how you express yourself, but I am used to kiddos not being well read or able to talk coherently so.. that must be it. Ohh, well..but on the bright side you get to prepare exhibitions.. that should have the potential to feed your creative mind right??

Well, sadly, it's more like others preparing them, and I'm just fixing that they look like what the company wants them to look as.

Doesn't really matter that much, I wanna be back at uni ASAP. Wanted originally to become a professor, but there might be some.. factors that will lead to me being unable to become one.

Heh, I am the only child of my parents and instead of friends I had my parents' friends. Made me this much of a bore as I am currently.

Hahaha more dubious sides ,nah, none of that.
Awww lover's quarrels!! How much I don't really miss those... ahahahah sorry but I had to laugh out loud at the idea of a boss, or anyone actually, getting such a text.
Well, I hope eh you get along better with your crush!! Crushes are.. still a mystery to me!

I'll take your word ^ ^

Well, now she'll think I'm crazy. Which I guess I'm pretty okay with. But she's a nice girl.. but at the same time maaaybe I'll get a payrise due to the fact she'll be scared of me..

Cheers! I'll try to be a good girl xP

@Katze

So do I actually. Justifies my shelves full of books and eyesight worse than that of a fish.
We were supposed to have Greek in addition to Latin at high school, but we never got there. Also had a small revision of Latin during my brief stint at uni.
Sadly, never met a girl that would share my keen interest about knowledge in general. Oh well.

Ohh a fellow bookist? How awesome!! I also enjoy to read a lot, my eyesight is not really good either. And you know what they say "Scientia est potentia" I hope I remember that correctly...

The first thing that popped into my mind was "Scientia potentia est", but did a double check; we were both correct :P

Well, I like to think of myself as such. Read quite a lot, dropped out of uni due to depression and now I'm back on track. Good to hold some paperback after almost six months.

Well, many people tell me that if someone is well read, then that's a sell in my eyes. Always liked literature (my mother used to study it at uni and always kept telling me about poets when I was a young gal), but took up it as interest a few years ago. In my prime used to stick to 350 pages per day and still be able to go to school and prepare for exams.

Hah, I guess, but I'd say it works a bit differently in my scenario ;P

Humm, well, they do say smarter people tend to be more melancholic..

I wouldn't know, I'm too dumb to know xP

I am almost sure you wouldn't bother rooting for anything related to me had you known me better xP

Nah, I have strong convictions, I'd still root for you!! That and I'm quite stubborn.

Well, I'll keep that in mind ^^

Eastern Europe.

Ah, stil haven't gone there, must at least once.

Well, Prague is a beautiful city. Everything else is kind of meh in my book. Vienna is also really nice.

Actually, I'm pretty frail, but being 180cm does help ^^ that, and one quirk of mine that makes me much more alcohol resistant than your average girl.
Age wise? Hmm, I'll let you guess. Good luck!

180 holy fuck. Well I am sure it can be an advantage, are you also resistant to poison?

Well, the height is really irritating, wish I'd be much shorter. Then again, it's always tall girls wishing to be shorter and short guys wishing to be taller, hah.

Nah, not really, unless you count really cheap-o booze ^ ^

Hmm you have an office job apparently, office lady image comes to my mind... I'll go for... 23-28

Looks like my powers of deception are slowly working xD Turning 20 in a week. Always been mistaken for being older, at this age it does seem like a bad thing tho already.

Wish I were an OL.. sadly, I am stuck preparing shelves and exhibitions at shops in which an average dress is worth more than double my daily pay.

Also, I suppose that "Galichi" was a stab due to me getting your name wrong? I tend to do that often, just ask Utopia.

On the contrary, you said you like NozoEli, well Nozomi often calls Eli, "Elichi" . So... That's why.

Ah, I see. I did make the connection and I knew it was connected to that, I just thought there were more dubious sides to it ;P

Random side note, after a small quarrel with my crush, I've texted to her "Okay, feeling much better now, don't want to ruin anyone's lives anymore". I sent it to my boss instead. She's looked at me funny today.

Galichi

Lol for using pedophile in your example, I knew that though, I had grecolatin roots in high school but thanks, I looove learning. I do.

So do I actually. Justifies my shelves full of books and eyesight worse than that of a fish.

We were supposed to have Greek in addition to Latin at high school, but we never got there. Also had a small revision of Latin during my brief stint at uni.

Sadly, never met a girl that would share my keen interest about knowledge in general. Oh well.

Trying to be positive is positive itself, so you, are succeeding!!

Hah, I guess, but I'd say it works a bit differently in my scenario ;P

I believe in you!! I know you'll succeed. Caffeine free coffee is an abomination.

I am almost sure you wouldn't bother rooting for anything related to me had you known me better xP

Agreed wholeheartedly on the caffeine free front. It's rubbish. And double the offense for pretending to be one of my favourite things to drink.

Here.. In Europe I assume? ^×^

Eastern Europe.

Omg I'd be on the ground with that much vodka, you must be young to be so strong!!

Actually, I'm pretty frail, but being 180cm does help ^^ that, and one quirk of mine that makes me much more alcohol resistant than your average girl.

Age wise? Hmm, I'll let you guess. Good luck!

Also, I suppose that "Galichi" was a stab due to me getting your name wrong? I tend to do that often, just ask Utopia.

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@ Galich

Well, I guess that there's been upsides to my disappearance then xP

Don't put it like that! ^^ I was trying to make you feel a little more secure around here ;)
And don't be deceived! I constantly ruin those "upsides“ you were talking about to remind the people around of the horror that is: wall posts! XD

Well, looks like we're gonna start posting low-key walls of text here. Let us disconnect from the the outer world by the walls made by us and us only and reach enlightenment.

Got reminded of the Jonestown Massacre. Jim Jones was one nasty piece of work

Well, I missed it. A lot. That's why I'm still here! It's the community after all, nothing less.

Just speak up, little girl, and maybe you will be heard and find someone to talk to! ^^
Well... I guess our group kinda ran out of things to say for a while here...

Wouldn't say so! There's always stuff to talk about, it's just that we have insufficient social skills to convey what we want to say and sometimes feel like changing environment:)

A long process I guess; we shouldn't really look at it at like at a struggle, but rather, as our playground. We're lords of our fates after all.

Nice way to put it. But I always had my beef with playgrounds when I was a kid... too many people there, you know? ^^

Well, one can always take a huge axe and start reducing the population in the playground ^ ^

Actually, that allegory sort of works. And will probably get me jailed. I'll be expecting a cake with a razor inside from all of you xP

I guess that depressed people perceive things a bit differently.. or just put their inner thoughts on their works more efficently.. either way, those two things do go hand in hand ;P

I think that their tendency to think a lot about all kinds of things is the reason they get depressed in the first place. Good for art, when you like spending too much time in your head. But not always good for life ^^

Agreed pretty much. My friend calls it graviting in the air between the skies and the actual world and uses that to describe me. But he goes to a technical school, so it mightve been some hidden insult.

Unless he thinks I'm Jesus. Lol.

Well, kmnowing how her life's ended, I'm not sure it's a very good example to give to severly depressed people ;P Thankfully I'm pretty strong by default ^ ^

You got a real way to turn everything I say around somehow! (＾∇＾)
I was actually referring to her legacy. What people remember about a person after they are gone.
But if you look at things like that then... yeah... not a good example, really sorry about that ^^“

Ah, don't worry about that, I was just making a potshot at that :) it was way too easy xD

But your example was pretty good. She really has left serious legacy.

