I read the whole thing (inc chapters 77 and 78) over a couple of days. I enjoyed the first several volumes a lot, but the last couple sort of frustrated me and hurt a bit as it seemed to me that Sakurako wanted some things from the relationship that just didn’t seem to be in the cards - maybe it’s enough for her, and maybe something gentle in the degree of understatement in the storytelling, but too close for me to time I spent in a relationship with a girl who ultimately decided she was straight (??) and that our time together, for all the words of love, was just not actually love. Hard not to project onto a character the degree of “maybe this is enough” self-deception in that sort of relationship? Yeah, yeah, projection is a bad way to read, etc., but last volume was actually outright anxious for me, once the author at least dropped heavy hints that Sakurako wanted more than she was getting, at least in some terms. Her specific thoughts that acceptance is enough for her to feel satisfied makes me really nervous about her sense of self-worth.
So I’m unsurprised this kicked off so much forum drama. It seems written at first as wish fulfillment, stays fluffy on the surface throughout, but plays a lot with ambiguity and expectations in some complicated ways. Much may depend on the individual reader. In any case, being uncomfortable and reflective with something isn’t a bad thing even if I struggle with Sakurako’s emotions and perspectives in the context of their relationships (this is different than yuri vs subtext, and I find Kasumi much more relatable a character).
It certainly did bug me enough that I am trying to sum up my thoughts here. In any case, Cats and Sugar Bowls was great and more my speed.
Final thought - Sakurako’s Kasumi worship and generally character dynamics reminded me a lot of Rae in I’m in Love with the Villainess, at least before Rae has a chance to grow out of it. There’s a lot of parallels in behavior saying ridiculous things, thoughts on acceptance as “enough love” emotionally, age of meeting their partner, focus on cooking, general fantasy competence, etc. The character designs from the college years here are also similar enough that I can’t now unsee it as a weird AU thing.
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