Even though I was born in Brazil, my house always had a heavy Japanese environment. I've learned Japanese and Portuguese simultaneously, because my parents would talk in Japanese at home. I was the weird kid at school that sometimes added Japanese words in my speech xD. There were also a lot of issues regarding cultural aspects, since my reference was the Japanese culture, but I was learning the Brazilian way outside. It was harder at the beginning, but eventually a kid get used to it.

Yeah, I can relate to that a little. But at least your parents could properly teach you Japanese and get you in touch with your original culture. Since my parents spoke languages that weren't similar at all, they talked in English most of the time, so I basically learned Arabic and Italian, which would've usually been my two mother tongues, as my second and third languages. I needed Arabic for not even 2 years of my life and Italian for barely another 7. For the past 20 years, I have been speaking German to communicate with Germans and English to communicate with my family. I barely remember a few words of Arabic and Italian, which really makes me a bit sad. :-[

@Martian:
I edited my previous post and added a few pointers for you to remember now. If you really do feel like you might not be safe in your house right now, I advise you try to follow them. I don't want to needlessly scare you, but it'd be unrealistic to just say it's nothing while at the moment, it could really be anything.

I come from a Japanese family who immigrated to Brazil. I'm the result of a traditional Japanese family raised in a completely different culture from my house lol.

That's kind of cool! But did you actually learn Japanese culture from your family or did you only get to know the Brazilian's way of living?

@Martian:
o_0 ... Maybe switch on the lights and turn on the TV to fake there's people in the house? It usually drives potential robbers away pretty quickly. Otherwise, if the weather is stormy outside, I agree with Mvl. Wind can be pretty powerful.

If you really feel unsafe now and think there might be a robber nearby, here's some emergency pointers to remember:
* Get something long and hard as a weapon to defend yourself with. Pretty much anything that won't immediately break after dealing a hit will do.
* Do not get a knife as a weapon, but make sure they're stored away in a place the potential robber couldn't find them.
* Sit in a way so a wall is behind you and the next door is far enough away from you so you can actually react should someone come in.
* If there is somebody coming into your house, do not confront them. Do not look for them. Do not go search for the source of noises you hear. Stay where you are and stay as calm as you can.
* If this won't do, call the police. Ask them to come check what's going on.

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But it would be too cruel to raise one in a place that is forever summer

o_0...Where do you live?

Brazil xD

And I thought you were one of the Asians in here. xD

I just think it's so unfair how we treat animals, which are so sensitive and empathetic the way we do. :-( I've seen it in a documentary once. There was a farmer's son, who was 18 years old. They had a 15 year old cow and she was basically his best friend. Whenever he didn't feel okay, he would go into the stable and sit with his cow and she would usually put her head on his shoulder and press her front to his as if mimicking a hug or lick him all over like a dog trying to cheer you up. I swear, I had almost gone vegetarian after seeing that doc. They're basically big, slow dogs and we treat them like shit. Meh.

But it would be too cruel to raise one in a place that is forever summer

o_0...Where do you live?

Aaaand it looks like I just killed the thread...
Distraction Time! =D
Look at these calves and be smitten by their adorableness.

Fun Fact: did you know cows can actually feel and distinguish about as many emotions as dogs? I don't know, I think that's amazing...

I-I see... >.> is Berline that dangerous?

Parts of it are, parts of it aren't. You see, the gap between the rich and the poor in Berlin is actually pretty big. Either people have everything they need and more, or they have next to nothing and can barely live from day to day. People like me and Su, who earn enough to live comfortably and without having to worry too much are actually kind of rare here. The poor having to live with displays of the rich spending more than any normal person would naturally makes those poor people jealous and angry. And sometimes this anger leads them on the path of criminality. Illegal prostitution, drug trade, weapon trade and auto theft are the biggest problems here. Not only that, but Berlin is a multicultural city. With that many ethnicities and religions living together in such a tight space, conflicts are bound to happen.

by the way, you must tell me :< why am I walking contradiction?! I need to know this!!!