One would be surprised at how some people that they trusted through the net have misused the information given. It's a sad state of affairs

Never had any experiences like that but that's why we always have to think twice about the things we make public. So you're right, better be careful. But not paranoid. ;)

Cheers for the tip, but I'm one paranoid and anxious girl :)

Well, wouldn't really call it progress. maybe a very solid start and a good middle, but right now at best it's slowly building up the powerbase and at worst eternal stagnation. Either way, I'm fine with being friends.

Stagnation takes two ;) If it would end up like that, you'd just have to make a move forward.
But you are right, there's no need to rush things. Just glad that you're still in touch.

Well, with me telling her I have a crush on her and her not wanting to be with someone she doesn't love (plus living 500km away), I don't see how can I take even more initiative. Maybe at being a better friend ^^

Well, I refuse to give up. Consistency is the key imho, but that doesn't matter. She's probably living the hardest part of her life so far and I will be next to her, to prove at least some moral support.

Got reminded of this.
http://i0.kym-cdn.com/photos/images/newsfeed/000/962/640/658.png

Yup, that's me and my life right there (^_^)b

Everyone's lifes I think ;P

Remember to keep fighting ^ ^ My mother kept repeating to me that one should keep a stiff upper lip even when they';re losing horribly at life.. guess I never listened to much to begin with xP\
I'm rooting for you my Germany friend ^ ^

Thank you! ^^ Yeah, I was never really good at that either :) When life throws a little stone in my direction I usually sit crying in the corner for a while and scream: "Why me?!“ щ(ಥДಥщ)

Sounds like I'm not the only then ^^ although I've stopped crying a few weeks ago. Guess i cried all of my tears on recent sorrows. Looks like I'll be getting blind from my eyes drying completly!

^^ There's nothing better than a little self pity every now and then ;)

Moderation is the key, unless you want to be taken for this one emo kid. Which we all were at one point or another.

But honestly though, I'm good. I really shouldn't complain. There's just one thing I finally need to get over and then life should be okay...

I hope it all goes fine for you ^^

Reminded me of the Kurt Wallander series.... him and his archaic views on the life and the inner monologues regarding how he probably isn't getting used to the new world around is something I dearly identify with.

Sounds interesting. Heard a lot about those books. But never read them. I'm usually not that into crime novels but the way you put it, I'm inclined to give them a try...

My mother says they're a bit overrated, but she's watched all of the movies and read all of the books. I'd call the books really solid and interesting due to Wallander alone, and I've just finished reading all of the books.

Just don't go with other Mannkel's books that don't feature Wallander; read 2 of 3 and they were all bad.

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@Katzen

Early morning going to work message I guess.

Looks like my three years of German at junior high are slowly paying off. Funnily enough, I remmber more from one year of Latin we had at highschool.. and much more from three years of Russian.
Never really made up with German due to the fact our teachers were horribly incompetent. Always been a Russophile.

Ahh so I am a.. germanphile then!! I have to tahnk you for putting a name to this :P

Puts on the learnt woman's glasses

You're welcome :P

The "phile" part is from Greek and just means "one that likes". It's like pedophile, Russophile etc.

That. And looking up obscure phrases with vulgar definitions. I guess that one can vandalise almost anything.

Oh yes, obscure phrases with vulgar definitions really have changed my view on the world, some things you find there.. gasps

Some of the stuff there..it is pretty interest? I guess? I dunno, trying to be positive.

My own smoking sadly. I'm slowly dropping the habit, been smoking way too much recently; well, in here accepting a cigarette when someone's offering it is considering to be polite, and most of my friends do smoke, so it looks like I'm slowly growing a nice new friend in my lungs: cancer.
Guess my lungs have never been made for smoking.
Well, I almost always stick to cheap-yet-effective vodka. Sometimes cyder/beer/advocaat when I'm feeling fancy.

oh that kinda friend you don't wanna grow, cancer I mean, I hope you do quit it, I quit last year..no,before that..but never really smoked, have you tried those fancy vapor things ?? A friend had one yesterday and I tried it, it's cool!! Weird as hell but cool.

Tried vapors but they honestly seem like caffeineless coffee. Just not the same. Props for them for trying to introduce something that may be less toxic.

Well, thats why I'm dropping smoking to begin with. Don't really have an excuse to smoke, which means I really shouldn't.

Vodka ah makes sense with the Russophilia, I like some but usually I don't do hard liquors.

Well, for me vodka is mostly connected for good bang for buck and only that. Its cheap in here.

Advocaat is my go to medium alcohol, around 18% is not that bad for me. I can drink 400ml of 32% vodka, but 4 beers and I'm out completly.

@Galich

@CatOfTheNight?

Cat of the night indeed, hooray! I am oddly pleased when people know what my name means.

Looks like my three years of German at junior high are slowly paying off. Funnily enough, I remmber more from one year of Latin we had at highschool.. and much more from three years of Russian.

Never really made up with German due to the fact our teachers were horribly incompetent. Always been a Russophile.

Oh my English is not exceptional, that is what Urban dictionary is for, random phrases!!

That. And looking up obscure phrases with vulgar definitions. I guess that one can vandalise almost anything.

Oh i have an anti-hang over body, unless it's wine...or sweet drinks ugh, but I normally don't drink those and let me enjoy craft beer. It does sound like a hard core party girl, nicotine poisoning.. from your own smoking or others?? I have this mental image.. either is really scary >.<

My own smoking sadly. I'm slowly dropping the habit, been smoking way too much recently; well, in here accepting a cigarette when someone's offering it is considering to be polite, and most of my friends do smoke, so it looks like I'm slowly growing a nice new friend in my lungs: cancer.

Guess my lungs have never been made for smoking.

Well, I almost always stick to cheap-yet-effective vodka. Sometimes cyder/beer/advocaat when I'm feeling fancy.

I'd ask you the same, but there's so many Love Live works here that you'd never buy into it ;P

I do like your avi tho.

Hahaha, I first got to know Love,Live! thanks to Ooshima Tomo, then I decided NicoxMaki is life, pure glorious life
:P thank you so much

I actually never watched the show itself, but NozoEli is my raison d'etre.

NicoMaki's pretty good as well.

@CatOfTheNight? My German is horribly rusty.

Speaking of booze, I need to get away from here in 8 days; again having birthday (feels like it's been the same day the same year over and over again), and I really don't plan on getting hangover again.. last time I got so drunk the day after I threw up on the bus stop on the way to work. Still, got to work, did my job, everyone was happy. It was so hard.. makes me wonder how some functional alcoholics are able to work and drink hardcore all time. Then again, drinking is a good way of getting rid of the hangover.. it can become a vicious cycle.

Galich

I think they call it "cure of the hair of the dog" have some of the very same thing that got you so bad in the first place.

Didn't hear of this expression before; guess that my English skills are still far from perfect.

Never really tried that method.. well, to be fair, most often than not I usually wake up with horrible hangover, throwing up and suffer from serious nicotine poisoning. The irony's that it makes me sound like a hard partying girl, but it's the result of not partying at all.

I like your eh avatar, may I ask where is it from? ^_^

http://dynasty-scans.com/chapters/when_you_say_no_i_say_eek

I'd ask you the same, but there's so many Love Live works here that you'd never buy into it ;P

I do like your avi tho.

