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Hotyangicon3
joined Jun 6, 2013

So good.

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Hotyangicon3
joined Jun 6, 2013

What the fuck am I reading?

last edited at Sep 11, 2020 6:49AM

Hotyangicon3
joined Jun 6, 2013

Good LORD this author is fucking amazing.

Hotyangicon3
joined Jun 6, 2013

I don't know why it's so hard for me to accept that Midori turned out bisexual in the end when in high school she said we gotta grow up someday and can't be together anymore. Just makes me feel like she never was into Maki ever. So I read the whole manga feeling that way. Like fuck off straighty... Then again, I didn't understand my sexuality for a while, and have been in a relationship with men cuz it's better than being alone... I also kind of hate myself for that though and am taking it out on Midori.

Like Maki though I'm still in love with my best friend from middle school. Fucking 30 and can't or don't want to get over it. Jeez... If only such things actually happened.

Hotyangicon3
joined Jun 6, 2013

I clicked on this hoping it was Doki Doki literature club... But alas.

I do love me a strip club motif though.

last edited at Aug 30, 2020 8:57PM

Hotyangicon3
joined Jun 6, 2013

FeelsNotNormalMan

Hotyangicon3
joined Jun 6, 2013

What happened to her realizing normal friends don't kiss each other or want to though? Yet she just wants to be normal friends despite that? Damn... Straight brainwashing is powerful stuff. It's like when I would touch my girl friend in 8th grade, get pleasurable tingles, and just feel bad for feeling that way, and not realizing I could be gay.

This is another manga where I frantically press the next button hoping something will appear.

last edited at Aug 30, 2020 9:01PM

Hotyangicon3
joined Jun 6, 2013

That gay bait though on last two chapters of volume 7.

Hotyangicon3
joined Jun 6, 2013

The way this is set up is a bit cringe and fast, but it's interesting.

I think what I hate about it is I had a male friend, and I was the first woman to understand and be okay with him being addicted to porn (Christian community). And so he very promptly fell in love with me, even though I'm basically lesbian, and don't feel the same toward him whatsoever. I'm also the only girl that was giving him attention so... At least this woman has the attention of many people.

Hotyangicon3
joined Jun 6, 2013

I don't even remember this teacher. Maybe I should re-watch this series.

Hotyangicon3
joined Jun 6, 2013

White garden, as long as the next chapter eventually comes out, take as much time as you need. You legends!

Hotyangicon3
joined Jun 6, 2013

... Why am I still reading this? What more does mochi want to show us? Is there really all that much to tell after this?

Hotyangicon3
joined Jun 6, 2013

Story has peaked and Kino bring assertive seems pretty ooc. Especially because she's been clueless about whether she loves York or not for forever. But now she's all super into it? I dunno...

last edited at Aug 15, 2020 3:04PM

RPPuzzle
1 x ½ discussion 11 Aug 00:49
Hotyangicon3
joined Jun 6, 2013

Yeah I'm also scared that going back and editing or redrawing the whole thing will just burn out her passion for it. Plus I really really want to know what's going to happen.

And I love the story and character she has weaved so far, even if it's complex and hard to resolve or whatever. Even though I feel like it's really not... It's just fucking brilliant plain and simple. I'm like addicted to her style and this story and her tasteful, sexy handling of a taboo.

last edited at Aug 11, 2020 12:50AM

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Hotyangicon3
joined Jun 6, 2013

The site migrated? Didn't even notice. I'm glad I found where it migrated. I guess it's the same URL from what I can see. Long live the dynasty!

Hotyangicon3
joined Jun 6, 2013

I just clicked the news article. It says even though we're adults is the title.

Hotyangicon3
joined Jun 6, 2013

This manga is just a string of Neeko's humilations. And it looks like it's going to go on and on, until she somehow finds a job and joins the norm. Then it'll be over.

It's not fun at all.

I mean life isn't fun at all so... life imitating art and vice versa and all that.

Nobody's ever gonna make me believe that this girl will ever have money problems.

Okay. I know this is meant as a joke, but it's not very funny.

Very little about this manga is genuinely funny, actually. Not for someone who suffers similarly, at least.

I hate that I relate so closely to her, it's painful. The more I read this, the more I wonder how much longer it'll be before she starts contemplating suicide. Every time she does something good, it comes crashing down at the end. Yes, she went out to a festival. That's great, getting out of the house is great. Then she got separated from her sister, and, upon reuniting with her, was humiliated. It's not just about making steps forward, because there's steps back as well, and those always feel more significant.

I've suffered like her for so very long, and after a long enough time it becomes impossible to remember what it was like when I didn't feel this horrible, and impossible to imagine a future where it isn't this way.

