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Confessions of love isn't something common where I'm from, or where I've lived. People just meet up, and grow closer, and there it is. I've certainly never done it as such... at least not like described above, or how they play out in the mangas. It's never happened to me, either, I believe. In my life I've dated maybe three girls prior to my current companion. But I do believe this one's the one I'll stay with, and not because she'll stay with me.
She didn't confess to me, either, per-se, but she was the one to say the magic words first. Which is something different, as she does not have a voice to speak with.
It all started on a fateful winter evening, as the stories go. I was working as an assistant in a medical facility, where she was transferred as a patient. Like usual, new kids get picked on by the local wannabe thugs... who, in this caase, happened to be a big "Bertha" type girl from Sweden, named, coincidentally, Helga. She was the leader of the bullies. Of course, Charlie, my now fiancé, being new she got the crude welcome. Not that she wouldn't have been able to handle herself, I later found out, but I'd dealt with Helga's attitude for a long time, so I didn't care for her threats, and stepped in casually, undermining her position in the process, of course. I took good care to drop her status
On the bright side, I didn't have to handle her picking on Charlie again. On the even brighter side something sparked between her, and I.
To skip some time, and get to the confession. We'd been hanging out for a long time, and gone on, what could be considered dates, more, than a few times.
One night, early morning would be more precise, we were sitting in a glass hallway, staring at the wintery night sky. I can't say we were chatting, but we were. I talked, she scribbled her thoughts in her notebook, and showed me. That's how all of our communication is done. She does not prefer tablets over pen and paper.
I was in the middle of explaining how I can always find the big dipper/bear in the sky without any problems, but I can never find the little one, when she placed her notebook in my lap mid-sentence. I didn't look down immediately, but continued to talk. Suddenly I noticed she was not looking where I was pointing, but had turned her head away. The dark wall she was staring at had nothing watchable to offer, so I became concerned. Had I missed something? Had I acted out of place, said something?
As I placed my hand on her shoulder she placed her hand on her notebook, still in my lap. I looked down, and as she removed her hand I saw what she'd written on it. It was straight forward, simple. Brave words: "Can I kiss you?" she had written on the page.
I cannot claim I was not thoroughly surprised. Not just at her bravery, but... I can't quite tell, just surprised by her. I couldn't say a word, I couldn't say "Yes" or express my amazement. Although, "Yes" would have been what I wanted to say it didn't come to my mind so simply.
As I turned my head, and started to lower my hand from her shoulder there she was, so close, almost close enough to touch. And then we did. She stole a short kiss from me. When she pulled away, not far away, just enough to look into my eyes which were very wide open, and a bit shaky, she decided to read that I was ok with it from my eyes. And then she stole another kiss from me, but by then I had regained some composure, and had prepared. After that there was no more fear, no more embarrassment, or shame. No more hesitation. We kissed, and we embraced the morning light away.
Of course, I had to work without sleep the next day, but I wasn't even a bit shaken by tiredness. I was happy, I was glad, and I've been happy for the last three years.
To me that was her confession, her heart opening up to me.
As for the words of love, she was again the one to open up first. Not long after, though.
So there, that's the story I had to tell...
I'm always playing EvE-online, but on the side I'm either touching up, perfecting, or just hopping back into UT2K4, Final Fantasy VII, or Fallout 3.
I'm, sadly, on a 15gb monthly bandwidth, so once I get an acceptable connection I wil return to my Steam account, and expand my gaming list for sure.
I'm originally from Finland, but spent a lot of my life in Estonia. Currently I'm residing in Ireland.