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@ Galich

Sure, been active here's didn;t go out particularly well, but I feel like my countless excuses will justify that :P

Not really directed at me but still: There's no need to justify anything, girl. This place was always meant to be here for fun or just to vent sometimes.
And also, I'm pretty sure that at least 80 % of the people that saw our wall posts just frowned and skipped reading them because it's too much of a hassle anyway ;) So, nothing to worry about. d (^‿^✿)

Well, I guess that there's been upsides to my disappearance then xP

Well, I missed it. A lot. That's why I'm still here! It's the community after all, nothing less.

Neat-o to see you as well Anon! I guess that many things have not changed, surely the form didn't ;P

Still a Zomb ;) Just the ending is a little different ^^

Well, glad to see that.. unless you dislike it yourself. But I can still see you having fun in life :P

Well, me and my life take turns now; either it makes me her bitch, or I make it mine.

Life is struggle. There's no way around it, unfortunately... But never stop trying to conquer that bitch! ;)

A long process I guess; we shouldn't really look at it at like at a struggle, but rather, as our playground. We're lords of our fates after all.

Depression's been quite a blocker from writing anything that would end up on the public 'Net

Sooo many people suffer from depression or have done so in the past, so you're really not alone with this. And luckily, in this day and age, society has become a lot more open about stuff like that.

So I think. Well, been more than a centruy since "melancholy" has become depression. It's kind of even fashionable these days. Kind of funny to see so many "kool kids" trying t o pretend they're suffering from it, but whatever gets them happy I guess.

You just have to become an artist! Artists with a depression are incredibly sexy (◦’ںˉ◦)

Hah, now that's a good one ;P I'm too much of a consumer myself. I guess that depressed people perceive things a bit differently.. or just put their inner thoughts on their works more efficently.. either way, those two things do go hand in hand ;P

Now I got reminded of "The picture of Dorian Gray" and Basil. Poor chap. He never asked to get murdered. I dont mean the awful movies.

Just take Marilyn Monroe for example. That poor girl was a complete wreck. And how do people remember her...? She was a sex symbol, of course, that everyone wanted to sleep with. (p_P)

Well, kmnowing how her life's ended, I'm not sure it's a very good example to give to severly depressed people ;P Thankfully I'm pretty strong by default ^ ^

Cheer up and stay strong! ೕ(•̀ᴗ•́)

Cheers :D

(still, anyone could probably blackmail me just from the stuff I write on the PMs I guess, but it applies to so many parts of our lives.. let's not get paranoid here, shall we?).

Woohhww.... So far I haven't met anyone here who seemed like the blackmailing type. I'm sure you can relax.

One would be surprised at how some people that they trusted through the net have misused the information given. It's a sad state of affairs.

My superfriend's special friend's visit been quite.. productive. She's stayed a bit more than the both of us had expected, which is neat. Will probably end up visiting her sometimes within the next few months..

Cool! So that's still on? She was the girl you mentioned here before, right...? Good to hear it progressed nicely.

Yup, that would be her. Well, wouldn't really call it progress. maybe a very solid start and a good middle, but right now at best it's slowly building up the powerbase and at worst eternal stagnation. Either way, I'm fine with being friends.

Got reminded of this.

http://i0.kym-cdn.com/photos/images/newsfeed/000/962/640/658.png

But that job part sounds quite troublesome... I hope you're looking for a better one on the sideline to be able to strike as soon as you'll find something suitable. A place where you can feel comfortable. That's important.

So I think, but honestly, I am only tihnking of working there 5 more months tops. Then, it's gonna be staying until late night everyday.

How you've been doing lately Anon?

Me? Phew... Well, I'm still the same old loser failing at life here and there. (＾∇＾)
But I'm good, thanks for asking. Nothing to worry about. It's all in my hands ;)

Remember to keep fighting ^ ^ My mother kept repeating to me that one should keep a stiff upper lip even when they';re losing horribly at life.. guess I never listened to much to begin with xP\

I'm rooting for you my Germany friend ^ ^

Can't blame Anon for the association when one's making such casual drops about the fact they're single publicly.. guess I'm a bit too old fashioned for the new times.. maybe I'm just getting too old for this world.

Ohhhh... we're all getting a little too old for this world on the inside (´･(ｪ)･｀)
But do I read that right? Are you saying that you got my back on this...? (๑°o°๑) Neat, comrade! Very neat! But don't worry! That was just two girls from southern countries talking (＾∇＾)They got a different kind of temper! ^^ I grew up like this. So I'm good ;)

Me? Always got your back ;P

Reminded me of the Kult Wallander series.. didn't watch the TV series/movies (start seeing a pattern here?), but finishing the last book just now.. him and his archaic views on the life and the inner monologues regarding how he probably isn't getting used to the new world around is something I dearly identify with.

Galich i don't know you yet, hello there, just thought I'd say hi

@Katze Hello ^ ^

Speaking of booze, I need to get away from here in 8 days; again having birthday (feels like it's been the same day the same year over and over again), and I really don't plan on getting hangover again.. last time I got so drunk the day after I threw up on the bus stop on the way to work. Still, got to work, did my job, everyone was happy. It was so hard.. makes me wonder how some functional alcoholics are able to work and drink hardcore all time. Then again, drinking is a good way of getting rid of the hangover.. it can become a vicious cycle.

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@Older Sis

Galich ^_^ You little sista, you!
We missed you indeed, but for those who truly care there has never been a doubt you are alive and thriving! :)

Good to see all of you as well :)

I am where the community is, not where one or the other subdivision is. Sure, been active here's didn;t go out particularly well, but I feel like my countless excuses will justify that :P

Nice new avi btw ^^

@Anon

Hey! Good to see you again! And in such a familiar way at that... d (｡◕‿◕｡ )

Neat-o to see you as well Anon! I guess that many things have not changed, surely the form didn't ;P

A legend has it that she's still lurking the thread and in spite of not responding instantly, she watches over everyone :)

That sounds rather comforting ^^
How's life been treating you lately?

Glad to hear that :)

Well, me and my life take turns now; either it makes me her bitch, or I make it mine. Depression's been quite a blocker from writing anything that would end up on the public 'Net (still, anyone could probably blackmail me just from the stuff I write on the PMs I guess, but it applies to so many parts of our lives.. let's not get paranoid here, shall we?).

Well, it's basically the old me, now with 100% more horribly unstable lesbian crush relationships and a few weeks worth of wisdom.

My superfriend's special friend's visit been quite.. productive. She's stayed a bit more than the both of us had expected, which is neat. Will probably end up visiting her sometimes within the next few months.. sounds a bit inaccurate, but those are the perks of having a job. And having your co-workers actively try to fire you for actually doing your job. Thankfully I got moved into another shop in which I work alone, so there's nothing that bad. For now at least, since I got moved into that shop just temp.; the gal before me had an accident.. actually, quite a lot of people employed by my company had accidents. Thankfully they're providing insurence, so worst case scenario I might end up with money for a few new books and plenty of time to read them.

How you've been doing lately Anon?

@Utoptia

^
Oh, you're still alive Galich ! It's been so long I started wondering :C
The thread's so lively I even missed the post mentioning Galich, I somehow missed this flood of wall-sized posts.

Well, I guess that I need to oblige everyone that expects a long wall of posts. My name carries certain expectiations regarding the posts' lenght.

