Will never grow tired of this pair <3

Ok, I am going crazy. What is the scribbled out word on 14-3, can anyone make it out?

...I have been away far too long to not know what is going on anymore T_T Looks like i need to sink another X hundred hours into it.

I don't know which is sadder at this point, the ending, or the probability of never getting the rest of the chapters...