When did Sungji really reach her conclusion about her relationship with Sumin?
If you are Sumin, you would think that she did it out of nowhere in ch90. But because you are a reader who saw Sungji interacting with Seju and Sungji with her sister in Law.. then Sungji with Sumin and Seju, it makes sense that you have a better estimation than Sumin's.
Let me summarise it chronologically:
ch79, Sungji and Seju:
Sungji: why do you have to act like such a bad person
Seju's answer: http://imgur.com/a/1ucY4
but then Seju asked her an important question: have you ever felt like that before?
Sungji's silence isn't because she doesn't know the answer.. and the answer is in ch62 http://imgur.com/a/CPjzX
BUT, was Seju really a bad person to Sungji? Sungji's sister in law gave her another perspective: ch82 which led us to:
ch83: Sungji realises Seju's pain.. tries to understand where Seju comes from. Sungji who was told by Sumin that she hates Seju too, is now telling Seju that Sumin doesn't hate her, nor does she wants Seju to disappear. Sungji heard and saw the worried Sumin about Seju.
here where yoonie and I went head to head ch83
http://imgur.com/a/KSCUu
and again: ch90
http://imgur.com/a/WnmCi
What Sungji meant originally in here, it wasn't the cake.. but the current situation between the three:
http://imgur.com/a/cAA3i
Let's now move on to the birthday party in ch84:
Sungji saw the interaction between Sumin and Seju she got the following;
- Sumin doesn't drink when Seju does
- Seju doesn't get violently drunk
- Seju never forces Sumin to do anything she doesn't want to
- even if the other person is drunk and Sumin was drinking, Sumin would still rationalise sex and fight the temptation
-> the cheating that Sungji saw in ch55 was by Sumin's full choice.
-> Sungji realised something to a point she got drunk for the first time ever and expressed to Sumin what she needs, her fears, and in ch85 her insecurities (why do you like me.. what is it in Sungji that Sumin would date her for instead.. Sungji needed Sumin to tell her that she needs her.. this is why Sungji dated and accepted Sumin back in the first place)
Later on; we know that Sungji doesn't need to forgive Sumin to be with her.. she loves her, but cares that she won't be hurt again (by Seju that is)
again, Sungji knows.. Sumin would feel guilty towards Seju even more than she would feel conscious about Sungji's feelings about this matter.
What is it that Sungji was thinking about alone in the balcony in ch89,90?
she asks Sumin another question and gets a false assurance:
http://imgur.com/a/LPIDH
Sungji feels guilty that her love for Sumin would make it so hard for her to let her go, she apologises for it:
http://imgur.com/a/KYUOf
she again, asks Sumin for everything she enjoyed about dating her.. the kisses, the intimacy.. a date. before again she sees that her holding on to Sumin would only make both of them suffer:
http://imgur.com/a/YNgze
Sungji knows that it would never be over between Sumin and Seju.. what would she tell Sumin really? ask her for another assurance ? or an apology? Did Sungji really run or let Sumin go for a reason that Sumin knows very well.
what I wanted to say all along, Sungji knew that she can't sever the bond between Sumin and Seju ch77, and she can't trust Sumin either, even if she could forgive her. (the pillow and ch55). Her love to Sumin hindered her rationality, and she even felt sorry for that in ch90. Sungji didn't run away, she knew what should be done, and finally did it.
Sumin KNOWS why, but that's for another post.
last edited at Aug 30, 2017 5:46PM