It's an instinct of mine talking to me, don't read too much into it. xD From the things you've shared about you and your past until now, you just strike me as someone, who doesn't seem whole, so to say. You don't seem like someone, who can find peace and harmony within themselves and judged by how you word your thoughts and feelings, you just seem to be on edge a lot of the time. This contradicts with your usual cheerfulness and carelessness you seem to display here, which is why I said that to me, you seem like a walking contradiction. It's just an assumption - one I still either need to prove myself right or wrong on. Don't fret because of that. xD

her father sounds a bit dangerous >.>

He is a drill sergeant in the airforce. He taught each of his children how to fight and defend themselves, so all of Su's siblings are actually very skilled hand-to-hand fighters. Her mother told me that until she was about 15/16 years old and her heart problems started raising their ugly heads, Su herself was actually quite a good kickboxer. When her body couldn't really deal with the intense stamina training anymore though, she was forced to give it up. But since living in Berlin can be dangerous, especially when you're a young woman, her father taught her knife fighting techniques. Since you're armed that way, your weapon does most of the fighting for you - all you need to remember are the techniques and to stay calm. That's why I said I usually take either my brother, his dog or her with me whenever I think it could get dangerous. People usually back off when they see someone taking a stance with a hunting knife.

omg, has she actually drawn a knife at someone before? O_O

Yes.

@Fay & Martian:

Su's father is a drill sergeant in the airforce. He taught each of his children how to fight and defend themselves, so all of Su's siblings are actually very skilled hand-to-hand fighters. Her mother told me that until she was about 15/16 years old and her heart problems started raising their ugly heads, Su herself was actually quite a good kickboxer. When her body couldn't really deal with the intense stamina training anymore though, she was forced to give it up. But since living in Berlin can be dangerous, especially when you're a young woman, her father taught her knife fighting techniques. Since you're armed that way, your weapon does most of the fighting for you - all you need to remember are the techniques and to stay calm. That's why I said I usually take either my brother, his dog or her with me whenever I think it could get dangerous. People usually back off when they see someone taking a stance with a hunting knife. ^_^

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Its a comic book called Scott Pilgrim (also made into a movie a few years ago)
where a guy has to face like 7-8 of his gfs evil ex boyfriends XD its so jokes haha

That sounds awesome, I need to find that movie. xD

Lucy the stone butch hockey player.. nice.. XDD. Poor Su hahah.

Yeah...as much as I love her, but I think she would really get her ass handed to Lucy.

Btw, @Mvl:
I just retraced my steps in my dating history for a bit and uh...ehehe...I actually have 11 ex's. ^_^;;

reminds me of Scott Pilgrim xD

Who is Scott Pilgrim?

Just imagining Su in a hospital bed battling all of them one by one.

They would all shit her pants if they had to face off against Su. xD Su actually learned knife fighting from her father, so she'd own each and every one of them, lol. ...Well, except for Lucy, maybe. Lucy was a Stone Butch and a Hockey player. Yeah, I think Luce would have a chance, but the others...nooope. xD

did she actually ask to marry you or did she just mention it...?

Neither. She was just talking about it like it's already set in stone that we are actually gonna get married and one of us is gonna do the whole artificial insemination thing and have kids etc. She never even asked me. There was no proposal or anything. We just talked about our career futures and she just suddenly went "Well, we just need to make sure to have enough money so we can buy a house. I mean, I wouldn't want to raise our kids in a small condo or something." Again: we were 2 months into our relationship!

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Well i dont really understand why are u afraid of this ex.

I don't actually fear her, but she just makes me extremely, extremely uncomfortable. >_<

How freaky was she?

She was completely nuts! You would've had better luck counting the screws, that were fix instead of those she had loose, cause there were a looooot of those! Dx She had this completely insane habit of not getting more than 3 hours and 20 minutes (she actually set her clock) of sleep during weekdays, because she liked the feeling of "her mind hovering between illusion and reality" as she used to call it. She painted her nails the same color as her bed sheets. She called psychology utterly fascinating, because it "gives you insight on how to utterly destroy a human without putting a single finger on them." And she started talking to me about kids and marriage 2 months into our relationship! I dumped her after 3 months, when I had finally realized what kind of looney I had ended up with. She was all like "It's fine, take your time. I know you'll be back." /cringes/

@Martian:
I doubt the force will be enough. Dx I wonder if Su will be mad if I train Jacky to be vicious. o_o Then again, even if I tried, I guess she'd rather smother someone with her cuddles than actually bite them. =_=

@Azai:
I think I'll be fine as long as I just avoid the inner city for a little bit. Knowing her, she'll have an eye out for me knowing that I'm still here. Dx

@Rainy:
YOU ARE NOT GETTING MY DAMN TOP! (`I_I´)

Lolz.. juz how many exes are u dealing with, Lin?

