I wish there were more works like this!!! My particular case:
When I was a little kid I used to dress like a boy with my brother's clothes and I loved when the kids thought I was one, and if some were to ask "which are you, a girl or a boy"? I would just answer "which do you think?" And I would just enjoy so much when they weren't sure. I stopped doing that when I entered elementary school at 7yo, maybe cause I was always scolded for doing it, also because I was entering a Catholic school with a uniform for each gender and girls had to wear skirts... though my first year in that school I almost got expelled because i kept undressing myself LOL, maybe as kind of rebellion to the uniform.
I'm still not comfortable in women clothing but I don't believe myself a guy either, I think. I just like plain clothes that have no gender, I like the ambiguity. I love people who you can't really tell at first sight if they are male of female. If I have to choose I would say im a woman, but why do we need to choose anyways?? I would be happier if we didn't really need to adapt to just one label (man, woman, trans, non-binary) and just be yourself and do whatever you want to do...
Also I'm not really sure of my sexuality, I think I only ever fell in love with a girl (who I wanted to touch very much), the other relationships with guys I had all ended shortly cause I felt disgusted by kisses, hugs and stuff (I didn't want to touch them at all, I hated being touched by them). I also hate the difference my body has with that of a male (most of all, the strength) so I always got jealous and I hated when they forced themselves on me or when they tried to help me treating my like a princess or some fragile thing (but I myself treat girls that way though). I liked being treated like an equal by guys. But I also enjoy some parts of my body too (love my boobies and curves), I love the fact that I can give birth and be a mother. You can't have everything you want I guess... I don't feel the need to comprehend myself, like, I'm just myself and that's what matters. I believe humans can't aim to fully comprehend the world anyways.
Edit: I keep editing it because I find new things to add or come up with how to say it better, I'm having a real good time expressing my feelings for the first time! Though I speak Spanish so it's proven to be a challenge to do it in English.
last edited at Feb 2, 2019 12:17AM
