I read the manga and i admit this is serious thing that if she kept doing this, she will...lead herself into actual suicide. And i bet you are having similar experiences with her dont want to lead yourself into that kind of dangerous things.
I admit, there are some part i relate to her and there are some part i dont. That's why, if you want to read this, i will be grateful.
The first thing i read about her opinion about "real job" and her family's opinion about job too, i can think only about "being grateful." i just hope that her family is feeling grateful to her, that at least she has job, no matter how society look down the part-time job. It's not like she is doing criminal that will led her into jail. It's better that she can grow with her pace, rather than limiting her growth with "society opinion."
And i think both her and her parents are very demanding. Her parents demanding her to do as "proper" daugher, and she demanding herself to do as "proper" person. Without seeing their good value of themselves, without seeing their sprouth of growth, but they only see their weakness as problem, i think they will suffering for the long time, until they realized themselves.
"if her daughter have real job, will they happy, or thinking she should gain promotion? If her daughter finally get promotion, will they happy, or thinking she should gain upper position? Or married with boss? Or having genius grandchildren? Etc and so forth?"
"when they finally happy?"
No matter how i look their perspective, i feel like sad. It's like society of japan limiting their younger generation's freedom to grow their talent and creativity with their "shame" as moral. When the parents are no longer in the world, how can children live on this harsh world? I thought japan is the manufacture country with creative mind. My country is even poor with people hardly get part time job. Even they are happy if they get part time job, just like she did. At least they can feed their wife and children.
And about the sexual based on "hug", i know that japan allowed porn long time ago, but i really think sexual pleasure is always short term pleasure and long term suffering. Sexual is no different than drugs that will give you short term pleasure but long term pain, but at least sexual will not make you dead, unlike drugs. No matter how you tried to correct them, in the end, you will end up suffering, it is fortunate that you still didnt commit some criminal. But sexual based romance, it is the most pleasurable thing than mere sexual and you still be happy together even without needing sex.
I only suggest to go some religion you can trust. I thought zen is the original religion in japan. I am reading buddha's teaching and their content is good too, so i suggest you to research about them.
I will not suggest you to attend religious group to make you a foolish blind-faith that turning into terrorists as you can see in news. But at least, you will form some social and will make you serve good action and moral to society, because it will help you to relieve your mentality from the problems of society.
Or just come to indonesia, the country with 6 religion available with strict moral value.