Screwed up formating in this post, so I'll take it that it's an omen An omen to post the song I'm listening to currently.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O_1ruZWJigo

Can't blame Anon for the association when one's making such casual drops about the fact they're single publicly.. guess I'm a bit too old fashioned for the new times.. maybe I'm just getting too old for this world.

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Uhhh... Galich. No wonder I didn't know then. How is she doing?

A legend has it that she's still lurking the thread and in spite of not responding instantly, she watches over everyone :)

@Anon

I shortened the quote to save some space but your mom really sounds awesome! (^_^)b
I can watch a lot of stuff with my mom as well but unfortunately she's not that obsessed with anything. Especially not horror movies... Sounds impressive!

One person's curse is another's blessing xD Last film I've watched with her was A Serbian Film.. says a lot about how brutal most movies are being played in here^^

A few months ago I've managed to go with her to an author meeting with a writer. That is the type of obsession I can get behind^^

If the GiTS film is any good, then I know what I'll be watching with her next.

here we just misspell English names if someone wants to be a chav. Highlights include Rayyan, Kewin, Brajan

Rayyan and Brajan! (＾∇＾) That's hilarious! Now I want twin boys!!! Need two kids to name them... quick!!! ^^

Honestly, there's even more amusing examples..one guy was named after the Polish name for a rye soup (oO). I also know a guy that had his name already conjugated by cases (so a rough example would be something like id his name was "Ryan's", or if you used akk or dativ in German)

In all seriousness tho., I hope you'll find calmness in your life^^

That would require a lot of work... and I have absolutely no idea where I could find the motivation to do all that... O_o

Well, it's always other people that provide the motor for us to change for the better. Be it family, a friend or even an animal.

Or sometimes we do that simply accidently, not even knowing that the decision we're making can influence our lives..chain of events is an interesting thing to think about.

Then again, living in chaos is fun at times^^

I've decided to get rid of the stuff from sweeping the floor by sweeping it to the social room (it's not something I have to clean..) and outside the doors of the shop. Hey, I'm only taking care of the shop, nothing more v:

^^ That's amusing indeed. If they have some security cameras in that shop I could imagine the people checking the footage will have a great time checking up on you ;)

Funnily enough, I did make sure that there's no camera around xD

Just for the record, I am not trying to half ass my job. For the past week I've been getting here 30 minutes to an hour early, just to make sure I do everything neatly. Sometimes I have too much spare time and I check the forums in the waiting for the staff to arrive..like right now.

you've reminded me of one British YouTube comedian and tech nerd Ashens. He reviews those horrible knockoff consoles. It's really amusing actually^^

Gotta watch some of his stuff.... but that actually reminded me of this guy:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lzt_uoTVAcE
The Angry Video Game Nerd!
He's hilarious! If I weren't that gay I would marry a guy like him! ^^
I didn't have the time to look for his best videos but if you're ever bored: go and watch some of his clips...

Ah, I know AVGN well^^ Enjoying his videos quite a lot, although the crude humour often offputs me.

I also like Nostalgia Critic quite a lot. The old one, newer episodes are kind of meh.

If it sounds professional, then try to imagine how our admin channel looks like ;P

To tell you the truth: I don't even know what an admin channel is ^^“

Basically, just a small group chat between the admins^^

Nah, don't worry about it. It's just that back then I was feeling really down and was unable to write anything meaningful, instead sticking to shitposting just to lay off some steam.

Yeah... knowing the things I know now, I probably wouldn't have said anything.
Back then I was just thinking about the bigger picture. And knowing there are a lot of shy people out there I felt like that contest like posting style would make it impossible for any of those to join.
Never meant any harm.

Don't worry about it^^ It did make me feel upset a bit, but as I said, I got over it by now^^ One cannot count for the uncountable, and Im pretty sure I wasn't so open about it back then.

If you feel like talking about it write me an email: (that's really all I have, I'm sorry! I'm not hip! I'm retro!)

I love your email address^^ Will do that once I'll have the time to, don't be worried about it^^

Also, I think we already agreed that being retro is a good thing!

Trust me, I wouldn't be writing to you to this extent if I were angry at you.

Glad to hear that^^

One nice thing is that I have my doctor's appointment on the 6th, so I'm almost there^^

Just one more week to go! I just hope that it'll be a good doctor actually trying to help and not just one of those pricks only after money that send you right back home with a pill prescription...

So do I..then again, the psychiatrist I'll be seeing will have to both work my depression and the medical checks and all..looks like he's in for a ride^^

And now's a minute of silence due to the sudden passing away of Hubert. Just like his predecessor, Hubert, he was loud, clunky and died a sudden death.

Here's a song in commence to the memory of his existance ;_;
https://youtu.be/OlKaVFqxERk

@Anon

Hoover and I.. we were both good pals, but.. he didn't make it.. bastards of cottom left-overs got 'in back in '16...life's never been the same since then..

(^_^)b And I thought you didn't watch any movies ^^

Me? Never! Must be a leftover from my previous life!

Okay, but in all seriousness tho. My mother loves three things the most in life: cats, books and films. She's wanted to discourage me from reading because it's "ungrateful" as a hobby; the cats part got partly inherited and partly I just grew into liking the bastards. The movies however..it's the exact opposite of books. She watches a buttload of movies, around 2 a day on average oO (which boils down to 3 days of working and thr rest with lots of movies). Her favourites are horror movies; often the modern ones. Honestly, it's kind of amusing to see people enter my home, with them hearing sounds from brutal slashers (curses, stabbing, screaming..) coming from the living room, only to open the door and see a woman in her late 40s watching such stuff.

That poor thing T_T. When I have a kid, I'll name them a hoover. Regardless of gender.

There are some kids with really weird names out there so it could be much worse than Hoover I'm sure ;)
Some recent examples here in Germany are: Fanta or Pepsi-Carola, Milka and Popo... the last one means butt in German... O_O Those people must love their kids...

In here we just misspell English names if someone wants to be a chav. Highlights include Rayyan, Kewin, Brajan. It honestly just burns eyes of everyone that's finished more than kindergarten.

My boss has said that they have one per shop with a few back-ups, 2 to 3 in other shops.. well, maybe I'll have others coming over with their vacuum cleaners after they're done.. but not sure if I'd make it then.

One thing is for sure: You ought to treat them better! ;)

I..honestly will. Those poor things deserve a better life..just like I deserve a better vacuum cleaner.

Now I know what I want for Christmas!
Or maybe just perfumes.

Maybe you should take up meditation and find the inner Anon in you..

I don't think I'm calm enough for that anymore... Maybe at some later time...

That would give even bigger benefits^^
In all seriousness tho., I hope you'll find calmness in your life^^

Trust me, you don't want to know the inner Galich ;P

Why not? Might be interesting. Everyone's a little messed up on the inside... Most people just try to hide it.

I don't think it would work. I've been shaped too much by life, honestly forgot how I was before.

Plus, coming to your inner self in such case is coming back to your past. Not sure I'd want that.

Personally, one trait I display when I;'m on my own is a healthy dose of pragmatism. Often to very amusing levels.

How would that look like exactly...? ^^

Well, I'll come back at you with an interesting example once I remember it. A boring one I can bring up from yesterday; with another vacuum cleaner not working, I've decided to get rid of the stuff from sweeping the floor by sweeping it to the social room (it's not something I have to clean..) and outside the doors of the shop. Hey, I'm only taking care of the shop, nothing more v:

Personally, I'm the type of sociable person that needs to be 70% with people, and desperately needs 30% on her own.