I'm not sure how many people here are like me, it seems like there's at least a handful of others with similar experiences. But when you've suffered so greatly for so long, you start to believe that it's normal. I was speaking with a doctor recently for a brief medical history interview (because I moved and have to get all that shit sorted out) and when I was asked about depression, my sentence ended with something along the lines of "but that's life, right?" and when she responded with "It doesn't have to be." I was overwhelmed. I had genuinely come to believe that I was going to feel like the worst piece of shit on earth for the rest of my life, and that was what was proper and meant to be. Even now I find it hard to believe I'll ever feel better, but I try to remember what she said to give myself some hope.

I'm 29, and the past 15 or so years of my life have been spent trying to find a way to allow me to feel normal. I've tried medication after medication, but nothing seems to work well enough to get me out of the downward spiral I've been in over those 15 years. After a long enough time of getting worse, you stop believing it can get better. It doesn't matter what merits you might have, or what other people see in you. It doesn't matter if you're smart or attractive or anything else someone might want.

The worst part of it all is that it's incredibly difficult to get other people to understand. When you feel suicidal, you don't want to tell anyone because you're scared of how they'll react. And if you do tell someone, your fears are realized, because nobody expects someone to want to be dead. I can't even begin to describe what it's like to go from admitting to someone you love that you're having suicidal thoughts, to having to do damage control for telling them that. It's the worst. You've told someone that you need help, but instead you have to help them not worry about it? It's a catch 22. If you admit to how bad you feel, you make other people feel bad.

I apologize for the giant post, and the likely incoherent rambling. I needed to get that off my chest, and hopefully it will help at least one person who doesn't get it better understand what it's like to be like Neeko. I know I shouldn't read this if it makes me unhappy, but there aren't a lot of places that you can see people like yourself when you have mental health problems, because nobody wants to think about them (and I can't blame anyone for that, I wish I had no reason to think about them either).

Thanks for sharing SushiKnight. I'm similar and am 30. Only reason I'm not suicidal is because of a near-death experience book that I've read, and just like... people don't really know how to react to you wanting to die so... I dunno. I'm slowly going insane with loneliness. Not sure when enough will be enough.

I've had some upward spirals over the last 15 years, but my endeavors fail and I just get more and more heart broken.

last edited at Aug 1, 2020 3:28AM

Hotyangicon3
joined Jun 6, 2013

Every time I see a new chapter, I read the title of the manga out in my head, and then I respond to that in my head by saying: It IS tough being Neeko.

RPPuzzle
Nijipuri discussion 29 Jul 02:34
Hotyangicon3
joined Jun 6, 2013

3/10, don't waste your time reading this.

Shallow AF character developments. It's like the manga doesn't admit that these characters are gay, and that's really annoying. Like it does eventually, but the whole time you're thinking these chicks might be straight, and that's stupid. They provide no good reason for the two main characters to be in love with each other.

last edited at Jul 29, 2020 2:35AM

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Hotyangicon3
joined Jun 6, 2013

Omega LEWD. God that may as well have been sex.

Hotyangicon3
joined Jun 6, 2013

Still like the original premise and the way it plays out a tonne more than this one. But this art is nice. The characters just feel a bit bland somehow... and too clueless.

last edited at Jul 15, 2020 2:07AM

RPPuzzle
Hotyangicon3
joined Jun 6, 2013

I'm writing a fanfic right now, and putting things in the appropriate order is much harder than it was when I was young and in school. so I can't get mad at not understanding this story. Thanks to everyone who understood it and explained it. It's kind of a cool sequence of events now that I get it.

Hotyangicon3
joined Jun 6, 2013

Somehow seeing a NSFW manga from Mochi, who doesn't usually do that, Is 10 times lewder than other NSFW. Brava Mochi.

RPPuzzle
Hotyangicon3
joined Jun 6, 2013

I finished DR v3 a month ago. I really don't like Himiko much... and Tenko's gayness manifested strangely. It was weird that she was incredibly clueless that the master of Neo Aikido was male. And then the love hotel event the way she acted it's like the creators wanted her to be a straight gay person. So weird... I just don't like either character much.

Always good to see a Danganronpa doujin though. v3 was special overall.

Hotyangicon3
joined Jun 6, 2013

Women really don't learn a lot about their genitalia because it's pretty hard to see. And some women like me weren't even taught that masturbating was a thing. I had to learn it from my internet friends. So I didn't have any practical experience with mine for a while, and it's kind of hard to see it without a mirror and posing really weird. I was a sheltered moral Mormon, so I wasn't going to look at real pictures of a vagina.

As for penis, well yeah that should have been obvious from looking at anatomy pictures in health class.

Anyway that sure escalated quickly. It is really sad how women are expected to keep their libido in check, but men aren't. It's just as bad for women sometimes.