It's really difficult to read when a character is having issue of crippling self-esteem and starts the "maybe the person I loved would be better off with some other person" line of thinking because all of this is so real.
Having a very low self-esteem is like (content warning: symptoms, contains vulgar language) Someone constantly whispering to you "you have no worth", "you're just wasting the time and patience of everyone you know", "you lied to everyone you know, you faker", "everyone will leave you if they ever know what piss of shit you really are", "you don't deserves anything good in life" but that "someone" is you and you fully agree. And at some point you just started to distance everyone near you and burn the bridges, to try not to be disassociated by others later (even if that may not happen). Been there, done that. I'm still very sorry to those people I hurt due to this, but I still believes, to this day, that they would be better without me.
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