For me it's more like 10 % to 90 % (^_^)b

Nothing bad with it either^^ you have to charge your energy somewhere^^

What's the most exotic console you own?^^

Nothing exotic at all... Only the standard stuff so quite boring to be honest. The oldest one is an Atari 2600.

Still horribly jealous >_> you've reminded me of one British YouTube comedian and tech nerd Ashens. He reviews those horrible knockoff consoles. It's really amusing actually^^

Actually, you've reminded me of when I went to a tech bazaar a few weeks ago.. they were still selling single core CPUs and laptops from early 2000s.. I honestly felt like at home^^

I can relate. I most often feel much more comfortable with the old stuff than all of that new and modern crap... Don't know why but that's just how it is... maybe I'm really getting old... o_O

Looks like we're both growing too old for this world ;P I swear, it's the world moving to fast, not us moving to slowly!

It's really depressive.. but then you remember all the cool stuff you get with ages! Wrinkles, responsibilities, sorrows! Oh wait..

◟(◔ั₀◔ั )◞ ༘♡

Nice!

Tried to be positive^^

Actually, they have three mods in the store, with a certain Galich being the main mod there.. some call mod abuse, I say when it's Galich, it's not mod abuse ;P

So you could ban me there any minute? (☉__☉”) Scary!
Who are the other "judges“?

Nez and Rina. If it sounds professional, then try to imagine how our admin channel looks like ;P

I kind of want to play through all games from GTA 3 to VCS on PS2

Sounds like a great idea! I did the exact same thing two years ago! Still loved it!

So great minds think alike xD Really excited for the entire journey, especially the music^^

That sounds really empathetic^^ It does show you have a good heart^^ That's a very noble fear to have!

There's nothing noble about it! ^^ Don't try to make me look like a good person all the time ;)
I'm just a crybaby that can't handle goodbyes very well. That's all!

My point still stands ;P. Just you wait with the last part of this message and I'll balance out the opinion xD

Random question, do you still dislike my quality of posts?^^

Just admit it! You still hold a grudge against me, I can feel it! ^^
I never really complained about the quality of your posts... just that little contest thing back then... But thinking back I probably shouldn't have said anything... I can be a prick sometimes as well, I know that. And I'm sorry. Just want you to know that you don't need my approval or anything. I always enjoyed talking to you if you wanna know the truth. So please just be yourself. It's about the fun if nothing else.

Nah, don't worry about it. It's just that back then I was feeling really down and was unable to write anything meaningful, instead sticking to shitposting just to lay off some steam. To be honest, that one message made me much more upset than youd think.. got over that entire gizmo already, but I was upset about the entire situation.. It is a long story, and certainly not one meant for here.

Just kept wondering if you're still angry at me.. I like posting to you and like you as a person, but I keep getting a feeling that somehow I'm doing sth wrong^^

One nice thing is that I have my doctor's appointment on the 6th, so I'm almost there^^ works especially better since I'm slowly regressing mentally back to me from a few months ago.

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@Anon

@ Galich

Random side note, I had a second vacuum cleaner die on me in the past 3 days at work =_= I got attached to this one, even gave 'im a name, Hoover (so clever, I know..)

Galich and Hoover! The new dream team! ^^b

Hoover and I.. we were both good pals, but.. he didn't make it.. bastards of cottom left-overs got 'in back in '16...life's never been the same since then..

That poor thing T_T. When I have a kid, I'll name them a hoover. Regardless of gender.

Okay, I won't. Two women can't have babies. IPS technology, I'm waiting for you.

How did you manage to wreck that thing? Who was it you wanted to get rid of so badly...? ;)

The usual.. friends, family..

Oh, I mean cottom! Totally cottom!

They actually ran out of the back-ups, looks like I'll be stuck sweeping the floor for while..

Just your kind of luck...

My boss has said that they have one per shop with a few back-ups, 2 to 3 in other shops.. well, maybe I'll have others coming over with their vacuum cleaners after they're done.. but not sure if I'd make it then.

Sounds really cheerful^^

Oh, it was! I was the happiest person on this planet back then! So zen.... so whole... Wonder where that all went... O_O

Maybe you should take up meditation and find the inner Anon in you.. Trust me, you don't want to know the inner Galich ;P

Makes me wish I were less uptightd.. not saying it kills the joy out of your life, but it certainly does make things less spicy.

I am too when I'm with other people and they expect me do to things I don't like. But I am just so fucking good on my own ^^ That makes life so much better. I know that for a fact because I know many people who just can't be alone and they always need others to have fun.
But I'm a one (wo)man show! ^^

That does sound good^^ Yea, agreed on the part of some needing others to have fun.. Personally, one trait I display when I;'m on my own is a healthy dose of pragmatism. Often to very amusing levels.

Personally, I'm the type of sociable person that needs to be 70% with people, and desperately needs 30% on her own. Like seriously, I'd blow up if I didn't have a few moments for being on my own..

Wow, I am really jealous D: That is really impressive!

You can get the old consoles quite cheap sometimes. So it's not really that big a deal. But I need a bigger place. It's all just stashed in boxes here. I want my nerd room already! ^^

What's the most exotic console you own?^^ Actually, you've reminded me of when I went to a tech bazaar a few weeks ago.. they were still selling single core CPUs and laptops from early 2000s.. I honestly felt like at home^^

Sadly, I have the same thing with being unable to play anything these days ... Maybe I'm just growing old..

I get that feeling sometimes as well... (ó﹏ò｡)

It's really depressive.. but then you remember all the cool stuff you get with ages! Wrinkles, responsibilities, sorrows! Oh wait..

Oo. Don't ask me, it's still beyond me, according to everyone I'm too innocent to know..

Oh... are they picking on you..? O_O
Never trust perverted people! ;) Now that they don't have any mods to fear anymore they will come at you at full force... (๑°o°๑)

Actually, they have three mods in the store, with a certain Galich being the main mod there.. some call mod abuse, I say when it's Galich, it's not mod abuse ;P

Speaking of which, tried to emulate PS2 games today, first time in like 5 years. Sadly, I still cannot get stable 60 FPS on Vice City Stories.. I am seriously considering grabbing a PS2 to HDMI converter.

You could also play Vice City Stories on your PSP.

Well, true, but one: there's this one bloody stupid missio nwith the chopper in which you have to pick up the cars moving, and 2. I kind of want to play through all games from GTA 3 to VCS on PS2. Only played through the stories game on PS2.

Actually, never passed VCS on PSP, and never passed LCS on PS2.

Aaaaw, thank you^^ Being forgotten is actually one of my greatest fears.. it's pretty weird (and shows how egocentric I am lol).

My greatest fear is losing the people I love.

That sounds really empathetic^^ It does show you have a good heart^^ That's a very noble fear to have!

Also really having a lot of fun here^^

That's reassuring to hear! Thought that maybe we'd lose you to Discord... T_T

Hey, I'm not the one to ignore this thread in favour of Discord Cough Rina, Gengar.

I'm the one still posting a lot ;P

Random question, do you still dislike my quality of posts?^^

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@Anon

Good to hear! Then she might actually be as nice as you said she was (^_^)b

Well, things leave the possibility that it might be the case. Had to call her early at day yet again today, and she was still really friendly. Still, I am not saying anything until I get my paycheck.

