(snippage) I figured that all her previous actions were not meant to somehow fit in or try to endear herself to the crew - she only wanted to be noticed by Hiroko.
Which makes her someone socially - not inept - but still lacking in sensibilities.
Her love for Hiroko comes off to me as rather selfish now. She wants Hiroko, but the one whose image she had built in her mind. Which was why she was so distraught when she found out Hiroko was lying.
Well, yeah. But go figure. All we ever have is the image of people we build in our mind, based on the "them" they present to us. And almost inevitably, we fall for people before our successive approximations from seeing them in many situations get very reliable. You fall in love based on the information you have, not the information you want.
And yes, Ayaka is somewhat lacking in social sensibilities. And yes, her love is somewhat selfish, driving her to do somewhat foolish things. But personally, I don't really respect a love that doesn't have at least a bit of that in it. I don't feel like someone really loves a person hard if they're not willing to push themselves for it. Ayaka's a bit extreme.
If you think about it, we all loved bashing Hiroko for agressively not noticing Ayaka, but if we didn't know she was lesbian, or even if we didn't see her inner monologues, we'd think that she either a) misunderstood like an unrealistic clutz (ironically the maybe truth) b) was not gay but felt awkward rejecting Ayaka and tried to give her the hint or c) was gay but did not want to return Ayaka's feelings.
Also true. But, we'd be wrong, as it turns out. I don't think you can say that a judgement based on knowing the truth is inferior because a judgement based on not knowing the truth would be different.
And Ayaka would look like she was possessive amd overbearing and couldn't get the hint - maybe she would be seen as pitiful, but by no means would the readers support her as much.
OK, now this is a serious point. And, Ayaka IS possessive and overbearing and doesn't get the hint. On the other hand, up to this latest one all Hiroko's dodges, since they were designed to deflect a presumed-STRAIGHT girl's supposedly unintentional flirting, were almost perfectly calculated to fail to add up to something that actually turned down genuine advances by a gay girl. Now she has finally explicitly turned Ayaka down acknowledging Ayaka as a gay girl wanting to ask her out, and it has provoked a major crisis for Ayaka, which would have been a crisis even if Hiroko wasn't lying in her rejection--that just complicates it.
Mind you, in a way, it's unfair to both characters to judge them this way, because they are complementary caricatures following the demands of the story. To make the comedy, they both have to be over the top in their own direction--Hiroko has to be ridiculously deliberately obtuse to make it funny, but also Ayaka has to be insanely aggressive for the story not to just end, and to furnish stuff for Hiroko to be ridiculously obtuse about. If Ayaka accepted being crushed like most normal people, this would have ended at around chapter 2.
It does seem like for both characters we're gradually seeing backgrounds and things that kind of justify their personalities and attitudes being they way they are. And I respect that. But let's face it, this is not a case of the backgrounds existing and organically generating they way they interact, it's a case of the author wanting them to interact that way and coming up with decent excuses/justifications for why they might do that.
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