"I'm not gonna be so scared [...] that I never live my own life!"
Good for you Nagata Kabi. It's so freaking bizarre, watching your life flash by, unable to actually live it. You know what needs to be done, there are so many options in the modern world to fix your mental health. And yet when the moment comes to take the step the monsters come rushing through the door and even the certainty of a wasted life is incapable of propelling you through that. I hope she'll get her happy ending in life.