Random side note, I had a second vacuum cleaner die on me in the past 3 days at work =_= I got attached to this one, even gave 'im a name, Hoover (so clever, I know..) They actually ran out of the back-ups, looks like I'll be stuck sweeping the floor for while..

Was it the satisfaction from ending a certain phase in life, the feeling of freedom or maturity?

More like the feeling of being able to do what ever the hell I wanted to ^^
No pressure at all. Everything was still possible and I was still full of hopes and dreams...
That was neat!

Sounds really cheerful^^ Makes me wish I were less uptightd.. not saying it kills the joy out of your life, but it certainly does make things less spicy.

There's a similar thing with friendships; you get attached to your pals from work etc. when all of you are going through a hard (if not painful) moment in your lives, that's why so many soldiers end up integrating very well into their groups.

That's a trust thing, I believe. When you see that you can trust these people even when shit hits the fan that just deepens the bond...

Partly, yea. But living through pain together really does tie the bonds. This is why the trope of Drill Sargeant Nasty is in place (or rather, was, you can thank Full Metal Panic Jacket for it being dead). It was also helping to find common ground among soldiers; they were focused on one objective, hating the son of the bitch that was making them train hard.

Wish I had any of older ones.. only got my PS2 and PSP. How big is your collection?^^

More than 20 consoles... And several hundreds of games.
But I gotta admit that I haven't played them all. I hardly play any games nowadays... But I still wanna keep them ^^ I wanna be the first granny with a huge retro game collection! ٩(｡•ω•｡)و
;)

Wow, I am really jealous D: That is really impressive! Also, I fully rally behind your cause!

Sadly, I have the same thing with being unable to play anything these days (occasional modern titles notwithstanding..). Maybe I'm just growing old..

Sounds really nice actually^^ I remember the old video recorders.. one of my memories associated with them was inserting a sandwich where the video tapes would go

You wanted to make a toast...? ^^

I.. don't remember, but probably. Heard quite a few people did the same thing Oo. The size of the place where you insert the casette is just perfect for a sandwich (okay, that is not something I expected to say today..)

I just hope that Rina won't appear and say it's a sexual innuedo, didn't mention any pancakes or hot chocolate Oo. Don't ask me, it's still beyond me, according to everyone I'm too innocent to know..

Speaking of which, tried to emulate PS2 games today, first time in like 5 years. Sadly, I still cannot get stable 60 FPS on Vice City Stories.. I am seriously considering grabbing a PS2 to HDMI converter.

So you had anime on the TV? I'm jealous!

Yep! Stuff like Cowboy Bebop, GitS, NGE, Escaflowne, Record of Lodoss War, Noir and all sorts of things... and the shows they played in the afternoon like One Piece, Naruto, Dragon Ball, Pokemon and such...

I'm seriously jealous of that >_> I don't beleive we had any, although you might want to ask Nevri about that. Then again, all of the cool stuff was on the antennas TV, not normal "wired" TV set-ups.

Aw, don't say that! Teachers can forget a lot of things! I know for a fact I won't be fogetting you nor your replies anytime soon ^.^

Thank you! I won't forget about any of you any time soon either! (`･ω･´)
Just had too much fun here... (ˆ⌣ˆ)

Aaaaw, thank you^^ Being forgotten is actually one of my greatest fears.. it's pretty weird (and shows how egocentric I am lol).

Also really having a lot of fun here^^

Nothing wrong with being a loner as well!

Right? ^^ Makes me feel kinda independent sometimes ;)

That's the spirit! Smash the state! Work against the government!

Sorry, got a bit carried away. Cough Right, where was I? Oh, being independent. Well, it's really nice, especially when people around you can respect your autonomy. A loner can do wonder when they're left with enough space to operate and an initiative.

Well, I kind of screwed up there, by "personally knowing" chatting 1 v 1. And it's a certain Bulgarian ;)

That was my first guess! But I didn't wanna write anything stupid ^^

That's a good guess then^^ Don't worry about it^^

Not a movie but in case you like video game soundtracks this might also be to your liking:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tyG6YMLEWus
Deus Ex – Human Revolution

You have my full approval here^^

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Minutoh posted:

I also have a technical issue too: why is the music not playing for me? I left the tab open for an hour before I read it, but... nothing. I did notice that the music was rather quiet, so I ramped up my volume, but... nothing. Does anyone know how to fix this issue? Always Human has such great music, and I'd hate to miss out on it just because of some random bug.

Only time when I had issue with music was when I didn't have flash installed. I doubt that is why it doesn't work for you, but might be worth checking out.

I have issues playing music on my Chrome; installed Firefox and everything works fine and dandy.

Actually, asked around a few friends that use Chrome to check if it's working for them. It wasn't for all of them.

@Anon

^ That sounds troublesome... Sorry!
But you're still new, they should cut you some slack... all the more if it was your boss telling you to do it.

Well, turns out thta my boss has my back on this one, which is really neat^^ Actually, had to call her today at 6 o'clock in the morning and woke her up.. surprised she was still so calm and friendly.

I still harbor great nostalgia for those times, I do think that my greatest moments in life and most stories come from that period, even thoI was still a small girl.

Best time of my life was after I graduated from school and before I entered college.

Still miss that a lot....

Was it the satisfaction from ending a certain phase in life, the feeling of freedom or maturity?

Funny how we never really know that we're living the golden times of our live, which sometimes were much harder than we recall. Well, I suppose that memories with much more intense emotions are harder to forget.

There's a similar thing with friendships; you get attached to your pals from work etc. when all of you are going through a hard (if not painful) moment in your lives, that's why so many soldiers end up integrating very well into their groups.

Well, there's still the present^^ You never know, a great period might away you a corner away (wow, this sounds like some cards foretelling nonsense..)

What can I say, I really like old tech. Got a lot of casette players in my room and a radio from the interwar period.. it is surrounded by books printed around the same time.

That sounds rather cool!
I like old video game consoles!

That's really cool! Wish I had any of older ones.. only got my PS2 and PSP. How big is your collection?^^

Do you have any objects that you associate with your "golden times" Anon?

That would probably be my PlayStation 2 and a video recorder – that last one was outdated even back then but I still loved it! I recorded a lot of anime and music and watched it again and again whenever I felt like it ^^ Loved that time. I lived in my own little bubble back then.

Sounds really nice actually^^ I remember the old video recorders.. one of my memories associated with them was inserting a sandwich where the video tapes would go.. I was really young back then.

So you had anime on the TV? I'm jealous!

Any specific reasons for that?

After that whole dog thing I just didn't care anymore and slept whenever I felt like it... ^^“

Well, there's little of bad that doesn't have some positive effects I suppose.

You can always borrow me some of your sleep if you have too much of it, I'll be glad to accept ;)

Well, it means you're popular^^ there's no such thing as bad publicity!

You are totally wrong about that ^^ I don't know why but a lot of people immediately forget about me as soon as I step outside of the picture ;) I went to the same school for years and during the last year one of the teachers asked me: "You're new here, right?“ ^^ Not unusual for me ;)

Aw, don't say that! Teachers can forget a lot of things! I know for a fact I won't be fogetting you nor your replies anytime soon ^.^

Trying to achieve a similar attitude.. I get a bit too cynical at times tho xD

Don't worry about that! ^^ You need to be cynical to be able to handle life sometimes... Not a bad trait at all.

