I’ve just re-read the entire series, twice, and while there certainly are some unanswered questions about Ayako’s earlier life and motivations, the above is, while highly imaginative and inventive, completely ungrounded in anything in the text except the (translated) word “crime.”
Ayako does feel guilty about something (that Akira says wasn’t her fault).
Possibilities that come from the text include: getting involved in the first place with Asuka’s father, who was younger and her tutoring pupil, getting pregnant, for not paying enough attention to Asuka while studying to be a pharmacist, or maybe even something to do with Asuka’s father’s death. (When she refers to her “crimes” we see an image of Asuka’s father from the back, looking very young.)
It’s an incredibly common trope in Asian popular culture for someone to blame themselves or to feel extreme guilt and shame for something that they actually had only the most indirect responsibility for—things that in the West would be considered “an unfortunate circumstance” at worst are treated by the characters as “sins” or “crimes” in manga, Asian dramas, etc.
For instance, as soon as Ayako learns that Asuka is sexually attracted to her, she blames herself for being a bad mom and apologizes.
The business about Ayako abusing drugs and committing sexual abuse is based on absolutely nothing in the text. Zero.
And whatever Ayako’s “crimes” may or may not be, the text tells us they concern her dead husband, not her daughter.
(We’ve just been lectured about not being “disrespectful” in our disagreements, no matter how preposterous or inane the ideas. So I won’t be.)
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