Okay. I got volumes 3, 4, and 5 raw and I can read somewhat. So if you're curious and don't wanna wait...
The next chapter is the last one in volume three. I'm a little fuzzy on the details because I haven't re-read it in a while, but Miwa and Shiho catch up. Shiho apologizes to Miwa again and I think she says she's going to try to be better or something.
All I really remember is at the end, Shiho asks Miwa to "go out" with her and Miwa is stunned and asks how Shiho means it. And Shiho says something like, "What do you mean, what do I mean? We could go to a bar, we could play darts..." etc examples and then the book ends with Shiho saying, "And when you get tired, we can stay in a hotel" looking very sly.
The next volume starts with Miwa and Shiho again but there isn't much of them together, which I was very sad about. Saeko is fine but #teaminukuma anyway. Miwa lies and says she has work early so she can't go out and spend the night at a hotel. Then it's clarified that Shiho didn't mean anything sexual lol and it ends with them exchanging Line usernames. And that's basically it for this volume until the very end where that very loud blonde girl, Rika, takes Miwa's phone and sends Shiho a message, which Miwa understandably panics about. It's fair game, though, cuz Miwa and Saeko break up in this volume.
Volume five has a loooot of them together. Shiho responds to the Line message Rika sent and I think invites Miwa to Okinawa?? I am not sure where Shiho lives, but it's somewhere tropical where they go diving. And Miwa actually goes!!
The big thing that happens is that Shiho only has one twin bed basically so they have to sleep together. Miwa gets super nervous and winds up telling Shiho that they shouldn't share a bed together, I think, and then confesses that she's gay. I couldn't read exactly what Shiho said in response, but she was fine with it. And then I couldn't super read this next bit, but I think Shiho says something along the lines of "It's not like you ever liked me" jokingly but Miwa makes such a sour, nervous face that Shiho is like "oh fuck" and Miwa is like WE SHOULD GO TO BED and they do lol (edit: it's actually the reverse--Shiho says let's just go to bed for now and Miwa agrees kinda panicky
Then there's some gay stuff like Shiho taking Miwa diving the next day and them holding hands underwater. And Shiho remembering the times she felt weird around girls, including that time in high school when she wanted to kiss Miwa. It seems that she didn't know the feelings she experienced were romantic, and she thinks "Maybe I do like girls". So it seems this whole time, Shiho hasn't had an ulterior motive/hasn't consciously seen Miwa that way until now. She sees Miwa asleep and thinks about kissing her again and wonders if they could actually date.
Later that night, MIWA CONFESSES AND IT'S SO ADORABLE. She tells Shiho she likes her and wants to be her girlfriend even though she's just her kouhai. She says she's always liked her, since high school, and I think she says she always will. Shiho asks her to give her some time to think about it. Edit: misunderstood. Miwa says I don't want to be your Kouhai, but your girlfriend. Also Shiho is really freaked out at this part and gathers that Miwa is going to confess
Then the next day, they hang out at a cliff top overlooking the ocean and... Shiho says she can't date Miwa. The specifics are kind of lost on me because kanji, but she does at one point say she loves Miwa. But also that she doesn't have courage, I guess to date her? She says a looot of things, most of which I could not read. But the main gist is, Miwa keeps trying to make them work at first but then she accepts that Shiho won't date her. And then she goes back home and it seems like that's the last of Shiho. They're like... friendly with one another at the airport, but idk that they'll be okay or the same after that. Edit: at the airport, Shiho tells Miwa to hit her up if she's in her area again and Miwa says likewise, then realizes that Shiho probably won't go back because of her family
I really thought they'd get together. All this time, she was just a plot device... Miwa and Saeko start hooking up once Miwa gets back home but it seems like Saeko may have a crush on her coworker who already has a girlfriend. Didn't read much of that part.
Edit: Spent a little more time looking at Shiho turning down Miwa and it seems she was too worried about societal pressure. "In high school it's fine to date another girl but what about after that? Do you tell your friends, the people you work with? Some people are nice, but a lot of people are cruel." Something like that. Then she says she loves Miwa but she can't handle all that. And Miwa says she was happy to hear Shiho's feelings.
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