Uhm...ehehe...let's just say I think I was quite like Dofu in my younger years. ^_^;;

@Azai:
Uh huh. o__o; I was just walking Jacky and suddenly I hear this uncomfortably familiar voice behind me going "Omg, Angie? Is that you? It's you, right?" I turn around and whom do I spot? Of all the girls I dated, the freakiest one. I mean, if I would have lived the rest of my life without ever seeing her again, I would've been perfectly happy. And now I run into her in the street and she immediately starts talking about how it was such a mistake that we broke up and she has dated a few after me, but they could never compare and blah blah blah. I ran. I'm not kidding. She was still going on and I just hailed down a cab, told her I just remembered I needed to do something, hopped in and told the driver to step on it. /shivers/

@Martian:
I lent Draglin to Azai, so I guess I'm on my own for a while. Dx /hides behind Reeba/

last edited at Apr 16, 2016 11:50AM

So the Raimvl ship's sailing? XD

I thought they've been canon for a while now? I mean, weren't they Honey Bee and Honey Comb? Gawd, I can't keep up with your wild romances anymore. xD

Hey Martian. xD

Guys, I'm going to hide here for the weekend. I think it's "return of the ex"-season or something and it's creeping the fudge outta me. o_o;

Gonna quickly take Jacky for a walk before the rain starts up again. BRB!

@Mvl:
Due to Su being plugged on to a very sensitive device, that monitors her heart function 24/7, she isn't allowed to have a mobile phone, since it could disturb the machine's mechanisms. :-( That's why I said chances of her actually showing up here again before June are basically non-existent.

@Rainy:
It usually isn't a big deal at all. Lots of Germans catch colds throughout the year and they usually just suck it up and even still go to work while being sick. They're hardcore like that. xD But for Su it's a different story. Every time she gets sick, the process of her body fighting off the illness puts an unnecessary amount of strain on her. She takes really long to recover.

Just got a call from the hospital. Apparently, Su caught a cold and I won't be allowed to visit her for a few days. /sighs/

I like when it is quiet and cool.

Agreed. I really like it when it's cool, windy and the sky is gray, but no rain. Rain is just....urgh. >_<

last edited at Apr 16, 2016 8:37AM

Can i borrow that top? XD

NO!
Argh. And there we go. Stuck in my head again. Goddammit, Rainy. Dx
Rainy, are you planning on relocating to the US or something?

And it rains and rains and rains and rains.... /sighs/ Typical April. One day he makes you feel like summer's about to be there, the next it's like you're in the middle of autumn.

Good afternoon, girls. :-)

last edited at Apr 16, 2016 7:40AM

But overall, I'm just too curious.

I think being interested in human behavior is natural. After I studied it for 8 long years, I think it's also natural, that my curiosity has died down a little bit. xD When you do it literally every day, you learn to relax and take it easy. In most cases, what walks and talks like a duck is usually a duck. :-) It's a lot less complex than what most people usually think. xD

I'll log off for now. Need to get some sleep. xD See ya'll later!

This part sounds scary... it means u can but u dont...

xD Honestly, a decent psychoanalysis needs more than a few posts in a forum as a base. Fay is just special in a way, that she tends to share a whole lot of personal stories about her past, which got me interested in her in the first place. She's also very elaborate in describing her thoughts and feelings, so I figured I might give it a shot. She shared a few bad experiences and keeps on using metaphors and examples, that have a pretty negative touch to them. This is what made me think the way she shares all this stuff might mean she's actually trying to reach out to somebody, as if she's looking for someone to just listen to her story. Just think about it. When you have to think about a scenario, that describes "loneliness", would "trapped in an abandoned underground station for years" be one of the first things to pop into your head? I doubt it. While she might be trying to cover it up or downplay, I'm fairly convinced she's been through a lot of pain and it's left some quite noticeable scars. But like I also said before: I once concluded from the way she searches for and listens to music, that she seems to have problems figuring herself out. So might not even be quite aware of it all.

Always made me wonder if psychologists could stop the process of analysis.

Professionals can. ^_^ And we do, too. It's actually quite simple. xD You just remember, that not everyone is hurt and broken and in need of help and then you move on.

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