Kind of agreed about it. In my opinion, cynism is the ultimate weapon against the nonsense that is giving us life. Still, I do like your blend of cynism and idealism^^

You can get really frustrated with giving more just to receive less ... makes me wonder if maybe it's my perception that makes other appear less invested. Told this thing to a close friend of mine. She said she can understand me but cannot do anything about it. I really dont know.
Do share your point of view if you're feeling okay with it!

Oh, I fear you are asking the wrong person here... ( ⚆ _ ⚆ )
I can't say whether it's just your own perception or if that's really how it is...
But I am a totally selfish human being... I don't like spending time with other people when I don't really enjoy being with them. I just like being alone too much... So if they just make you feel frustrated all the time, I'd be out... But please don't take me as an example!

I wouldn't call it being selfish tho! It's a healthy reaction; once you hit the point of hanging out with people you don't enjoy talking to, it turns into a masochism tango best case scenario, and an abusive relationship in the worst.

Nothing wrong with being a loner as well!

Also, had a very nice moment of getting to know someone personally only to find out they're as nice in person as they first appeared^^

Who? Who is it??? ^^

Well, I kind of screwed up there, by "personally knowing" chatting 1 v 1. And it's a certain Bulgarian ;)

Random side note, in the shops I'm having shifts (Pull&Bear and Zara) they keep playing those very light modern pop/hip hop songs.. it's driving me crazy! Worst thing, they are catchy as hell! Now I cannot get many songs out of my head, the instance being Death Team - Gold.

^ Why? What did you do?
Did you set the whole place on fire and said the voices in your head, one of them being your boss', told you too...? O_O

Already did that. Well, I was given a specific instruction on my competences by my boss; as in, what do I have to do, and what is not mandatory. The shop's owner (technically I'm working for a company that supports clothes shops) disagreed on the width of my competences. In short, a quarrel's sprung from it. If my boss is honorable, she'll bite the bullet and admit she was the one to tell me that I didn't have to do x. And if she's not, then she'll tell others' that it was my incompetence. Only the time will tell.

Looks like someone might lose their job; either me or my boss.

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@Anon

Sorry for the delay, got a visitor over...

Dont worry, figured that you had something important to do^^

Hope you at least had fun with your visitor!

Hey, I'm not disagreeing! For the record, I still have a (very usable) palmtop from the late 90s, got experience with typewriters, faxes and wish I'd ever get the occasion to use a pager!

I never had a pager either! ^^
Still, I like the nostalgic sound of that! Those were the days... When you wrote your homework with a typewriter and the whole house knew exactly what you were doing (^_-)v

Never had one at home, but back when my father used to work in the administration as an official I used to come to his office to come and play with the typewritter.. it was his friend that's taught me how to use those things. I still harbor great nostalgia for those times, I do think that my greatest moments in life and most stories come from that period, even thoI was still a small girl.

What can I say, I really like old tech. Got a lot of casette players in my room and a radio from the interwar period.. it is surrounded by books printed around the same time.

Do you have any objects that you associate with your "golden times" Anon?

Well.. accidently it comes off this way! Falling asleep 8 hours before my alarm is set, usually waking up after 2 hours, then getting 1 hour of sleep tops. It's a mess.

So your sleeping schedule is just as messy as ever... Sorry to hear that.
Maybe with some time that will change as well, now that you have a job.
That's the only thing that improved on my end lately... Feels kinda good to not be tired all day, every day...

Funnily enough slept well tonight, if not a bit too short. It's like the earlier I go to sleep, the earlier I wake up prematurely. 11 o'clock is my safety zone of a high chance I will wake up as I wanted to.

And well, with the new sleeping schedule I can sleep more, which is really nice.

Glad to hear your sleeping is better! Any specific reasons for that?

turns out it was my friend that's wanted to know if I could go downtown today to lend her a hammer (o.O)

(^_^)
I don't own a full tool set either but a hammer is pretty basic... maybe you should get her one for Christmas ^^ With a nice red ribbon and all ;)

Hahaha! Gotta say, I was considering it as well xD I guess that twisted minds think alike xP

Gotta say, I felt really weird today travelling through all of the town with a hammer in my bag to give to my friend D:

At least it wasn't a chainsaw ( ⚆ _ ⚆ )
But this actually reminds me of something...
In my last year of college my best friend managed to break his bicycle lock. So his bike was standing in front of the school and he couldn't move it anymore. I told him that I had a bolt cutter at home that we could use for the lock. Those things are HUGE! So the next day I walked to school with a bolt cutter, carrying it around all day and at the end of the lessons I threw that thing on the table in Spanish class and said: "Time to go to work!“

I can imagine others thinking "yea, they are totally going to steal our bikes when we won't be looking!" xD

I can imagine that thing being really heavy tho!

( ˆ▿ˆ)
We got a lot of weird looks that day ^^

Well, it means you're popular^^ there's no such thing as bad publicity!

I got moved into another mall, which is much much closer nearby, and I need to be there an hour later than I would've been in the previous one! Plus, I still get to keep my boss!

There's nothing better than a workplace nearby!
It's horrible if you have to waste a lot of time every day commuting...

Yup, really happy about that! Arrived to early out of habit (writing this message in rain waiting for my boss to arrive, I was 40 minutes early the moment I arrived), but after a few tries I'll get a feeling for those ominous busses!

Anon and being miserable? Cannot imagine it, not even at your worst^^

Yeah, that's me! Always in a good mood! Taking serious things totally seriously all the time while still staying positive!

That is totally you! I like your style! A great comrade to philosophy and then share your happiness delivered from minor things!

Trying to achieve a similar attitude.. I get a bit too cynical at times tho xD

Just like here:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8C17yfGyJjM
^^
(I love Amanda Palmer! Does anyone else here actually listen to her stuff...? I wonder...)

Once I'll come back home I'll check this link^^

my city today had the air polution norms exciteed by 300%.. the air in here was literally green/yellow, and everything was so blurry.. people running in masks..

… not sure if I could live in a city like that... that just screams lung cancer. I already feel uncomfortable when I have to walk by the main street during rush hour...

Sadly, you get used to it. But on a positive note, rain came in and literally kicked the air polution out of the city! It really is the best thing ever, or atleast one of them.

Looking at my posts, I sounded like I was angry at you or something. Sorry if you perceived as such, it was never my intention^^

After my little freak out a while back I'm willing to cut you some slack on whatever you do ;)
Nah, you've got nothing to worry about in that regard. It's just, like I said, sometimes quite hard to guess if someone is trying to drop you a hint or something or just joking when you can't actually see their face.

I get ya. It's the same thing with internet sarcasm as well. Still, happy to hear we're in good relations^^

Okay, that was a bit too cynical. Sorry^^

Not cynical at all. I think that's totally okay.
I just like to take my time to get over things that's all. I'm pretty slow when it comes to that. I run away from a lot of things but I don't like to run away from my emotions ^^

That is honesty with self. Really liking it as a personality trait, since it makes one self aware and much more perceptive.

had a very interesting conversation today. One of those that make you go "hmm, so maybe this quirk of mine is much more normal than I thought?"

Now I'm curious. What's that quirk of yours?

Basically keeping my self consciousness in my mind as a separate and autonomic thing that often disagrees with "this" me. Sounds a bit crazy. In short, got a confirmation from another person it's not that uncommon.

Also, made a decision and changed my attitude to others; gonna only give them as much affection as they give me, nothing more.

