Azai
Lol well for your field of work I think it's okay that you study a lot XD the people you help will thank you. I definitely have stuff that I want to do before I settle down. That is why I find it so odd that so many of my friends are getting married and having babies, and I'm just over here thinking I would be dying to have to settle down so early and not go out and experience more things.

I don't know why having a serious relationship excludes experiencing more things :/ does it really? O_O
Having babies I understand it does of course. But you should always experience new things with the person you, like right? :<

Urk. Settling down is like way out of the page of my to do list :/
I'm sorry for being a kill joy but I just don't see myself being with someone forever~~
Lol

hm, well, but that's different than not wanting it because you want to experience things. That's just what you like regardless, right? I don't think you're a kill joy, I mean if that's what you like ^-^ I'm a romantic so I can't relate but I suppose romance is not everyone's priority!

I used to be a romantic person. But then some asshole walks by and trampled my feelings right in my face and everything just got fucked up. So here I am. Haha

Faylicia, you see why one can't just get into relationships if they know they are assholes? Because that may happens. ( points to KittoKatto and then pats her head ) we create pervets. not something that bad though lol

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Azai
Lol well for your field of work I think it's okay that you study a lot XD the people you help will thank you. I definitely have stuff that I want to do before I settle down. That is why I find it so odd that so many of my friends are getting married and having babies, and I'm just over here thinking I would be dying to have to settle down so early and not go out and experience more things.

I don't know why having a serious relationship excludes experiencing more things :/ does it really? O_O
Having babies I understand it does of course. But you should always experience new things with the person you, like right? :<

It doesn't exclude things. Like I said, the best part of the relationship with that girl was about being able to share things. But it's no use if this is only about your experiences, not your partner's too, isn't it? And that's my problem for now. Maybe I just didn't like her enough to listen to her, so maybe I'm being too radical about not pursuing another serious relationship for now. But it just hurt knowing I had hurt her. And I want to make sure it won't happen again. So I will wait for a better time.

KittoKatto101

Azai
You ?? Asshole ?? How ?? Hahaha

I screwed up. I had gotten used to college life and things were going my way. I had already came out as bi (not to my parents though), when I met her. She had the same values as me, she was fun and kind, so I was pretty happy dating her. The best part of it was being able to share things with someone, you know? Things that made your day, things that got you down, yada yada. I'm not fond to sharing things with anyone I know, unless that person is very important to me and she knew that. BUT when it was time to listen, I just didn't have enough time for her. I have this problem of being a little overachiever and self-centered. So one day she decided to talk about it. I realized I couldn't bring myself to quit my things, so I could have more time for her, even though I really liked her. So I broke up with her and it made me feel very bad, because she cried a lot.

ugh, that story pierced my heart... sorry, but I must admit that's a bit mean >.> but well ^-^''' don't worry, you seem to have realized that so ^-^''' err... :< but well, sometimes you have to sacrifice some things in a relationship, especially if the other person is going the same for you... I mean you have to reciprocate what they do I guess? I stopped talking to that jerk because she never cared about my feelings and she always wanted to do what suited her ^-^**

Yeah, don't need to worry. You can say it, because it's the truth. I told you she made me realize I'm an asshole lol. I really want to have someone's back one day, for real. But for now I guess I need to do my things. That's why I'm not really getting into any relationship for now. Maybe I should just sacrifice somethings like you said, but I'm afraid I may end up blaming the person I'm with for any frustration. So for now, I should just let it be.

yeah I think that's great :), if you're not ready it's probably better to follow your heart oh but oh! O|||O what will you do if you fall for someone and they want you too? sorry if I'm asking hard questions >.> do you like the jelly photo I posted? :)

I don't know. For now I think I would just avoid them. Even though dofudofu is right about trying to balance love and life goals, I think that last relationship made me a little afraid to screw up again. I know I should just chill and be less controling over life, but that's my way for now at least.
And yeah, I appreciated the jelly thing lol

you study a lot don't you? :) maybe you need to get done with that first and then err... you were studying sth with medicine? sorry I forgot ;_; I'm not sure T_T

I study a lot, because I don't wanna end up killing anyone xD (yeah, I'm in med school). But it's really not just about that. My carreer is important to me, but there are more things. Like all that I want to live and experience, before settling down. Unless I find someone truly adventurous too, I think I'm better of alone for now.

