a'wu is like really clearly bipolar (delusions and all), god damn. unmedicated that can fuck you up big time. like it's depressing, but i can't blame qiangyi for checking out emotionally either. she's human, she only has so much of herself to give, and all of a'wu's wonderful words were just words. she had no intention of changing.
and from the other side, a'wu was basically licking her own wounds. feeling like shit and being helpless are seductive, in a sense? it's so easy to just Give Up, and the more you hurt yourself (verbally, physically), the more it feels not only deserved, but good and satisfying. i'm just regular depressed and never got into substance abuse and physical self harm, but i get the mental space to an extent. it's like why drug addicts don't quit? your life might be shit, but it's a familiar, comfortable kind of shit. when you're unstable, that's attractive.
that being said, i feel like the last couple pages were unnecessary tbh. it was like... a little too heavy-handed? i'm not sure how to explain it rn, but i think a subtler closure would've been better here. as it is just makes it feel like cheap shock value