While Shiho has had years of time to settle into her feelings, Aki is being given days. She just needs to be afforded some time to understand her feelings. That should be said first because it has a lot to do with where she is at right now.
She's not afraid of losing a friend. She's drawing a direct comparison between a potential romantic interest and her current closeness to Shiho, which she's still struggling to confidently label. She's not worried that Shiho would abandon her. She's worried that their current level of closeness and intimacy would not be the same.
Often the time and closeness you had with friends will diminish, as you spend that time with your SO. Aki has surveyed that future, deciding she would feel unsatisfied with that arrangement. She'd rather that time be for her and Shiho. She's choosing Shiho over everyone else.
In practice, she's confessing stronger more life-long emotions towards Shiho, than Shiho expressed towards her. It's not the case that she's not interested in Shiho, based on her actions here and previous chapters. She is just unsure of what her feelings mean and how to confidently label them as everything is happening very fast for her.
In that confusion, she's realized that she does already, confidently know a few things: she wants to be exactly this close to Shiho, able to do these same date-like things with Shiho and she's realized that she wants the freedom of these things over anything or being with anyone else. She doesn't want to share her time with Shiho, with anyone else, even a romantic interest. What does that sound like?
Their languages (and labels) are different but both of them are already far closer to the same page, and that's what the scene is communicating. It's basically a roundabout confession scene but in a less traditional way, which is why it's interesting and also why it's framed as such.
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