I gotta say people here have such an interesting life/love story xD

Wait, does that mean that at some point in here, everyone's been sharing their life story but me? o_o...Does that mean I have to tag along with this now?

Pretty much.

Uhh...okay? Well, I'm not too big on sharing stuff, but...here's a few things, I guess.

• I lived in Egypt first, then my family moved to Italy and then to Germany.
• I'm the only one of my family, who has remained in Germany, because the rest of them moved back to Egypt when I was 20.
• I've pretty much always known I was a lesbian and never found anything attractive in any guy. Ever.
• I first met Su when she was 18 and she became an important figure in one of my very first cases of trying to make a teen's life less of a hell.
• I can drink half a bottle of tobasco sauce and not bat an eye. I've been able to do that ever since I lost a bet in college.
• I survived a train crash 11 years ago. Ever since then, I haven't been on a single train again.

/shrugs/ Except for those few things, my life has been pretty normal.

Height & age plsssss. XD
Thankyou !!! :>

Isn't Lin the giant one in our group? 182 or something xD

KittoKatto101

Azai
You ?? Asshole ?? How ?? Hahaha

I screwed up. I had gotten used to college life and things were going my way. I had already came out as bi (not to my parents though), when I met her. She had the same values as me, she was fun and kind, so I was pretty happy dating her. The best part of it was being able to share things with someone, you know? Things that made your day, things that got you down, yada yada. I'm not fond to sharing things with anyone I know, unless that person is very important to me and she knew that. BUT when it was time to listen, I just didn't have enough time for her. I have this problem of being a little overachiever and self-centered. So one day she decided to talk about it. I realized I couldn't bring myself to quit my things, so I could have more time for her, even though I really liked her. So I broke up with her and it made me feel very bad, because she cried a lot.

ugh, that story pierced my heart... sorry, but I must admit that's a bit mean >.> but well ^-^''' don't worry, you seem to have realized that so ^-^''' err... :< but well, sometimes you have to sacrifice some things in a relationship, especially if the other person is going the same for you... I mean you have to reciprocate what they do I guess? I stopped talking to that jerk because she never cared about my feelings and she always wanted to do what suited her ^-^**

Yeah, don't need to worry. You can say it, because it's the truth. I told you she made me realize I'm an asshole lol. I really want to have someone's back one day, for real. But for now I guess I need to do my things. That's why I'm not really getting into any relationship for now. Maybe I should just sacrifice somethings like you said, but I'm afraid I may end up blaming the person I'm with for any frustration. So for now, I should just let it be.

yeah I think that's great :), if you're not ready it's probably better to follow your heart oh but oh! O|||O what will you do if you fall for someone and they want you too? sorry if I'm asking hard questions >.> do you like the jelly photo I posted? :)

I don't know. For now I think I would just avoid them. Even though dofudofu is right about trying to balance love and life goals, I think that last relationship made me a little afraid to screw up again. I know I should just chill and be less controling over life, but that's my way for now at least.
And yeah, I appreciated the jelly thing lol

"There was not a single person on my side."
"When I felt like everyone in this world hated me, that girl who I felt had recieved all the love in the world, had liked me."
"If it's like that, who would complain."
"When people told me I shouldn't have been born, and told me to die instead and put curses on me"
"that girl still loved me."
"and I was able to live on just knowing that one fact."
"Anyone who sees it as nothing and as a relationship just based on our bodies, they can laugh if they want to laugh."
"Obsessed."
"Foolish."
"Greed."
"Sin."
"It doesn't matter what you call it."
"I don't need anything else so everyone can fuck off!"
"Can't I atleast like one person out of my own will?"

This hurts soo soo bad. Damn.

