I feel cheated, with that tag on this chapter I was expecting a meltdown, not a nostalgia trip, heck it's almost uplifting

the black eyes when she asked “what about now” was some scary shit though haha. and the way she sat in all her old things from her simpler days that she’d never touch again. depressing af

i’m taking a break from uni because i became depressed as fuk and i’m sitting home not exercising or finding a part time job or anything. i’m going back this fall but this chapter fucked me up like damn i got a little sister too she has a 4.8 gpa with community service hours and extracurriculars looking to go straight to harvard or ucla then going to med school or some shit. if i dont pick it up from here i’m gonna have to live in her house or be homeless in what might be less than a decade. that being said i’m also scared i’m gonna fuck everything up and feel worthless again when i go back to school. grades suck and i can’t make friends for shit feelsbadman.