"But I was happy to be so broken."
I really didn't except this to hit the feels so hard.. This is going to be one heck of a ride.

That also really resonated. A big problem comes with that sort of relief though. When you feel like finally i'm so broken maybe somebody will notice, or care, or maybe I will get some sort of validation, and then it just never arrives, and you are just alone, broken and feel utterly helpless. Its those quiet moments, where you feel utterly alone that are the worst.