I just... I just want to cry.

Thanks, Newp!!

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KittoKatto101

Azai
You ?? Asshole ?? How ?? Hahaha

I screwed up. I had gotten used to college life and things were going my way. I had already came out as bi (not to my parents though), when I met her. She had the same values as me, she was fun and kind, so I was pretty happy dating her. The best part of it was being able to share things with someone, you know? Things that made your day, things that got you down, yada yada. I'm not fond to sharing things with anyone I know, unless that person is very important to me and she knew that. BUT when it was time to listen, I just didn't have enough time for her. I have this problem of being a little overachiever and self-centered. So one day she decided to talk about it. I realized I couldn't bring myself to quit my things, so I could have more time for her, even though I really liked her. So I broke up with her and it made me feel very bad, because she cried a lot.

ugh, that story pierced my heart... sorry, but I must admit that's a bit mean >.> but well ^-^''' don't worry, you seem to have realized that so ^-^''' err... :< but well, sometimes you have to sacrifice some things in a relationship, especially if the other person is going the same for you... I mean you have to reciprocate what they do I guess? I stopped talking to that jerk because she never cared about my feelings and she always wanted to do what suited her ^-^**

Yeah, don't need to worry. You can say it, because it's the truth. I told you she made me realize I'm an asshole lol. I really want to have someone's back one day, for real. But for now I guess I need to do my things. That's why I'm not really getting into any relationship for now. Maybe I should just sacrifice somethings like you said, but I'm afraid I may end up blaming the person I'm with for any frustration. So for now, I should just let it be.

GraciousLlama

Azai
Lol you are too funny, just agree that she should get fired because it's totally true haha

And I'm totally lost on this whole jelly conversation lol

I read it! Yep, totally agree with them. She doesn't deserve her position. But people like that backfires themselves. Hold on.

I'm not even going to comment about that jelly thing. Lmao. Don't know where that came from.

Safest indicator that you're in a forum full of women: the topic changes.
You people are giving me a whiplash here. xD

I swear I just give up. My head hurts.

KittoKatto101

Azai
You ?? Asshole ?? How ?? Hahaha

I screwed up. I had gotten used to college life and things were going my way. I had already came out as bi (not to my parents though), when I met her. She had the same values as me, she was fun and kind, so I was pretty happy dating her. The best part of it was being able to share things with someone, you know? Things that made your day, things that got you down, yada yada. I'm not fond to sharing things with anyone I know, unless that person is very important to me and she knew that. BUT when it was time to listen, I just didn't have enough time for her. I have this problem of being a little overachiever and self-centered. So one day she decided to talk about it. I realized I couldn't bring myself to quit my things, so I could have more time for her, even though I really liked her. So I broke up with her and it made me feel very bad, because she cried a lot.

GraciousLlama
I'm totally lost in this topic about your manager lol. I didn't manage to keep track of it. But people are saying she should get fired, so I agree with them, because I will stand by their side always (kidding, I will read about it).

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GraciousLlama

Azai
I have not actually had a serious relationship with a girl before, I've had a serious relationship with a guy but I'm not so sure if that counts because I really had to force myself to be in that relationship. It really wasn't good for me.

I count only three relationships that lasted considerably (two guys and one girl). First guy, first love (no more details are needed, you can guess. it's lame just like any teenager fling). Second guy taught me a lot; we both ended up in pretty good terms. The girl made me realize I was an asshole, so I decided to retreat.

One night stands are awesome. (✧ω✧)
High Five Azai :3

/ high five /
I like one nighters, cause It's easier when both sides are aware that nothing else can be expected aside from sex. Right now, even though I'd like to have a serious relationship, I'm still not ready for that.

I always think I would love to have a serious relationship but then when it comes down to it, I'm totally now ready for that. So I hear ya about the one nighters lol

I had some relationships before and I really enjoyed them. But the last ended up pretty bad and I decided I should just let it be for now.

