Ahh my gracious and it ends on such a more realistic note!! That’s probably as real as it would get- and that hurts so much more! “Most likely never seeing her again”, and “just thinking about it all over and over”… I’ve been there!
It’s been many years and after swearing to myself “I’ll never forget this person” and crying worrying about that person, it’s sad when I don’t feel much about it anymore. Those events kinda, “happened” then were gone- no lasting relation. Growing up and maturing~ and all.
Good god that was quite a read for me