That actually sounds quite healthy if you ask me. I can back that up.

So I think.. You can get really frustrated with giving more just to receive less (wow, it sounds like an ad here xD). But makes me wonder if maybe it's my perception that makes other appear less invested. Told this thing to a close friend of mine. She said she can understand me but cannot do anything about it. I really dont know.

Do share your point of view if you're feeling okay with it!

Also, had a very nice moment of getting to know someone personally only to find out they're as nice in person as they first appeared^^

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@Anon

If I were that bothered with it I would've probably sent you an e-mail ;P

Are you trying to say I'm old-fashioned here...? O_O
;)
Email is totally hip! ^^

Hey, I'm not disagreeing! For the record, I still have a (very usable) palmtop from the late 90s, got experience with typewriters, faxes and wish I'd ever get the occasion to use a pager!

Right now in my work I have to go for 3 hours every day of the week at 6 in the morning, so looks like there won't be any all-nighters for me for a loooong time.

That's why work sucks! （；^ω^）
… or you could just stay up all night and sleep after work... (๑°o°๑)

Well.. accidently it comes off this way! Falling asleep 8 hours before my alarm is set, usually waking up after 2 hours, then getting 1 hour of sleep tops. It's a mess.

Speaking of which, had a bit of a random thing happened to me last night. Just finished writing to a friend, closed my eyes and feel asleep for less than 20 minutes.. then I suddenly get woken up by a phone call. At 22:00. I pick up the phone.. turns out it was my friend that's wanted to know if I could go downtown today to lend her a hammer (o.O)

Not something I expect to get woken up by. Gotta say, I felt really weird today travelling through all of the town with a hammer in my bag to give to my friend D:

Not signing the offer for any selected amount of time, which is nice.

... doesn't that just mean that they can fire you at any time...? don't see how that's good... unless you plan on backing away yourself if things don't work out as planned.

As Nevri said. Plus, I really really don't want to be tied down time wise.

Positive things tho.! I got moved into another mall, which is much much closer nearby, and I need to be there an hour later than I would've been in the previous one! Plus, I still get to keep my boss!

To be honest, I dunno what I'd have been doing had I been born in a much smaller one..

You'd just be bored and miserable, like the rest of us village folks ;)
Just kidding. I live in a small city but luckily not a village ^^

Anon and being miserable? Cannot imagine it, not even at your worst^^

To be fair it's much more common for the city folk to suffer from anxiety and depression.. speaking of which, my city today had the air polution norms exciteed by 300%.. the air in here was literally green/yellow, and everything was so blurry.. people running in masks.. makes me question why I dropped smoking to live in such a poluted (but great, and I honestly do love it with all of my heart) city.

It was just such a sharp contrast with you from a few months ago..

Wow... didn't realize that at all... (ಠ.ಠ)

The mkore emojis the better our Anon is^^

Looking at my posts, I sounded like I was angry at you or something. Sorry if you perceived as such, it was never my intention^^

I know that this may sound a bit harsh, but did you consider getting another animal, just to keep yourself distracted? Sorry if what I said was insensitive.

No, that's okay. Of course I've thought about it. I love dogs after all...
But at this early stage it would just feel like replacing her... and I really don't like the thought of that...

Okay, harsh mode on.

Not gonna lie, it would be kind of replacing something with another thing. But in all honesty, I'd call it more of a distraction of thoughts more than anything else.

I mean, I'd be fine with someone replacing me after death, just so my loved ones (if I had any) wouldn't feel nearly as bad about me passing away.

Okay, that was a bit too cynical. Sorry^^

On a much more positive note had a very interesting conversation today. One of those that make you go "hmm, so maybe this quirk of mine is much more normal than I thought?"

Also, made a decision and changed my attitude to others; gonna only give them as much affection as they give me, nothing more. I honestly feel too fed up with investing too much into relationships with others to try to act like positive-saviour-of-relationships. Giving as much as I receive.

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@ Sis

@Sis you be the one to send the first email, Im too embarassed xD

I'm sorry... I've just messaged you but it was too late apparently... you were brave and send it ^_^

Then again, surprise surprise, I will be able to confirm it! Actually got employed. The job isn't as good as some of the previous ones I was offered, but it has a very nice boss. I'm willing to live with this.

Congrats, sis :)
I'm proud of you!! it was high time ^_^... but is this one of the hotel receptionist job offers?

Don't worry about it! Already replied to the mail^^ As I wrote in teh mail, got a lesson in courage xD

Thanks! Nope, a different job.. basically, it's preparing exhibitions before the mall opens.. which is actually a better paid job and doesn't require that much dedication from me^^

last edited at Nov 23, 2016 2:07PM

Okay, the name following the Moscow women one create.. a unique experience.

@Anon

We want our closet to be open and transparent.. unless secretive and closed suit us better wink wink

… something tells me that's more than just a joke...?

Sometimes it's hard to tell if someone is just kidding or not when you can't see their face, so maybe this is totally unnecessary but just in case: if you don't want me to, I won't bring it up again. Just let me know.

Nah, don't worry abou it^^ If I were that bothered with it I would've probably sent you an e-mail ;P

Nice to hear that someone gets along with their family.. guess not all of them are this disfunctional xD

We can get along but we are far from being perfect, believe me. ^^

Ain't all of us.. still, it's the most important that all of you get along ;)

Well, one small solution to it is waking up earlier.. for me it makes the day feel a bit longer.

Staying up all night and hardly sleeping is more effective ;)
The only problem with that is: you can't do that for long...

Yea, that too. Right now in my work I have to go for 3 hours every day of the week at 6 in the morning, so looks like there won't be any all-nighters for me for a loooong time.

Yea, really happy with that so far. She seems to be really reasonable and nice. Sure, she's not in charge of the entire business, but I'm responding to her directly.

I really hope you'll be happy with that job! Keep my fingers crossed for you.
When do you start?

Thanks^^ Had my first day today, tomorrow starting as normal. Not signing the offer for any selected amount of time, which is nice.

I am lucky that there's one in my city.

Yeah, the way you described the system in Poland you actually got extremely lucky. It has its perks to live in a big city.

So I think. To be honest, I dunno what I'd have been doing had I been born in a much smaller one..

Well.. hard to say really.. you seem much less optimistic these days... That, and you haven't been so active lately..

Ah, okay. Now I see what you mean...
With "secretive“ I thought you meant something like concealed and cryptic...
Well... can't deny that I've been less active these days. But I didn't actually notice that the way I write has changed in any way... sorry 'bout that!
I'm sure there'll come better times but there hasn't been a lot of good stuff around me lately.
And personally, I mean in real life, I noticed that my dog actually affected my mood heavily.
I think I mentioned here once that she always made me happy whenever I just as much as looked at her... now that balance is just missing. She actually made me a better person...

Don't apologize for that.. it's normal, and certainly not a thing to apologize for.. It was just such a sharp contrast with you from a few months ago..

Well, I cannot really tell you anything but to keep your eyes peeled for better times. Both of us know that they will happen to the both of us eventually ;)

I can understand how you're feeling.. or at least I think I do. I know that this may sound a bit harsh, but did you consider getting another animal, just to keep yourself distracted? Sorry if what I said was insensitive.

I just hope that things are/will be working out well for you, remember that I'm rooting for you^^

Thank you! I do too ;)

Then I am confident for the both of us^^