Martian

KitKat1010

But..but it's so hard to ketchup with you guys xD

I know haha. But give it a try. We are all trying to ketchup here, so I think everybody just keep going back and forth the chat.

yea I give them my best Restingbitchface and keep it moving. but as a queer woman dealing with drunk men is the worst especially if for some reason they find out im queer. Its like my sexuality has nothing to do with u, and NO theres nothing you can help me figure out fucktart #endrant

This is the worst thing ever. When people judge you or became rude to you just bc they found out about your sexuality. It's just so unfair. It makes me wanna dig a hole for them and bury them alive. Ugh

ugh yea ive gotten asked to join so many threesomes by drunk dudes.. its so gross.. Im like NO THANK U!! Im into girls and dont wanna be anywhere near you and your penis

I'm so glad no one's ever asked me that!

No one's ever asked me to do a threesome with them but a guy asked me to at least have a one night time with him but naaaaah. I don't dig having sex with men. I'd rather sleep with a girl XD
Wait, does that make me a lesbian and not bisexual ??

I don't think so? I'm the same? ah but... I wouldn't have sex if a girl asked me either... so I don't know but... um, I think it's normal to have a preference :D

I'm really trying to keep up with the rhythm of this conversation lol
I always lose it when a drunk guy who knows about my sexuality asks me if I want to join a threesome. Specially if I already rejected his advances. I have nothing against threesomes, but I don't see myself in one. I don't mind one night stands though. For now, that's what I'm into...

One night stands are awesome. (✧ω✧)
High Five Azai :3

/ high five /
I like one nighters, cause It's easier when both sides are aware that nothing else can be expected aside from sex. Right now, even though I'd like to have a serious relationship, I'm still not ready for that.

yea I give them my best Restingbitchface and keep it moving. but as a queer woman dealing with drunk men is the worst especially if for some reason they find out im queer. Its like my sexuality has nothing to do with u, and NO theres nothing you can help me figure out fucktart #endrant

This is the worst thing ever. When people judge you or became rude to you just bc they found out about your sexuality. It's just so unfair. It makes me wanna dig a hole for them and bury them alive. Ugh

ugh yea ive gotten asked to join so many threesomes by drunk dudes.. its so gross.. Im like NO THANK U!! Im into girls and dont wanna be anywhere near you and your penis

I'm so glad no one's ever asked me that!

No one's ever asked me to do a threesome with them but a guy asked me to at least have a one night time with him but naaaaah. I don't dig having sex with men. I'd rather sleep with a girl XD
Wait, does that make me a lesbian and not bisexual ??

I don't think so? I'm the same? ah but... I wouldn't have sex if a girl asked me either... so I don't know but... um, I think it's normal to have a preference :D

I'm really trying to keep up with the rhythm of this conversation lol
I always lose it when a drunk guy who knows about my sexuality asks me if I want to join a threesome. Specially if I already rejected his advances. I have nothing against threesomes, but I don't see myself in one. I don't mind one night stands though. For now, that's what I'm into...

Oh, man, I made it home earlier today. I can't believe I missed the discussion about sexuality and working in bars though. / growling /

DITTO... maybe ill get the app. feel like im always walking in after fun/intense convos happen #storyofmylife =(

What, theres an app for this? O__O

I didn't know an app for this existed XD
But yea, I know how elthudercat and Azai feels when they miss all the fun. It's sad and even if you wanna join in and talk about that again, you just can't bc it's been 4 fucking pages away from the current page.

Right? I mean, you may see the conversation going on, but you're in work and you can't really write anything, because it would take too much of your attention. But you like "waaaaait for me! Don't leave me behind!" And then 2 pages happens.

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Oh, man, I made it home earlier today. I can't believe I missed the discussion about sexuality and working in bars though. / growling /

Guys, if it's kind of heartbreaking for TeamBlonde, imagine for Team Pink. I swear I'm living the 5 stages of grief simultaneously T^T
I'm in denial, while raging because of my damaged ship, trying to think of a way to bargain Seju's happiness, and got damn depressed because I have accepted my poor choices in shipping lol.

