Ema has so many redflags, I just wish for Takara to fall in love with a girl that's actually single.

She reminds me of the best friend of my mom who was sexually abused by her father. I could be wrong but that might be one of the reasons she already liked girls when she hit puberty. Eventually she married a loaded dentist and got two kids, while constantly cheating on him with different women. She used his assets to start a private real estate company with her two sons and once she knew she was financially strong enough divorced him. He was such a nice guy and pushover that she got a pretty good deal.

Now her business is super successful and she's so loaded she's openly gay and not afraid anymore. Women flock to her often because of her money, some were even het who tried to take advantage of her. And she falls in love with het women all the time, it's such a disaster. She's also still in love with my mom, they went to high school together. Everytime my mom got a bf she got so jealous they fought alot.

The craziest thing is she made on move on me when I was twenty, nothing happened ofcourse but my mom was so furious they didn't talk to each other for years... Sometimes you read those super toxic stories thinking that's bs but stuff like this really happens.

I think this manga gives a pretty realistic picture of the struggles of gay women who had abusive parent's in a society they are shunned. Of course my mom's friend abuse was much worse but at least nowadays, lesbians in my country don't face the same discrimination like in japan.

I thought I was alone with this line of thought. Glad to know I'm not. I don't know... There's just something that doesn't sit well with me with how Ema is acting so far. She plays both sides and leads them both all the same despite obviously knowing the feelings of both parties.

This is why I especially felt so sad for Takara, who has the short end of the stick at this point. Numerous times has she been blindsided with mixed signals only for then to witness her precious one being lovey dovey with her husband. The confession of Takara should have been a signal blaring enough for Ema to know that Takara has a history of deep enough emotional investment in this. And yet, I just can't seem to see any hints of gentleness and care from Ema in handling this. The story depicts that Ema also loves Takara deep down. Yet, she does not have any shred of conscience or awareness of what the other person might potentially be feeling in always having to be reminded of her "loss"?

I personally can't help but feel that this is so unfair and unkind towards Takara. I know Takara is also foolish enough to still have the will to fight in this sticky situation. I also know that Ema is not forcing Takara at all to have feelings for her. But the least she can do, if she cares about the other person's feelings, is to simply not be as dense as a goddamn neuron star and set boundaries with Takara - to avoid potentially deepening both sides' emotional investment. Since there's really nothing in it for her so long as Ema is unwilling to go of both sides.

She has a terrible mom and most likely had a very troubled past. But it's really just not an excuse for the unfair entanglement of others. It's unfortunate but also just really selfish. Somewhere down the line as I was reading this, I can't help but realize that I began to slowly shift from wishing more fruitful encounters between Takara and Ema, to hoping for another character to appear that can just somehow swoop Takara away from this terrible scenario - because she deserves better.

Of course, I'm still wishing for a happy ending between the both of them though - that would be perfect. But it's just so bleak. And with how the story is so far, even if they eventually reach that point, I bet it wouldn't be without a trade-off or deep scars.

The rant was long because I really find the story to be interesting. Everything is messy, confusing, frustrating, and icky, just like how things could absolutely go astray in real life. I'm really invested into this and hope that the ending is cathartic regardless of the outcome.
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All that... OR both could just maybe stop being useless lesbians and get their shit together already.

Jesus. I did not consider this but this may be right. Ema may be the villain after all (maybe not the best word but you get the idea). The scene of the Ema-looking person at the lesbian bar in ch 10 is a clue.

There's a saying that the devil often appears beautiful and pleasing to the eye, while angels may present themselves in frightening or unappealing forms. That idea might just apply in this case, And that’s why the possibility of Ema being the villain was never considered until now the story portrays her as an innocent, sincere woman. Still, I'm not entirely sure about that idea. ¯_(ツ)_/¯

On another note, the fact that Ema gives Takara mixed signals makes me question whether she truly loves her husband or Takara. excuse my rambling, but it seems like whenever Ema is emotionally overwhelmed, she seeks physical comfort from one of them. For example, she hugged her husband after her mother said something hurtful, and in the latest chapter, she tried to kiss Takara after being told they should run away together. It’s not that I don’t believe Ema genuinely cares for Takara I do but I also think she might be sexually frustrated and internally conflicted about her sexuality. That could explain why she sends mixed messages to Takara while still showing affection toward her husband.

I think its important to remember Ema has been dealing with this for over a decade, without Takara in the picture. She even told Takara her and her husband getting married quickly/young wasn't because of love. She outright says she did it to get away from her mother. Her 'rock' has been her husband and he clearly cares about her - because like, Takara he sees the good in Ema (even though she's so introverted).

My 'theory' is that they're married but it's not in a romantic sense. Like they have an understanding between the two of them. My head cannon is that; in college, Ema confessed to Hariu that she was a lesbian, so she couldn't date him. Over time he saw how her mom treated her; so he suggested they get married to get her out of her home. He probably truly cares for her (he in more a romantic sense) and her him - but even in their moments of affection, it's never been overly romantic. I remember them kissing once, but he was really polite in asking if he could kiss her good bye. Which for a couple that's been married for as long as they have - seems weird.

And because Takara was not in the picture at the time; that solution makes sense. Her mom does not seem like the parent that would ever accept Ema being a lesbian - so, she probably gave up the idea of ever being in a real relationship with someone. That fear was also what stopped her as a teenager, when Takara tried to kiss her. And by Takara ghosting her after (which sucks, but I get) of course her confidence/guilt took a hit.

Based off of chapter 10 - I assume, Ema occasionally goes out and hangs with other lesbians - that aren't close so she can 'be herself,' and just maybe Hariu is seeing that manager on the side. Ema maybe using her husband as a 'purse,' but I feel like it would have been his idea to do so. And both of them have been working on Ema building confidence to become more independent this whole time.

Now that Takara is back. Ema is down bad, but is probably hesitant to talk to Takara about all this, because of the ghosting she did to her as teenagers. I even think Ema has more lesbian experiences than we know because of her possible open relationship with her husband. And obviously she knows if she gets with Takara it wouldn't just be a fling. So, it's probably a really scary concept knowing she'd lose her 'rock' of a husband and be putting her trust/faith in the woman that hurt (unknowingly) in the past. I think when it all comes out - her husband will be sad/understanding - but in a sense the two are being useless lesbians, because they just wont have a conversation about their obvious feelings.

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I think the secret will be - she was in a coma for 10 years; is still in school, but technically 22 or something. Even if it's a manga - without a giant time leap, I can't really root for them. And the girl is way to physically developed to be a child. And her looks make me blush. Even mentally sometimes she seems the eldest.

This looks great, but Caitlyn should be the tall one. Still really like it though :)