Honestly, I do understand where everyone who hates this is coming from, but personally, these final chapters only further cemented it as one of my favorite manga of all time.
"It set up an interesting story but unfortunately it really did not deliver a satisfying conclusion and that kind of sucks, haha."
Talk about the story of my life! I've been both of these girls to different people at different times, sometimes the confused pining sap wondering what happened, and other times the sad mysterious beauty who disappears without a trace. Sometimes you find out what happened with that other person, but most of the time you don't. In turns you want desperately to know their life and have an imagination racing with possibilities, and by the other you are the object of intrigue who went through that life and know how mundane all of it was, the good times and the awful ones, and just want to be seen as a person. I mean hell when a co-worker found out where I grew up recently, we had a miniature version of that chapter where she imagined that whole crime story only for her to reply "no we basically just huffed glue lol"
I feel like this was one of very few stories to capture these feelings specifically BY its ambiguity rather than in spite of it, because the story isn't about the specific things that did or didn't happen to her--it's the tension, the wanting, the not knowing, the disappointment, but, most importantly, the genuine love that was shared. Does that love not exist, did it not matter if they didn't end with a kiss? Wouldn't the rest of those feelings be undercut if we were given a definitive answer and a tidy resolution? In other words, yes, it is unsatisfying, but as I get older and face more dissatisfaction, the more I appreciate a story that is specifically about the fact there are things that are unsatisfying, painful even, but are still worthwhile and meaningful to have experienced. Things that hurt, but you wouldn't trade for the world.
That juxtaposition between the heightened imaginary and the mundane reality is why I think the assault scene was included. After all, she spends so much of the story weaving these stories in her head of seedy intrigue with prostitutes and gangsters and being forced into sleeping with bad people, and then all of a sudden she's put into a pretty horrible situation herself. And it IS awful and it IS scary, but it's also stupid and clumsy and she still has to leave the hotel with this fucking guy and deal with the rain and go to school with him and live a normal life. It's an unthinkable thing to do to someone, but he's not a monster lurking in the shadows, he's not trying to control her life, he doesn't seem to have done it for any reason at all or even really think about it. It doesn't make sense, there's no satisfying reason it happened or what it means or how to conclusively react to it to get closure. It is one of the worst things to experience, and yet is completely mundane. That isn't everyone's experience with assault, certainly, but it is mine.
I don't blame anyone for not wanting to read that, for being deeply upset after reading it, but for me, this is one of very few times I have felt understood, and reading something that reflected my own life.
Thank you so much for finishing this, this is one that's going to be sitting with me for many years to come.
Thanks for this post. Just picked this one up and read it all at once today, and FUCK did it hit me hard right from the start. Came to check comments section since this is a bit too powerful for me to be able to handle by myself, and was honestly quite surprised by how negatively this manga was/is viewed, even if I get some of the complaints.
Well, if so many people couldn't understand what was going on w/ the rape scene, it "not being addressed" etc etc, I guess it means the author failed at communicating (thus making it a "bad" manga)? Guess it makes sense, seeing as this did get axed.
Either way, I absolutely love this. Objectively speaking not a masterpiece, but to me a definite 10/10. Thank you very very much to the TLs for picking this back up.
I hate the final song choice so much. So, so much. And by that I mean it's brilliant. Goddammit author why do you do this to me
...no I mean really, I'm sure a lot of us went to look for the full lyrics after finishing the chapter, right? If Keiko remembers the dream, then she would have as well. How would that make her feel?
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