Why is it heartbreaking for Team Blonde lmao

I don't know either lol. But KittoKatto mentioned it. (I think she was just teasing Team Pink. I don't blame her for that though lol)

Ohh~~
That was me speaking as myself only not as a member of TeamBlonde xD
I just like it when someone with a strong personality or appearance suddenly cries or breaks down. Lol

Yeah, sorry KittoKatto, I forgot to add some on my statement.

RAINY, I'M HERE FOR YOU. DON'T YOU DARE LEAVE TEAM BLONDE </3 THERE'S NOT ENOUGH OF US AS IT ISSS. ;(( Kitkat is also here for you too!! DON'T JOIN THE DARK SIDEE.

⊙⊙ is my safety being threatened here?

Yeah, man. I tell you, they are scary. That's why you should join the dark... I mean the pink side. xD (you know, I'm just teasing you, right? I assumed this role of recruiting the indecisive for our side, but I don't know if you understand I'm just really really having fun here)

Guys, if it's kind of heartbreaking for TeamBlonde, imagine for Team Pink. I swear I'm living the 5 stages of grief simultaneously T^T
I'm in denial, while raging because of my damaged ship, trying to think of a way to bargain Seju's happiness, and got damn depressed because I have accepted my poor choices in shipping lol.

Why is it heartbreaking for Team Blonde lmao

I don't know either lol. But KittoKatto mentioned it. (I think she was just teasing Team Pink. I don't blame her for that though lol)

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Sobs.. sobs..
This chapter makes me wanna join team pink..

Wtf, Rainy?! Don't do it. Lol. Seriously, once you join in, you just can't leave. And it's too much suffering. but I could use another shoulder to cry on

I need a break, i need kit kat, and i also need a shoulder... :'(

You can have KittoKatto later. Let's hug and cry on each other shoulders then. evil smirk while hugging, because I will make you my new recruit

Hugs.. sobs..
Coax me..

Here's a cookie for you (they are better than kit kat). too late Newp. I said no one can resist Team Pink charismatic-oh-so-hot Striker

Sobs.. sobs..
This chapter makes me wanna join team pink..

Wtf, Rainy?! Don't do it. Lol. Seriously, once you join in, you just can't leave. And it's too much suffering. but I could use another shoulder to cry on

I need a break, i need kit kat, and i also need a shoulder... :'(

You can have KittoKatto later. Let's hug and cry on each other shoulders then. evil smirk while hugging, because I will make you my new recruit

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Haha more like no more all nighters for painting projects and history essays. I would probably pull an all nighter 3 times a week. Used to be so unhealthy and weak during my school days..
On the plus side however; not much studying involved in Fine Arts.. aside from memorizing information and the exact dates and time periods for roughly 300 art works.. but thats only once for the exam so aside from that.. life was all about painting and drawing haha .. which actually isnt all that great as people think it is.

You should show us one of your art work. That is if they are free lol.

What would you like to see ^ ^ Painting? Charcoal drawng? Digital?

How about you pick one to share? Which one is the one you love the most or something.

lol I will just put it as a link instead of embedding the image cause its embarrassing xD

There you go~
http://imgur.com/9km7rb7
This one is a semi-installation I did. Drew a life-size man in charcoal, cut him out and put him against a wall with a table in front to make it seem like he's a part of reality.
http://imgur.com/5QQKzlL
This one is just a x2 life size painting of one of my favourite game characters.

Embarrassing?! It's amazing, Newp! That man in charcoal is just... Awesome. You go, girl

Sobs.. sobs..
This chapter makes me wanna join team pink..

Wtf, Rainy?! Don't do it. Lol. Seriously, once you join in, you just can't leave. And it's too much suffering. but I could use another shoulder to cry on

Guys, if it's kind of heartbreaking for TeamBlonde, imagine for Team Pink. I swear I'm living the 5 stages of grief simultaneously T^T
I'm in denial, while raging because of my damaged ship, trying to think of a way to bargain Seju's happiness, and got damn depressed because I have accepted my poor choices in shipping lol.