Four chapters in and I'm still not sure what this story's mood is trying to go for. In general, it feels like some kind of self-insert fantasy, which would be alright if this was supposed to be just a silly, wholesome story with a typical "oh we're too far apart to be together" which would provide to be the main "drama" portion of the story. But then we have the first chapter, which just bombards us with angsty facts like bullet points. Now commenting over the first chapter alone could take a while, but it's just... Rushed in such a way that it really feels like wasted potential. Now I understand this is based on an LN and it was like that in the source material, but still, the way it was handled is... Lackluster.
Also, Ayu has controlling parents who would go as far as to get her to a psychiatrist to "fix her" yet she apparently has no issue getting enough money to get to Tokyo and even have a "make-over". I would buy it if her parents gave up on her, but they clearly didn't... In their own way. The parents' side of it feels inconsistent. You can patch it with excuses, but... I'unno.
Ayu is just an odd character. With how her parents were, wouldn't it make her think there's something wrong with her? Wouldn't there be some kind of her forcing herself to "be normal"? Was there some kind of community she was part of that would let her know it was okay? It felt like she just googled stuff and decided upon the first search. We don't know that. Maybe we will, but why just throw at us all those pieces of information and omit details like that. Eugh... She was also just betrayed by her entire environment and yet it doesn't seem like she cares that much. No trust issues, no nothing. Sure, there's that one bit where she's afraid of admitting to sensei about her gayness but... It's just as if nothing happened. That's my main issue with the mood of this story. We got bombarded in the first chapter, only to roll into a fantasy perfect setting and nobody cares about anything.
I get that it's only chapter 4 and it's setting up the mood... But I'm not sure what mood. I'm not sure how I should feel about this.
I think it doesn't help that I'm not particularly... Attached to the characters. Ayu seems like she's made to be seen as a precious little muffin. Which would be fine if not for all that chapter1-baggage. The way she acts now would work if we got some flashbacks from time to time to throw a bit of a "flaw" into her character. Having that chp1 dump and her acting this way is just jarring. The makeover she got also didn't help. Now, I understand why she did it and I will admit it made sense, this might be just a "me" issue, but it feels like a different character, is all. Maybe if we got a bit more of her old self acting the way she acts now, but it just... Doesn't click.
Sensei is... I don't hate her. Although she's the stereotype of a neet author with not many, if any, traits to like about her, at least so far. Sure she agreed to accept Ayu as her uh... Maid? House help? But even then you learn that it's not really her money. Then there are the moments that are supposed to have some comedic value where she either tricks or... Well, manipulates(?) Ayu. Which would be fine, if not for the fact of what we know about the poor girl.
Now, while I talked a lot of crap about chapter 1, I think it had potential with a few things it did. It sort of showed a confused girl trying to look for answers. I also adored (from a writing perspective! or plot or whatever you want to call it) the way she got baited into admitting to her friends that she's gay. Now that shows naivete and how people like that get quickly burned out and forced to lock up into their tiny shells because "society bad". I also very much like the art, it's a very pretty manga.
With all that off of my mind, I hope that we'll get plenty of reasons to like the Sensei character, that Ayu will settle down, relax and be able to confront herself about all the feelings dwelling within her. I hope this manga settles for a mood that will fit what we were presented with so far and that I'll be able to enjoy it even more.